feeling lonely

unknxwn

All hopes around a finger

playlist

goodbye/_/

GBC Vibes

Sadshhhhhii

Buy on itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1304717741?ls=1&app=itunes
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Lyrics

I look in the mirror and i hate what i see 
man i hate how I'm living,
Different pills every week cause i need em to sleep
 and i got no prescription,
Got some stains on my shirt.
smoking blunts when i hurt 
but they barely work, 
load the barrel and burst,
a big hole thru my body,
might cop a few xans live my life as zombie.
where no one could find me,
Police wouldnt try me, 
light up the bong take some hits & im flying,
nothing could feel any better than dying.
im right where you left me, 
always felt happiness,
even thru texting,
your voice would echo
 all in my mind,
borrow my heart 
and ill borrow your time. 
treat you the way that i wanted to all of the shit that i done for u.
vanquished from all of your memories hope you remember me, 
your mortal enemy,
everything everyone hate,
born by mistake,
so what you expect, 
alone in my room with a knife at my neck,
cut right to the left and i know that im dead.
i hope that your happy
cant even look at me i hate my reflection 
and if i die early theyll blame my depression 
the devil just knocked and i think that ill let him in 
side of my mind he can take what he needs cause without it im fine 
he insert and rewind the all the time that we spent 
if he gave me a price id pay down to the cent

ITUNES

Echoes In A Hollow Skull (Prod. Frander)

Tom Odell - Heal

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@lil_peep

lil peep - lil kennedy [prod. nedarb]

The album 'Dawn' is out now: found.ee/RyX_DawnLinkfire

Watch the video here: http://found.ee/RY_XOnlyYT

The moment has come. A RY X album is here. May 6 we share 'Dawn' .
Thank you for the patience and support of me to put a body of work together for all your hearts and bones. Here is 'Only' - a beginning to the album as a whole. (and thank you Annie Mac for premiering on BBC Radio 1)

Listen to "Only" on Spotify - http://found.ee/RyX_OnlySptfy // Buy on iTunes - http://found.ee/RyX_OnlyiT

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Only

ghost girl (prod. lederrick)

white tee w/ yung bruh (prod. nedarb)

crybaby (prod. lederrick x lil peep)

Gustav Ahr's Album

kiss (prod. smokeasac)

lyrics:

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
oh my god

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when im alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my god 
i been busy scheming every night now

tainted lips 
never helps when i speak out
release my hips
all i wanna do is sleep now
feel the drug 
slowly spill into my braincells
oh my god
i been busy smoking every night now

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

i try try try
with you i tried
but i will die
hollowed out inside

winters in my bones
hatred in my brain
i will show no signs
i will show no pain

i lie lie lie
god its such a shame
everything has changed
i dont look the same

awake at 3am 
phone glow on my face
god its such a shame
everything has changed

arctic eyes (prod. nciku)

lyrics:

ive got too much to die for
3am and my eyes sore
i think i smoked more
then i was good for

she says that she loves me
layed out naked in the pine leaves
she said baby its cold out
but ive got my own heat

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

all u left was ur coat 
i could float on my words if i chose
i could choke on the do and the donts
i fix everything i had wronged
but ud pick it apart and just tell me i should go

tell me i should go
rum is in ur coke
i could see the bag that u were using for the blow
i dont fuck with them
but i guess i fuck with u
so if u want me to go i guess that thats what imma do

u tell me im lost 
but i fell in love with u
im really only lost
cause i know im losing u
great ok thats cool
guess its bye from the door
id say text me when ur home but i never hear from u

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

luv me (prod. kryptik)

Daughter - Medicine

prod. @killedmyself

lyrics: https://genius.com/Sedative-beauty-sorry-im-busy-annotated

sorry i'm busy

sorry i'm busy [prod. killedmyself]

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

leaves (prod. ʎpoqou)

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vzJuvbRZ29Y
Lyrics:
coffee cigarettes and good dope
the bathroom mirrors all fuckin broke
but i know who i wanna take me home
i wanna bad bitch but she wont hit up my phone
im stranded out in the city on a friday
broken hearted silhouette shoutout the homie stillframes
i cant see my reflection am i dead or am i trippin
i pop these drugs so i can feel good again
eeny meeny miny moe
i catch that hoe right by her toe
but if she hollars i wont never ever ever let her go
my stomach tied knots (yuh)
thinkin bad thoughts (yuh)
yell into the mic (yuh)
anger all gone (yuh)

baby where the fuck did you go
you left me an i aint even know
but they dont love you the way that i did
at least that what you told me when you called me up pissed
im so tired of all this fuckin bullshit
you say you wanna talk to me but halfway through you just dip
find me on the street layed out like a half wit
bitch its ok i know i aint worth shit
i know i fell in love with the wrong bitch
told me that she love me i dont even wanna heart it
all that dumb shit that you say it make my teeth grit
im so fuckin over you that you cant really do shit
but you wanna 
hit me up in the dm say lets link
thats a level that i would never sink
how dumb do you think
i am but baby wait

closing time (prod. Yapuzi) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

Lyrics:
oh my god (x3) oh my
are you really gonna be the one to make me die
are you really gonna be the one to help me fly
are you really gonna be the one to wrong my right
oh my god (x3) oh my
cuz i really need some help figuring out my life
all them drugs up on the table yeah they keep me high
all this shit is sentimental but its suicide

what the fuck suicide yeah its on my mind
so im drivin down the side of the highway blind
i see someone speeding past and they catch my eye
got my main bitch all up on my thats my ride or die
oh my god (x3) oh my
call me crazy calm down baby i aint tryna fight
fuck being sober girl come over and well both get high
pills on the table im unstable seeing green and white
pills on the table (yeah bitch damn)

three legged dog pt. 2

Lyrics:
girl she hit me up
i know she wanna fuck
baby i was outta luck
and to you i say fuck
nah
wanna buy me drugs 
nah
wanna hit the plug
nah
the fuck is in this cup
yuh
my brains shape is rough
when she come thru
she always bring friends
and when the night is due
we can ride home in this benz 
who the fuck are you
always tryna make new plans
hi you must be new
im uglyboy and im the fuckin man

fuck me up (prod. vaegud & sketchmyname)

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<3 LYRICS <3

and so as it seems no one wants me around
so i’ll pack up and leave and not come back to town
you’ll forget about me and hold feelings u found
it’s a burden on me but i still think about
my old house where my demons live
my old room i used to do acid in
if there’s one thing i’ve learned from all of this
its that getting older jus means u hate shit

and so as it seems i’m a nihilist now
everything bothers me without making a sound
hollow chest broken heart i wake up feeling doubt
i just want it to end can u please help me out
i just need u
to guide me thru
this stupid thing that’s in my head
i’m going thru
i feel betrayed every day i’m awake
i just want it to end is that too much to ask 
for fucks sake


and so as it seems no one wants me around
so i’ll cut both my wrists til i fucking bleed out
leave my body to waste in my room where u found
me lying there when u promised u would help
but it’s too late
i’m near the light
my body aches
and honestly i’m terrified
but one things for certain i’m glad that it’s over
and as my life flashes by i spent none sober

and so as it seems i wish i could relive
all the moments i wasted jus shooting the shit
with myself in the mirror on drugs as a kid
i’ll miss u my dear but don’t cry not one bit
i’m sorry
i hate me too
i can’t go back
i should’ve stayed alive for u
and now that it’s over i hate this decision
can u hold me closer i’m losing my vision 
:( ripp

a song about dying *p. sorrow bringer*

lyrics:
im the bitch with the all black ski mask
whenever i be on the road i fuckin skate fast
yea she was with me but i put that bitch right in the past
i cant believe that shit is over it was too fast

brand new bitch in a all black ski mask
hittin fuckin licks wit my clique in a hatchback
thumbin through the faces why you even gotta to ask that
need to know basis what im doing or where im at
she think im fuckin crazy cuz i pop a lotta molly
the drugs they make me lazy call my baby girl dolly
i think im fuckin crazy hearin shit from out the closet
said baby baby baby you aint got a lotta assets

but i met this fly girl
why girl
she told me she would ride girl
i guess that was a lie girl
you were not by my side girl
fuck it tho
i dont even care bouta hoe
money make me forget about being broke
lungs explode
where the fuck would you go
thinkin about the times with my woes
where would you go in the brand new drop top
no time to go slow youre hoe roll up
im just playing shows with my brotha
you know me and jackie came from the same mother

skate fast (prod. sketchmyname)

original song: visions of gideon by sufjan stevens from call me by your name

slowed slow audio editing ambient

sufjan stevens - visions of gideon (slowed)

Roslyn

Bon Iver  St. Vincent - Roslyn Slowed Echo

"things need change yeah i swear"

written, produced, mixed, masterd by TRECHOR BOY
cover art by TRECHOR BOY
guitar riff courtesy of MARC GARCIA 
vocals: @sushisai, @trechorboy


Lyrics: 

[SUISAI]

cause i cant fight
those subtleties and little things
take over me

you'll never see me again !

like please just slow down
bad heart beat skipping when i breathe
every night somehow
things need change ye i swear
like look around at what ive become now
like holy fuck what a let-down
constant bombarding to the walls
tear this place to the ground

(X2)

[TRECHOR BOY]

watch out 
for when i pull up, limousine
sippin white sprite, cola, no codeine

another day pass bash my head through plate glass 
now im bleedin from my fuckin- 
i cant feel anything below my neck & 
you stand still and watch it take me out

[SUISAI]

like when did we decide 
feelings compromised
every little thing
that you said to me
i thought we'd be
better off this time
wish we never tried
lie to myself
bottle up to the brim
overflowing
right out that top
CAUSE I CANT HOLD BACK
NO SENTENCE CAN EXPLAIN
STAY QUIET
TRACK BACK TO BEFORE ALL OF THIS
HAPPENED CAUSE WHAT WAS THE POINT

like please just slow down
bad heart beat skipping when i breathe
every night somehow
things need change ye i swear
like look around at what ive become now
like holy fuck what a let-down
constant bombarding to the walls
tear this place to the ground

BAD HEART

spotify

BAD HEART w/ suisai

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

Get Away feat. Goonsgrave (prod. NextLane Beats)

i’ve been running late
no i’m never on time
stuck inside my bed
with these thoughts on my mind
every single day it’s the same old routine
sleep past my alarms
then do nothing all day
saw you last week
i don’t think you knew that i still miss you
i’m wishing that you knew that
times have changed
but it all still feels the same way
lay awake at night
wishing everything would go away

i wish it all would go away
most nights i’m not feeling okay
you told me that i’ve changed now
you’re the one changed
cause i am
still the same way
i ain’t ever changed
i just miss the way we’d talk about everything
still the same way
i ain’t ever changed
i just miss the way we’d talk about everything
you went far away
now i’m not okay
now i’m laying in my bed
thinking bout those days

wish it all would go away

rest in peace juice. you were a big inspiration for me and a lot of people. you may have lived a short life, but at least you accomplished your dreams and never gave up. you’ll be remembered


lyrics:

i feel a change inside
something far beneath the skin
my demons are awakening
i feel them deep within
i never thought i’d make it
to see the next day
but here i am faking my existence like a game

i ponder my whole life
why am i even alive
when my body’s gone so numb
that i feel nothing inside

don’t even wanna try
i’m not even gunna lie
every day when i wake up
i just wanna end my life

these emotions are so dumb
my head’s banging like a drum
so i pop a couple pills
and my whole body goes numb

these feelings are too much
guess i’m really losing touch
of what’s real and what is not
so i’ll end it with a gun

i feel a change inside
something far beneath the skin
my demons are awakening
i feel them deep within
i never thought i’d make it
to see the next day
but here i am faking my existence like a game

i’ve struggled my whole life
just to feel like i’m alive
i’m decaying inside
so i’ll never be alright
no, i’ll never be alright

beneath the skin [prod. discent]

Lyrics

If I don't have you in the end then I lost
When I'm with you baby time stops
I want your love in my lock
Tunnel vision like a cyclops

A life without you I do not see
You're the only thing that I need
I promise you I will not leave
Everyone else just do not be

I really don't think I could take it
Baby it's real, I can't fake it
You feel it too, I can taste it
Tie me down, don't break it

If you get the chance don't take it
After you lose my trust can't save it
Deal with my problems by getting so faded
Life isn't fun, all I do is just hate it

I want a love that really last
I want someone that won't leave fast
I need that special warming feeling
Hope someone is able to heal me

I'm so scared to let you in girl
Cause if I do we most likely won't end well
You'll see all my darkness and run so fast
I'll be left so heartless in my own ash

spotify.

don't take it. | Produced by metlast

Lyrics

Why you left I really never might get
I don't really even know what the fuck I did
All alone inside my room every night I sit
I can't play this game anymore, I quit

Bad times or a bad mind?
Say I'm done for the last time
But I know I'm not cause that's life
I ain't sleep at all like last night

My life kinda goes like
Up and down then it swerves right
Into the water, I fell off the side
I lost my control when I thought about my

Attempts to get a grip
I'm on thin ice and I'm bouta slip
Did I really slip or did I get tripped?
There ain't shit I can take that could fix this

I'm a lost cause till my last breath
There was no one when I called help
That's what I get with my dumb self
Thinking anyone would even really care

Say you do but you're not there
I'ma lose life cause it's not fair
Know that I'm weird and not the rest
But the least you could do is not stare

Say I don't care but I really do
If you had my mind then what would you do?
Other than stress about all the times
You noticed that people were through with you

It hurts, I know, you're not alone
Don't get so worked up, life ain't real, it's all show
It hurts, I know, you're not alone
Don't get so worked up, life ain't real, it's all show

Why you left I really never might get
I don't really even know what the fuck I did
All alone inside my room every night I sit
I can't play this game anymore, I quit

bad mind. | Produced by rizi x chakuro

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

Happy birthday to me.

Lyrics

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
Fuck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, I'ma be gone

20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like shit

19, wanted her to find me
Last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know
I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope

2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like tracy, toss that bitch I littered

I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died

Fuck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my shit
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me

I know that I'm a mess
So cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less
Getting close to my last breath

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

XX! | Produced by boyfifty

Lyrics

Really cannot decide who am I
I'm a lie, throw on a mask like as soon as I walk outside
Scared of me so I hide everything that's inside
Scattered around in this dark fucking mind of mine

Losing the fight with my mental
Thoughts in my head really making me mental
Stuck on a loop from the shit that I been through
I'm not a person you wanna get into

Cold like a penguin, a gentoo
I regret every last message I sent you
Tasted the evil whenever I kissed you
I'll never get back the love that I lent you

Guess it's a lesson to learn
If you play with fire, you're gonna get burned
Bite like a vampire, my soul what she turned
I'm worried enough, I don't need your concern

Lost in my life why should I even try?
Don't tell me you love me, I'm allergic to lies
I'm not as bad as I think that I am but I think that I am
Anyone understand?

I really don't even think that you can
Cause I'm so up ahead that I'm where it began
I'm just a thought that is floating through space
Don't know when I took off but I'm waiting to land

lies. | Produced by SXINT x MXMUHD

made this last september and decided to post now

beat by metro (i think)
mixed by skinny atlas

@akumuh - on that! (prod. metro)

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

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