normal. (snippet)

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I don't believe in myself no more
I don't even really seek help no more
I don't wanna feel this regret no more
I'ma let it all go, don't wanna fight no more

But before I do that, I'll leave you with a part
Of me I never grew back, it's dead inside and dark
I could prolly make this work out
But I don't wanna fail if I can't make this work out

I tasted what I wanted
And then I fucked up and lost it
I chased it till I caught it
But I don't think I'll ever top it

I had hope then fucked it up
Where do I go? How do I cope?
Fuck this life, I've had enough
But I won't go, I'm needed too much

I don't wanna try, don't wanna quit, don't wanna do nothing
How I feel inside I can't describe but it ain't too fun
I lay up at night and I just think bout what I did wrong
Or if I'm solely only here cause I was did wrong

I don't believe in myself no more
I don't even really seek help no more
I don't wanna feel this regret no more
I'ma let it all go, don't wanna fight no more

But before I do that, I'll leave you with a part
Of me I never grew back, it's dead inside and dark
I could prolly make this work out
But I don't wanna fail if I can't make this work out

no more.

slumber.

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I could do this or do that, I'm still gone be fucking wrong
No one can get where I'm at, I know I'm fucking alone
I got some weight on my back, I'ma put some on this song
I'm lost, I can't find my way back, your life would be better if I was just gone

I never know what to do with the shit on my chest, that's why I'm fucking depressed
Wish I could care but ain't got any left, I only know how to mess up
What I have, I ain't ever the best, that's why I get fucking stressed
I try my hardest but it doesn't matter, no matter what I do, I'll just make her madder

I know that I suck
I know that I'll never get back to the person I was
I know that you don't give a fuck about me, not at all
All that I wanted was love

But all that you gave me was pain
All that you gave me was only to make me insane
Cause it's been years since we we're together
Somehow I still think when I'm with you I'm better

Without you I'm bitter
Without you I'm not nothing more than a loser and quitter
Without you it's been getting dimmer
Cause you were my fire and now I'm not even a simmer

Not even an ember of what once was
All that I wanted was love
All that I wanted was you
All you wanted was him, I know that I'll never be enough

I wish you would love me
I just wanna hold you
Why'd you ever hold me
Just to tell me "fuck you"?

You call me an asshole
At least I'm fucking faithful
I could save your life
And I know you wouldn't be grateful

wrong.

Produced by velvet

Lyrics

I don't wanna go home
There I feel much more alone
I'll stay out all night with friends
I know they ain't even friends for real, at least I can pretend

My bed's gonna be a grave
If the thoughts inside my head don't soon regress and go away
I keep fighting for the day that I can say that I'm okay
But I keep waking up and breaking down, don't know if that day is gone come around

We been doing this a while
You don't wanna see me smile
I think I'll just go and leave
Put headphones on and walk for miles

Till my feet
Can't carry me

My legs gonna be in pain
Till the blood from in my feet leaves the soles in my shoe stained
I'll keep walking till the day that I can say that I'm okay
I'm gonna be walking till the day I'm in a grave

I won't ever understand how the fuck I ended up right here
This shit was not the plan
I guess that's what I get, I'm so sick of this shit
They say home is where the heart is but I don't know where that is either

my bed's gonna be a grave.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

You don't know what you did, you don't know what you did to my mind, I'm pissed
But I wish you did, you don't know how I feel, you don't know what I hid
My feelings I'm always in, I always lose, I ain't ever gone win
I lost that girl, I won't find her again, she was my world but she don't care bout that shit

You ain't that girl, I don't care about you bitch
I'll cut you off like I don't care about my wrist
Fuck all these streams, I don't care about no hit
I can make songs, I do not care to vent

I lost all my hope
Say that I care but I know that I don't
Say you'll be there but I know that you won't
Been so many years and I still ain't coped

Been so many years and my heart still broke, wish you would call but we still ain't spoke
Glad that I quit but I still wanna smoke, 3 in the morning and I'm still woke
3 years from now and I'll still be making these sad songs, that's just me
I don't care what you think cause I know what I need, If I ain't have this music would of died at 18

Don't give a fuck about blowing up, sick of this life I been throwing up
I got some pain I been storing up, If it ain't her, I'm ignoring her
If you ain't her then don't call me, if it ain't her voice it don't calm me
Her love's a void and I'm falling, I need to change but I'm stalling

You don't know what you did, you don't know what you did to my mind, I'm pissed
But I wish you did, you don't know how I feel, you don't know what I hid
My feelings I'm always in, I always lose, I ain't ever gone win
I lost that girl, I won't find her again, she was my world but she don't care bout that shit

i need to change but i'm stalling.

Produced by sorrow bringer

Lyrics

All I ever wanted was a friend
I won't ever want that shit again
Cause every single time I ever did
I end up regretting, why'd I ever let them in?

All I ever wanted was a girl that could love me
I won't ever want that shit again, I'll be lonely
Every single time I ever did, it was phony
I end up regretting, she won't even fucking call me

God I sent you prayers, can you answer?
Why was our blessing cursed with cancer?
All I ever needed was a father
You just made that need feel even farther

Don't know where I am, did I get lost here?
You don't wanna know what kinda thoughts live here
I don't like the energy I got here
I'm tired of fighting, wanna stop right here

All I ever wanted was a friend
I won't ever want that shit again
Cause every single time I ever did
I end up regretting, why'd I ever let them in?

All I ever wanted was a girl that could love me
I won't ever want that shit again, I'll be lonely
Every single time I ever did, it was phony
I end up regretting, she won't even fucking call me

all i ever wanted.

Lyrics

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of these songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

It's okay, don't carе, I just want you here
I just need you back, pleasе don't disappear
Baby, please don't let me go, you're all that I know
If I was Superman and you were Kryptonite, I still would hold you close
You're all that I love, I don't care what you become
You don't wanna come back but I don't wanna run

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

wrong.

unknxwn.