deep october

mixed by suni vega :)

(eric)
Joystick, I hate when you play w/ me
we're feeling evil baby I hope that you pray4me
Lead me astray, psychopathic tendencies 
You cure the sickness in my brain yeah ur my remedy


(me)
Ur without a flaw in ur
Skin
Tight
Jeans
You did nothing wrong
Baby it’s
Timing
It’s never ur fault
Narcissist-
ic (narcissistic..)
Throwin fits
I leave
gets intense high key

But for once feel like nothing really mattered
And the sun
Makes ur halo mimic saturn’s

Let me find it out
But both of us hate those discussions 
Perfect timing now 
Think for once we’ll keep in touch 
And bring the silence out 
I think a month 
Was plenty enough to spend inside ur house

I can’t make a promise 
But I promised you the long run 
Tell me bby do you think you’ll be there when it’s all done?

Ice
cold
Light blue sweater and
I don’t
Mind the weather
Your eyes closed
Mine get redder
When I show
My displeasure


I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Ur just high
You won’t die you’ll be fine
I don’t care to show that side but u can try
And I swear I still think ur one of a kind

I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Ur just high
You won’t die you’ll be fine
make me suffer make it up or make it mine
i'm a lover it's a wonder I survive

u can try

u can try w/ ericdoa (prod. 4am)

Helps if you make ur mind up
Tell me you’re made to die young
Selfish, I’d hate to find love 
Is there missin pieces in ur memory?
And if it isn’t me, that makes us enemies 

Helps if you make ur mind up
Tell me you’re made to die young
Selfish, I’d hate to find love 
In between it
Is the missing pieces 
Of your memories
 I can’t forget a thing 
Wishful thinking’
Hope I live to see it 
In a Mitsubishi 
Skrrtin Venice beaches 

Let my life get back in motion
Said she’d stay as long as I’m open
Said “stay golden”
Numb the pain, give me disclosure
Novacane; I know the odor 
I know fames not gonna hold her 
Entertained before October
Should of known
should of known
I should of known her

Helps if you make ur mind up
Tell me you’re made to die young
Selfish, I’d hate to find love 
Is there missin pieces in ur memory?
And if it isn’t me, it makes us enemies 

Helps if you make ur mind up
Tell me you’re made to die young
Protect ur peace
Be like a second Jesus 
But don’t let me think
Nothing could get between us 
Chesapeake 
For like the second weekend 
Left on read for weeks
At least the sex was decent 

Hold it in my brain 
A familiar odor On her shoulder novacane
Both of us got sober 
We got closer so it’s strange 
So when we get older we’ll be noticing the changes 
Hope that ur ok 
When I know that it won’t change shit
Ulcer on my brain 
And it’s close to where the vein sits 

Heart 
And mindless 
You could start
With trying
This apartment 
Lighting 
In the darkness I been 
Stuck

Mitsu Bishi

Mitsu Bishi (prod. thislandis & taurs)

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

Gun to your head 
Sun’s infrared 
Light covers your face 
I’m super high
Unsupervised 
Could go one if 4 ways
Flight of the soul
Close your eyes and it’s over
Plight to get sober
I just might get some closure 

As the nights older 
Eyes to the sky 
Got me blind looking nowhere


I wanted to die when she told me that she loved him 
I wasn’t surprised what it was and what it wasn’t 
That’s I survive, I hang on to my assumptions 
I can see it months in 
Like I’ve already done this

I look to the sky right directly where the sun is
Lock into my eyes let my retinas getting sun kist 
Issa different high when it’s way too much to function 
Am I the only one with 
No fear of repercussion 

Feelings to percussion, 
I hope I do it justice 
Ceilings that get busted 
Can really turn to dust quick 



I can feel the rush...
Rush rush rush 
This is what it does 
To us us us 
A culprit of 
Un 
Adultered love 
In ur touch touch touch 
I’m closed in, shut 
Might I open up 
If I must must must

I wanted to die (prod. suni vega)

Leme fuckin find out 
This shit was a lie 
Different color painted eyebrows 
You look me in my eyes 
I just wonder why, how
I believed u the whole time 
memories will die out 
Somewhere over time 
Baby come here, close ur eye 
Maybe somewhere I can find 
Empathy 
U could be my rider 
And my entity
I talked to ur mama
She was listening 
To all of our problems
I admittedly
Put them in my favor
I knew you might find out later 
I’m so catered 
It’s whatever 
It’s ok 
Cuz I’m forever MIA
I feel better when it rains
With all this weather 
In my brain 
And I feel pleasure 
I feel pain 
When I need effort 
To remain 
Stuck
We just took the same drugs 
Now I’m too high stay up 
And I just hope I wake up 
Tomorrow
And I’m dreaming of space
I can borrow 
With the stars that we traced
In Navarro 


But it’s whatever
It’s ok 
If in my head 
Is where u stay 
And it’s a never endin pain 
And on my bed where there’s a stain 
Of ur makeup
And you hate when I take drugs
Well I hate when u say stuff
About it 
And your parents both hate your
Surroundings...

itriedloving II (prod. suni vega)

Heart in her tummy before starving to ingest 
And the stars will coming as we plummet to our deaths
I got scars on my arm, on my stomach and my chest 
I was starting to love and now I wonder what it meant 
I don’t know 
If anything will change 
Keep me close 
Judging by the stains on your clothes 
There’s something that’s taking a toll 
On me 

Strung out 
She was drug addicted 
Only comes out 
When the suns eclipsing 
How can one sound 
Breed so much suspicion?
From the come down 
Of a month’s prescription 
With your brain
Cells 
Frying 
Face
Pale 
Crying 
And your make up 
Runs black on my shirt again 
Stays up 
Face down in the dirt and wind 

I know deep within  
Based on your relation to kolonopins
You could seek revenge 
Maybe it’d be better to get lost again 
We pretend 
Everything is better I don’t wander why 
Youre keepin in 
Everything I told you I was bothered by

strung out (prod. suni vega)

Should say sooner 
If it’s too much 
For that room that u been living
I hear rumors 
That you’re clueless 
I stay cool with ur oblivion 
The sooner I give in to it
The urge to hit ignore 
I see nights inside your kitchen I think Percocet endorsed 
Standin shirtless at you’re door 
Way more nervous than before 
Like for certain, think your purpose match perfect with your decor 
Like how smoke still stain your curtains
But her purse says Michael Kors
Way too much for me to work with, 
Might get worse with my support 
And I 
Urge you to think 
Bout them words before speak them
A current in sea
I submerge 
With the deep end 
Earth at my feet 
Make me hurtfully seasick 
I know when you’re distant
In existence that is speak in

time (x1000000000)

There were signs
I tried so hard not to waste your time
It gets so hard not to chase a high 
How’d you feel if I said you should stay behind
Here you stand while I sit face to face with god
And my life’s
Been a ride 
For some time
You’re so damaged how’d you manage to survive?
On this planet 
Disadvantages arise

face to face with god (prod. nitrous)

u can keep it (prod. Eadith)

instagram- fatherfuneral
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IM ALWAYS NUMB
IM ALWAYS STUCK
LIKE HOW THE FUCK
U COME UNDONE?
A CONUNDRUM
NEED ADVICE
BITE MY TONGUE
WHILE IM YOUNG
IM AFRAID THE LONG RUN
WILL BE ROUGH
WE’LL BE TOUGH..

MAMA ILL BE DAMNED TO KNOW
YOURE HIGH OFF THE ANTIDOTE
NOW FOLLOWED BY A PHANTOM AS
HIS HAND CREEPS UP YOUR PANTY HOSE
THIS IS WHY IM SCARED OF GHOSTS
GREW UP SAW YOU DANCING FOR
A MAN WHO LOOKS SATANIC SO
IM FRANTICALLY
PANICKING
INSANITY ALL IN MY FAMILY
NEVER TAUGHT ME TO PREAPARE FOR THINGS
THEY SAID ITS ALL JUST HEREDITY
I THINK ITS NONSENSE
THEY ALL JUST WANT ME 
TO GIVE MY LIFE AWAY
IM THINKING POSITIVE
NEGATIVE FORCES
DRAINING MY ENERGY
NEED TIME AWAY IN DIFFERENT PLACES
GET ME AWAY FROM HERE
YA 
REGULAR BASIS
EVERY DAY SHIT
ANOTHER HEMISPHERE
YA 
AND I CAN TYPICALLY 
JUST IGNORE IT
BUT I WANT ANYTHING FIOR ME AND MY SHORTY
SHE HAS EMPATHY FOR WHATS IMPORTANT
AND IVE BEEN LISTENING TO HER LIL GORGEOUS 
THOUGHTS AND SYMPATHY
I DONT DESERVE IT 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbnrZ7Hd4x0

Instrumental created/produced/composed by @kaynives & @atbrehant

My vocals mastered by @darkskyparadox AGAIN

thanks to my girlfriend for the image <3

https://soundcloud.com/kaynives/rapideyemovement

SCARED OF GHOST [prod. KAY NIVE$ &  BREHANT x DARKSKYPARADOX]

instagram- fatherfuneral

Art by me
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Thank you for all of your love <3

GO HEAD BRING ME PRESSURE YUH
OH YEAH SO DEPRESSED BECAUSE
I JUST KEEP ON MESSING UP
HOPE U HEARD MY MESSAGE YUH
IM NOT FUCKING LETTING UP
I NEED ALL THE EXTRA LOVE
YES BECAUSE
FEEL LIKE I DONT GET ENOUGH
LET ME GET AHEAD FOR ONCE 
THAT WOULD BE MY PREFERENCE

IM OKAY
THEYRE NO NAMES
NUMB THE PAIN
NOVACAINE 

I THINK THAT IT'S JEALOUSY
THINK IM FINALLY PRESSURING
THEM TO COME AND GET ME
MY EXPRESSION'S DEAFENING
LOUD AS WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
I NEED YOU TO BLESS ME
FUCK ME, TOUCH ME SEXUALLY
IN LIFE I WANT THE BEST THINGS 
BUT IS TIME WORTH INVESTING
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE DONT
------
MIND THIS TIME OF DAY
I FIND MYSELF ALONE
PRODUCTS TO THE FACE
THE DOCTOR FOR MY SOUL YUH
MINDSET IS ERASED
BIRDWATCHING THE CROWS
TARGET FOR A GAZE
LOCKSMITH FOR THE DOJA
THE GRASS IN WHICH I LAY
IS RELATIVELY GROWN
AND PROPERLY MAINTAINED
FOR GOD AND ALL TO KNOW 
THAT IM FINE ON MY OWN

I KNOW ITS ANXIETY
AT LEAST WHEN IM IN PRIVATE THINGS 
ALWAYS FEEL SO EMPTY 
TRYNA DO IT QUIETLY
AND MY DEFIANCE SILENCING A VOID TRYNA INVENT THINGS YA
BUT I THINK ITS DONE PLENTY ENOUGH 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HObGHcM_OOQ

soundcloud.com/kaynives/heart

@kaynives   

@darkskyparadox

JEALOUSY </3 (prod. KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

IF I MISS YOU (prod. Nitrous x Darkskyparadox)

Sorry for mp3 quality.

I was coming down on a dosage 
I just pop a round, now I’m open
She said she would stay long 
As I was sober
Numb to the pain 
Can’t obtain your disclosure
I needed a break, need a moment
I could never fake these emotions 
I could never claim or remain heart broken 
Numb to the pain 
I refrain getting closer
Ima numb the pain with them things... im rolling!
Never been the same, I’m reclaiming focus
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over...
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over
I been switching lanes in ‘89 rover 
I can never hang when the Daytimes over 
Day times over 
Should stay nights over
Keep me entertained cuz I hate life sober..

prod. @opal707

mastered and mixed. @darkskyparadox

ITRIEDLOVING (prod. Opal x Darkskyparadox)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExM4-D9dUqE
Beat produced by @paczki
Song Mixed and Mastered by @darkskyparadox

AND IM FALLING
IN A PIT,
I ADMIT THAT IM SORRY :(
I DONT GET THROWING FITS WHEN YOU CALL ME.. 
OFF THE SHITS, MAYBE ITS ME WITHDRAWING..?
ME WITHDRAWING..
THINK I LOVE YOU !
I FEAR GOD IN THE ROOM WHEN I FUCK YOU..
AND ITS ODD, I ASSUME YOU'RE ENOUGH TO
FILL THE FOG AND THE GLOOM WHEN ITS SUBTLE..
NEVER SUBTLE, I KNOW..

PARDON ME
I CAN SEE 
U & ME
IN HARMONY 
STARTING THINGS
OUT WEST.
OUT WEST, OUT WEST, OUT WEST.. yeah. (x2)
--
FUCK ME !
TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING 
SOMETIMES MY THOUGHTS GET UGLY.
SOMETIMES YOUR THOUGHTS ARE OF ME.
ARE OF ME
I KNOW SOMETHING
SOMETHING THAT LIES ABOVE ME
I TRIED TO DIE, IM SUFFERING
IM OUT MY MIND, IM UNCLEAN (DIRTY? IDK)
IM OUT MY MIND !

GOD IN THE ROOM (PROD. PACZKI x DARKSKYPARADOX)

produced by @proderis

mastering n mix @darkskyparadox

cover art by me

Not ur fault, get better..
Look exhausted, I can tell you've seen some awful weather
I can tell that you've been hurt by how you talk forever 
Christian Dior on ur Shirt
Louis Vuitton ur sweater
nevermind the weather

You'll freeze to death
Got her message, I accept 
but I dont read her text
I cant help it, I'm so selfish
I don't feind for sex
Make me better, Keep my head up
Got me deep in debt 

but I never knew
What putting all of those things inside ur head could do
I'd regret it but I forget what I said to you 
No I didn't have intentions to be sexual
No more friendship, be my bitch I'll give respect to you
Give respect to you.. 

I know I been distant, I'm protecting you..
You thought I was different; an intellectual..
She said "your addiction was the death of you"

I-I-I-I fucking knew 
Time flies by there's nothing new
Sigh-i-i Become consumed tonight
I find light, insight to new device.

ASEXUAL (prod. Eris x Darksky)

beat composed by @prodbeef
 
mix/master @darkskyparadox

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY
BEG ME TO COME HOME 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT THEY SAY
SHELTER ME FROM GROWTH 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

RAIN 
FALL ON WINDOW PANE
PLACE
ME IN YOUR EMBRACE

UGH, AGAIN ?!
HOPE THAT I DONT FALL AGAIN..
(FUCK IT THEN),
OK I WAS WRONG AGAIN.

STAY CLOSE
IDK WHAT THEY KNOW
I ASSUME THAT IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHERE THEY WANT TO GO
I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR REVENGE ON ALL THE THINGS THAT THEY STOLE
I'M AFRAID TO FALL AGAIN AND PARTING WITH MY SOUL

STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE!

STAY CLOSE (prod. Beef x Darkskyparadox)

prod. @prodnitrous

mix/master @darkskyparadox 

follow me on ig @fatherfuneral

BETTER HANG TIGHT
ITS GON BE A LATE NIGHT
I CANT SHAKE MY AMBITION TO STAY HIGH
ISSA GREY SKY, CAN YOU COME AND STAY BY?
JUST IN CASE I CANT MAKE IT TO DAYTIME
7 STRAIGHT NIGHTS
MAKE ME FUCKING HATE LIFE
HIT UR FACETIME 
EVERY OTHER LATE NIGHT
EXCEPT FOR THIS TIME
CAUSE I HATE TO SAY BYE
COULD OF SAVED LIVES
PROBABLY COULDN'T SAVE MINE

I USED ALL MY BEST FLOWS
ARE YOU DONE?
I GUESS SO!
I WOULD CURVE A PORNSTAR 
I'D STILL FUCK MY EX THOUGH
I JUST NEED TO LET GO 
SHE HITS MY PHONE LIKE "XO <3"
WHITE LINES ON THE TV
IS HEARTBREAK IN THE THRESHOLD
YES/NO
MINUTE MANIFESTO 
I'M NEVER IMPRESSED THOUGH
GOT TOO MUCH ON MY MENTAL

THESE DRUGS AREN'T SAFE
THE WALLS ARE TALKING
IN A DARK PLACE
SURROUNDED BY PALM TREES
OUT OF HARMS WAY, SHADOWS UPON ME
WHICH I'VE BEEN WANTING
MY MIND TO QUIT PONDERING

TRUST ME, JUST PEAKED THIS MORNING
THIS SHITS INTENSE ENDORPHINS 
10 PIECE 6 DEEP, YOU'RE GORGEOUS
GET CLEAN, MISS ME, IT'S FOR THE BEST

ENDORPHIN

ENDORPHIN (prod. NITROUS x DARKSKY)

Off a pill I grin
I keep flexing when she text me
ain't gon' kill my binge
why do hoes still hit my phone up like we're real life friends?
I get lost in my persona for the fields I'm in
if its sealed, I send
I been swimming to my limit, I cant feel my fins
Swear this shit is way too vivid and it killed my friends
and I wish it's for a gimmick but 2 pill I blend

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once

Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar
wasted cigar, can you wait for tomorrow?
I'm a tweaker
This a 3 day molly binge come thru ur speaker
She said that we're hardly friends
Didn't believe her
She said you're retarded if you think it's deeper
It gets deeper
I was nodding, told my mom I had a fever
I would stop but if I try I have a seizure 
Undecided, make my mind up before I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
When I jump in 
I go feet first 
and I run shit
until my knees hurt
I'm on something
Feels like ether
hella substance 
pink as easter
all this suffering
what is it for?
is it something
I can ignore

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once
Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar

Is it over 
said its never gonna get better till ur sober
yeah whatever, its forever on my shoulders
as the weather's getting better it gets colder
Peak 11's triple 7 gimme closure
I said I want this forever what I told her
Even though I know forever is a bold word
is a bold word

Lose myself inside of the moment
prove that hell's inside of me growing
chose myself is how I am going
Life into motion, try to stay golden now

HIGH NOON (prod. Nitrous)

single from Strange Death. Enjoy ♥️ prod. @stillvanishing


Cage me in, ok I may just never leave 
3 day binge, this is like day 70 
brain won’t quit, it inflicts pain regularly 
Drain like wrists, it’s a switch blade severing 
Baby it’s unsettling
In the dark, least the stars look heavenly 
We’re so far apart from everything 
Have you thought about that Evelyn?
Send me a text when the sex gets boring
I don’t think about my x no more 
Left on read, I press ignore 
Out my head, protect, restore. 
Yes of course 
Come to the crib impress me more 
Fuck everything I said before 
Way too deep in the red leaf Forrest 
I see signs I’m pressing forward 
There’s no time to let me mourn 


Said you feel so pretty with my hands around your throat 
Things I been forgetting still gonna dance around my skull 
Lights inside the city, let a tree fall when I go 
I could use your pity, can you sweet talk to my soul  
Stuck in deep thought, here I go 
This my default MIO

deep october

vacant