i cant do this anymore

prod. me

lyrics:
i got a weak heart and wasted time 
I cant run from it so ill hide behind 
I rly wish I could tell u
I know u well but its jus somethin cant do 

rly whats the meanin of this 
im awake but inside im kinda bleedin and shit 
I wanna hide my face, dont wanna talk to u
I wanna run away dont wanna bother u 

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

baby dont scared 
Ima be there anyway dont give a fuck who cares
I dont give fuck im over it
I know im awkward and 
im sorry I cant be who u think I am
are u over me 
it gets hard when u get distant I cant rly see
what the fuck is goin on right in front of me  
im like hows ur day? can u tell me bout it
I feel like im in the way can u get me out of it

will I ever jus feel normal
or am I stuck wit this tmmr 
I dont think I can hold up

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

weak heart

spotify

(prod. jody & djkhaledsson)

Lyrics:

fuck it ima pass out 
i've been driving fast now 
running from my past now 
now she finna black out 
smoking all my gas loud 
i don’t wanna let you down 
you ain’t finna chew me up and spit me out
bitch swallow now 
bleeding baby punk god drip
keep my razor tucked up
i’ve been driving fucked up 
and she gon dip out the spot when the loves up
baby u gon die tonight your luck’s up

taking pills off the shelf
trynna get the void filled 
i’m going to hell 
walk alone let the pain build 
knife in my hand feel like cicero 
i need to get the pain killed 
i need to slit my throat 

ima broken boy 
she told me ima demon boy 
whatchu smoking boy 
take a picture like a Polaroid 
robo-tripping like an android 
trynna fill the void (junkie shit)
molly in my milkshake 
she licking on my face 
and my magic make her legs shake 
make her body ache 
she can feel it in her stomach
she said she need a break 
smoking wedding cake 
self medicate 
i need drugs 
just to help me get through all the pain

i got a razor blade with your name on it 
finna get a jacket taylor made with your face on it 
ima put the flame on it 
you won’t take the blame for it 
ima lose my mind then ima lose my shit and then 

fuck it ima pass out 
i've been driving fast now 
running from my past now 
now she finna black out 
smoking all my gas loud 
i don’t wanna let you down 
you ain’t finna chew me up and spit me out
bitch swallow now 
bleeding baby punk god drip
keep my razor tucked up
i’ve been driving fucked up 
and she gon dip out the spot when the loves up
baby u gon die tonight your luck’s up


Made: October 2020

RUNNING

(prod. kais x sorrowbringer)
u all mean the world to me fr
enjoy :’)

lyrics:
don’t wanna let you down again
I know i’m nothing but a burden.
and when the tide goes down i’ll stand
up for myself again

I was never a part of it
nah I was never part of it, a part of anything or anyone

got me painting pictures of the future stressin bout my life
kais don’t stress bout stupid thought illusions cloudin’ up yo mind
just fkn stop this shit
get me out of it
just get me home, where I can grow, and heal my scars a bit

this is really up to me
I can’t rely on not any my friends, nah
I would love to be chillin at home makin beats every week
so I wont let this go to waste
wont let them see this smile fade away

“im lonely and hurting”
all these thoughts averted.
I kno y’all got my back
I can hear it from your wording
im sorry i called you
these things seem to fall through
pictures comin down I can tell the rain gon’ fall soon.

it's okay

lyrics
--------
don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

One Go (Prod. athainn & liv!)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

rose (prod.metlast)

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

Lyrics

when i was at my worst
i thought the world was you
i know that i hurt
i know i that hurt you too
but i'll take the moon away
if you weren't by my side
i'd destroy everything
that i would call life
i'm just a dear
trapped in your headlights
so don't go away 
and wake me up again
Cause I've realized 
that i'm just your poison
I don't wanna be like him
I don't wanna be like him 
tell me that isn't the case

I watched myself turn into
someone else
I promise i'm not evil
i'm just a wreck with a mess of a head
have you realized that i'm your poison
cause i have
cause i have
I'm just a fool for you
a fool for you
so don't go away 
and wake me up again
Cause I've realized 
that i'm just your poison
I don't wanna be like him
I don't wanna be like him 
tell me that isn't the case
I watched myself turn into..

So don't go away
and wake me up again
Cause i've realized 
that i'm just your poison
I dont wanna fight
for you
I don't want your past to haunt me
but it's going to
it's going to

When i was at my worst
I thought the world was you..

Darling, I'm posion

Darling, I'm Poison

Rest In Piss (Prod. MAJZKLUANI)

she's the poison for my heart

vlx x amenasylum - she's the poison for my heart (prod. hector vae, strngr)

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x3

[verse]

yeah, you know youu got a problem when the blade don’t even hurt
i tried to force a smile but that shit, it never works
i tried to make a friend, but everyone was such a jerk
haven’t felt this way in months, but right now it’s the fucking worst
cause everything is moving all too fast
feel like i’m stuck in the past and i’m always coming last
baby, i swear i just feel like trash
cause i’m only getting older; i can’t get up off my ass
i tried to ghost my friends but i don’t think they fucking cared
i tried a call for help all i ever got was stares
the bruises might fade, my scars, they remain
they remind of a truth: all i’ll ever feel is pain

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x2

written by Lightning Logan
prod. Discent

samples from Dracula x Haunting of Hill House

Vampire Ghost Club 2022

BEWARE THE MAN-THING

Friends With a Rope

it's getting hard to breathe again

it's getting hard to breathe again.

@kid.tye - ringing out...

DUST BUNNY

FALL DOWN (PROD. IL IK)

w/ the legend @LILZUBIN

guitar/prod/mix @youngburial

lyrics soon

a million pieces w/ zubin

order: 

hate w/lil peep
bones - dracula
lil peep - teen romance
lil bo weep - not ok but its ok / prod .ELHIXIR
it's just a few (ft. bones)
lil tracy x mackned - sleeping w the devil (prod. bryxt)
waste of time ft. lil peep (p. despair)
Pictures 2 Feat. Lil Peep & Lil Tracy (Prod.By BigheadOnTheBeat & Fish Narc)
bones - 3M (prod. by Drip-133)
Eric North & Lil Bo Weep - Inertia (prod. Quinn)
no love with lil peep

𝓶𝓲𝔁: 𝓼𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝒆𝓭𝓸𝔀𝓷

For my last track of the year, I took it back to my roots.  This track is my take/a homage to the bands/music I grew up on and played before Young Heartbreak was ever a thing.  Hope you enjoy!

i cant do this anymore

Aa