lovelorn- voice memo

We can be friends

yes i had trouble pronouncing apostatize and yes it is very rough AND YES the cover is poorly photoshopped stock photos together but i just want to put it out so here r the lyrics

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages

i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like i’m frozen, in the cold
and you’re in my vision, decisions
and you’re in my vision, decisions

and you’re standing miles away
but you’ve got a grip ‘round my throat
Can you let go?

I see your smiling face
and red lights, and i can’t help but go

cause i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like you’re frozen, in the snow
and you’re in my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i can’t forget your eyes, you’re my only faith group
god, you’ve got some power

cause i can’t make sense of your effect
it’s so offensive to conquer my head
yeah it’s like you’re right here, in our bed
and you’re my religion, my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i still know your eyes, you are my sole faith group
god, you’ve got some power

decisions (rough demo)

Wasted

Away

Non-confrontational social awareness
For the sake of fairness, I'm saying it first
You've seen my body and that makes me nauseous
Overly cautious, and prone to complain
But I'm here like I always was
Older and wiser, better with time
Was it fair for a man of your age to seek comfort in mine?

Oh, to be a child
Wide-eyed and wild
Oh, to seek the love you gave and in return
A punch, a kick, a blow, a burn
That rolls right through your fingers to the touch 

Non-confrontational social awareness
And you'll never say it, so I'll say it first
If I was so bothersome, why did you keep me at arm's length?
Was it convenience? 
I cried to my sister that day in the car and I felt so pathetic 
I couldn't quite get close enough
But I doubt that it crosses your mind 

Oh, to be a child
Wide-eyed and wild
Oh, to seek the love you gave and in return
A punch, a kick, a blow, a burn
That rolls right through your fingers to the touch 

Could we address the elephant
It's better than indifference 
And I know that you're an adult, beloved by everyone you know
I could've said it all out loud
But it's too late, you got your crowd
And I swear sometimes I hope that you're okay
I wish that you'd have wondered the same 

Non-confrontational social awareness 
For the sake of fairness, I'm saying it first.

Elephant

HUGE thank you to max @maxsdemos for the absolutely INCREDIBLE production of this song, shy and halloween!!! i couldn’t have done all of this without you!!!🥹❤️❤️❤️

strawberry chapstick

if i had the motivation i wouldve re recorded these vocals but whateva
this one is just a reminder to myself and maybe u

the bridge is atrocious but its ok we will get through it


this one isnt to garner a grand reaction
im here to give you a hug
just trust, some things are larger than handy sadness
i hear you try then give up

listen to the syncopation of your breathin
don’t escape cause you can’t make it make believing

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel around, you’re moving
i see you, and i promise

get up, join me in walking along the sidewalk
sunshine and time are a cure
your love was more important than you ever thought
it’s time you love a little more

listen you don’t need the famous that you’re thinkin
you’re escaping from the places you believe in

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, i promise

and it might seem contradicting
but there’s stability in your movement
when you’ve got no motivation
just remember it’s ok to sleep in

some steps seem invisible
but they’re in your peripheral
i promise
i promise

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, you’re moving
even if you don’t think it
i see you, i promise
there’s stability
in small steps

small steps demo

oh, there is a lost year
somewhere between you and i
you smell like a garden
i want to be twisted in your vines

i just want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

you gave me a flower
bright red and pink, but i got you stepped on
enter infestation
the doubt that I think i’m not what you want

but i want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

cracks and petals cut were bound to come
when we were never meant to love
but that doesn’t mean we can’t break rules
this is filthy love but it’s golden and
the whole world needs to know it
but i dont like convincing you

the garden & the pavement DEMO

i probably stole these melodies from somewhere

tell me you’re listening
i keep you in foremost front parts of my mind
last night was different
you should promise the first time was the last time

you do things in the moment
when you don’t know if you mean them
when i let down my defenses
pull you out of the deep end
the breaking starts

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
that’s where it starts

sat on memorial benches in homestead
you joke that you’ll leave one for us when we’re both dead
and gone, ashes in homes
the spark on the fuse grew alongside your nose

and i know that’s impossible
so i'll be responsible and
take half the blame, i'll play your game
if you take back your bench, i’ll try not to miss

comfortable silence
the biggest smiles after a kiss
kickflippin sleeping over kissing learning hurting like little kids
i’ll try not to miss

oh why’d you do things in the moment
when you had what you called perfect
now i don’t know if you meant it
now i’m the one in the deep end
you broke my heart

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
can’t we restart

Elephant

Sara Nussair