A song about a breakup that almost destroyed my life, and how the aftermath saved it.

Lyrics:
You quoted Carly when we died, 
thanks a lot it made me laugh instead of cry. 

City skyline in rearview, 
when I got a call from you. 
I had trouble picking up, 
didn't want you to call my bluff. 
Like when you asked, 
and I lied, 
your face fell, 
I called my mom and cried. 

But sometimes you have to part, 
before you're given a brand new start. 

So, why aren't they together?
As if they could ever, ever tear us apart. 
And, why aren't they together?
Just cus you broke it doesn't mean you can't rebuild, 
my heart.

Too many parties showing up uninvited, 
just to see you.
Confinding in strangers, 
who also what nothing to do with me. 
Too many moments of cruel,
from someone I thought I knew. 

But, sometimes you have to let go, 
before you're given a chance to grow. 

So, why aren't they together?
As if they could ever, ever tear us apart. 
And, why aren't they together?
Just cus you broke it doesn't mean you can't rebuild, 
my heart.

Sometimes they don't tell you,
the pain is worth it in the end
Sometimes they don't tell you,
you end up better than how you began
Sometimes they don't tell you
you'd do it over, and over, and over again
just to keep your friend

So, why aren't they together?
As if they could ever, ever tear us apart. 
And, why aren't they together?
Just cus you broke it doesn't mean 

So, why aren't they together?
As if they could ever, ever tear us apart. 
And, why aren't they together?
Just cus I broke it doesn't mean I can't rebuild, 
your heart.

Together (Demo)

A song about my 24th year of life.

Lyrics:

Oh, I hit a wall at 24
Going around the sun,
wondering if I want more

Oh, I'm afraid to die
before my dreams come true
Before I'm given a chance to fall in love with you

Oh, everyone I know has space to take
Away from me, 
and when they do,
all I do, 
is break
lonely, slowly, break. 

Are you fine by yourself?
Do you really need no one else to feel complete?
Oh, What's that like?
Oh, What's that like?
Oh, What's that like?

My therapist asks me to make a list
of things about myself that I like 
but once again
I cry instead
I feel bad for wasting her time
Pay her 80 dollars a week
to be the only friend of mine 

Are you fine by yourself?
Do you really need no one else to feel complete?
Oh, What's that like?
Oh, What's that like?
Oh, What's that like?

I'm afraid to be alone, 
Worried isolation's all I'll ever know
I sit in a bed I'll never make
As I contemplate if life's worth living today

Cuz I'm not fine by yourself?
Oh, I wish I could do it with no one else.
Oh, that's what I'm like (x3)

Oh, I hit a wall at 24
Too young to die, too scared to ask for more

Are you fine by yourself?
Could you make room for someone else?
Did I miss your call for help,
because if I did
Please call again (x3)

24 (demo)

Lyrics:

Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
And though I won't admit it, 
I wish we talked like we once did

You told me kissed her in the kitchen 
Happy for you I tried to listen
You kept talking and I faded away
Pictured a world in which I say 
I'm sorry, couldn't be me
to give you the love you deserved

And now,
Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
And though I won't admit it, 
I wish we talked like we once did

And I saw you at a bar, 
even close you felt far away
Told some friends that we dated
I said we didn't
which you hated

I'm not embarrassed that I loved you
Only embarrassed I didn't know how to,
find the words
for the feeligns
I was too busy , repressing 

And now, Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
Only come around to tell me, 
life's better without me
And though I won't admit it, 
I wish we talked like we once did

Do you miss me at all?
Do you ever fight the urge to call?
Do you miss me at all?
Because I fight the urge to call

I wanna come around and tell you
Life's worse off without you
I wanna come around and tell you
Life's worse off without you
and though I won't admit it, 
I miss you in it

And thought I won't admit it, 
I know you're better that you left it.

Come Around (demo)

untitled demo

This is a gay country song okay. it's about a girl i liked and being dead named and falling out of love. so have a little demo as a treat

Lyrics:
I got a text from you, just checkin' in
Might have been less weird if we were still friends
talked about your life sounds like you're doing alright
but of course we stumbled back into the night

where we fell apart, where I broke your heart
where you walk away
I never called you again
We both know, I had nothin' to say

mmmmmmmmmmmm

told me ya went on a date with someone new
asked how does it feel to know she wasn't you
and maybe to twist the knife
or born out of spite
you said, 

She has the name that you use to wear
Why'd you mention it 
Why do you think I'd care
Just because you have someone new that you're kissin;
doesn't mean I'll admit to missin' you
if it's not true
Every time we talk 
I'm reminded
Of Minnesota without you

Well it was my turn and I said
I've been bad
You were too excited to relish in the pain that I had
I said it all burned down
and there you were dancing on the grave
forgetting all the time that I gave to you
when life was something to hard to work through
because all you could see
was the version of me
no longer in love with you
so, you said 


She has the name that you use to wear
Why'd you mention it 
Why do you think I'd care
Just because you have someone new that you're kissin;
doesn't mean I'll admit to missin' you
if it's not true
Every time we talk 
I'm reminded
Of Minnesota without you

Oh, why do you keep coming back
to remind me of all that I lack
oh, why do you keep coming back
didn't we let go of all that we had

she has that name that you use to wear (x2)


She has the name that I use to wear
Why'd you keep mentioning it 
Why do you  care
you have someone new that you're kissin;
don't go around missin' me
when i'm all to happy 
to return
to Minnesota without you

minnesota without you ( a queer country song)

Love Is A Losing Game - Amy Winehouse (cover)

lyrics:
i kissed someone new
i cried the way home
down I-92
i sang carly alone

i tried to ignore
the familiar taste
of how the world fell away
and we were back face-to-face

when I kissed someone new
i thought it'd be good
but in the dark of the night
you crept in where she stood

i hope she didn't see
the ground go beneath me
how'd you get here?
didn't i hide?

and i don't get how
after all of this time
I can kiss someone new
and you're the first thing on my mind

and i don't get how
after all of this time
I can kiss someone new
and the moments not mine

mmmmmMmMmMMMMm

when i cried the way home
i hoped to feel clean
but i broke apart 
so sad for being seen 

when i cried the way home
i drowned in the blue
the waves in my ears
oh they only sound of you

and i kissed someone new
because i thought you were dead 
how stupid to forget
i water your flowers in my head

and i don't get how
after all of this time
i still buy your lie 
no one wants love,
if it's mine

when i (demo)

It's a song about a moon, but not our moon.

Lyrics:

Enceladus

It feels so long to fly 
Even when you’re going fast
It’s all about perspective
Of the methods of the past
A flight around the world
Might take a couple days
But you’ll get back sooner
Than any other way

I might be thinking past a couple steps in the projection
But if this pace ain’t making space accept it as a lesson
If my time ain’t moving right I’ll try your recollection
And meet you up by Saturn light let’s mess with the reflection 

And I’ll see you on Enceladus

Fight against the wisdom
That might have made it hard
Lose the battle anyway
Come back cleverer and scarred
Learn something despite yourself
The spite makes it okay though
Push up more than daisies 
From the base of the volcano

I was trying harder just into the wrong direction
Patience is a saving grace accept it as a blessing
I look back in 20/20 check the retrospection
Meet you up by Saturn light let’s mess with the reflection

And I’ll see you on Enceladus

Enceladus

A song inspired by my friend Charlotte's feelings about their spouse and about the positives of color varied lenses outside of the typical interpretation  of "Rose Colored Glasses"

For February Album Writing Month: https://fawm.org/fawmers/evandiem/

Lyrics:
I’m not throwing shade
Just throwing the shades down
Rose colored frames
I hate how the phrase sounds
Gotta get my praise out
Get you an appraisal
Wanna sift all the grays out
Manufacture a pink from a hazel

I see your colors come through
I revel in your highlights and hues
All your colors come true
Ready for the limelights and skylights
And gradients to nighttime they’re shining in you
All your highlights and hues

I’m not fooling a sense
We’re just soothing the vision
We can still read the red lights
By their position
Not on a course for collision
Just refraction of white
Find rainbows in a prism
All the hidden tints in the shine of your eyes

I see your colors come through
I revel in your highlights and hues
All your colors come true
Ready for the limelights and skylights
And gradients to nighttime they’re shining in you
All your highlights and hues
I promise you the rose ain’t a ruse

I see your colors come through
I revel in your highlights and hues
All your colors come true
Ready for the limelights and skylights
And gradients to nighttime they’re shining in you
I promise you the rose ain’t a ruse
All your highlights and hues
All your highlights and hues

Highlights And Hues

Spit (demo)

A song about running into an ex-lover & friend, about passing time, about transition, and about mental health.

Lyrics:
Not that you care, but I went and cut my hair
And I no longer shave my legs
And I don't get how you can stare at me
Like we never shared a history 

And I keep wasting time 
thinking about you. 

Not that you know
but my mind is covered in a deep layer of snow
I went and moved through states
And I'm not doing so great
but i'm told, I'll make it through

What's the point, 
in living life, 
if I'm not next to you. 

So, I keep wasting time
wishing I lived a different life. 

I know I was never meant to be permanent (x2)
But, it hurts knowing you're too far to touch 
Oh, it hurts knowing you're too far to touch
Knowing someone else is close,
enough to touch. 

So, I keep wasting time
wishing you'd come back
and it'd all be different
this time.

Paces (acoustic demo)

kueppers.

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