capacity:

i've never been in this position before
and i'm sorry if i sound insincere
you just unexpectedly brought me here
tide rose
and fell
and dragged me through hell
just to lay me down again

it's good that i'm leaving
i started to believe in
taking chances when we could
i'll miss it more than i should
we started how we're ending
not thinking no pretending
just recklessly
god i hope you miss me

there are some things you just never get tired of
listening to
i try to be your anything in my capacity
because i just want to mean something to you
i just want to be anything to you

my favorite times you were too drunk to recall
now you're different
i'm alone, i'm having withdrawl
i bet you'll forget my birthday
and i'll pretend like i don't care 
well give a little more because this is getting so unfair

it hurts to leave like this
in pursuit of happiness
my best friend said i'm losing
it all to this delusion
she said run while you can 
dodge a bullet, that's the plan
i'm not myself and
he's got someone else

there are some things you just never get tired of
listening to
i try to be your anything in my capacity because i 
just want to mean something to you
i just want to be anything to you (2x)

there are some things you just never get tired of
listening to 
i tried to be your anything in my capacity 
because i wanted to mean something to you
replaced affection with attention
called it convenient i was so lenient
were you just lonely? 
but i stumbled slowly 
for the devil you know is better than the one you don't

capacity

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Astroboy- Voar

Astroboy- Não consigo

Astroboy- Mood

Astroboy- Topo

some notes about giving tree:
i wrote this song last august in anticipation of autumn. i wanted it to sound heavily nostalgic and lightly resolved. the lyrics were incidentally written during a full moon, and the song was released during a full moon. we rewrote this song four times before we were happy with it. here’s to perfectionism.

lyrics:
you feel like my homestead
what you'd look like in my bed
its hard to find, peace like that
we change our minds
you're a hero
my heroine--
 a man who lives in his imagination
it gets quiet, so i panic
you know how rain makes me so romantic
but what used to scare me doesn't scare me anymore
i'm not sorry i'm undone on the kitchen floor

hungry for the days where i'd drink on the train
feel young and unwanted 
not old and exhausted
how it hurt when you wrote that song,
like you knew id be leaving all along
i miss those days
i miss those days

chorus*
memory isn't what it used to be
and i can't see myself being your giving tree
pain is weathered 
a song gets me crying
heavy and strong like cast iron

i know where i belong 
sometimes you don't 
and i can admit when i'm wrong 
sometimes you won't
but you don't worry about where we are going
the moon governs us without knowing
and i like the way that things have been going
i like the way that things have been going

chorus*

giving tree

i wrote limbo last winter. the song came together steadily, i wrote a few lines each morning while taking care of horses at sunrise, before anyone else was awake. the name says it all; it's about being comfortable not knowing what you mean or where you stand with someone close to you. it's a sort of lullaby for the perpetually restless.

lyrics
i didn't really want to be a fragment in your legacy
i didn’t plan to sleep with you,
but if its what you want 
then its what ill do
somewhere in a canyon between honor and honesty
but a promise is a lifetime
can you imagine how those stars aligned?

i don’t have a name for the type of guiltless shame, oh
is there more to this than what we’ll ever admit?

now i’m on the edge, i don’t how this ends 
not how i was raised to live
there's not much more i can give 
it'll never be the same after a kinda thing 
that never had a name


in limbo but not lost and i
i bet you’re not too far off (i bet you're not)
i don’t know what i heard,
but i hope you get what you deserve
and i hate when you cry (when you cry)
hollow in those green eyes
hold the weight of right & wrong
its better but not gone

people wax and wane
the truth remains the same
don’t want to tempt fate with
a kinda thing that don’t have a name

now i’m on the edge, i don’t how this ends 
not how i was raised to live
there's not much more i can give so,
it'll never be the same after a kinda thing 
that never had a name

i’ve never been good at looking you in the eye
i wrote this song instead of saying goodbye 
leave it at friend and forget the rest
tuck my heart back in my chest

limbo

this is the first song i am releasing in partnership with Animal Farm Records in London. many thanks to their team for their support with the track. 

it’s a song about going home, but every time you go somewhere you leave something, and often someone behind. this song is a tribute to that specific way to break a heart.

lyrics:
passed a road named after someone’s dog
on my way to think and write sad songs
but there’s comfort in that
there's comfort in that
it’s what november historically looks like
I get lonely, but not quite a
 rolling stone gathers no moss
but I don’t know how to compensate loss 
anymore, anymore

chorus
i just got you back now
i’m leaving again
found that line to cross
lover from friend
headed for logan i’m going home and
i won’t hear from you for a while
back to boston, damn near i lost it
back to my roots where i belong
back to a loved one, steady and strong 

and hurts to know there's someone better out there
for you, than me
somebody structured, with a house and a heart 
who always had a plan from the start 
who's the right age, the right temper
not a cold soul with a hole in the center

chorus

maybe the stars aligned as much as they can
and we’ve already withstood all we can withstand


choosing to run away 
hoped I'd find a reason to stay 
so far removed, 
you’re on my mind
i promised i’m never that hard to find
so far removed
are you blind
i'm gonna run like I can outrun time
let yearning decompose.
justify i don’t mind being alone

capacity

Marysa Eve

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