i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

i knew u was a bitch cuz all u really seem to do is talk 
time is money is gotta watch the clock 
yellow rarri in the parking lot 
Mp5 I got a shot
I will never let u walk 

I been thru some shit up in my life 
I won’t give no story time 
and I won’t tell a fucking lie 


and ur chopping me up with that knife,
put me in an body bag, 
And dump me out the sea tonight 

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

why the fuck they come into my life and then they switch up, 
I swear I’m better off alone I’m not a bitch stop 
I use to want a bitch that go and drive me  crazy 
I said I’m better off alone and now they hate me

I’m done with this shit done with this shit I swear 2 god, 
gone since a kid it’s not my fault, I swear I’ll shoot them all, 
I had issues back then but now I’m focused on my money more (x2)

s2g w/ brecken [eyesofdirty]

turning shepherd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

girl, i'm only a fractional gland to the tanner
organic of matter, in service of hazard
with the spirit coaxed in snot, they steal his crops, then send him off
the palpatations sign alignment that the collar had been popped
so watch him flee into trees where he is deemed a foreign beast
and of it's fauna, granted ease, 
the runic symbolism breathes
but as the phoenix tucks it's wings, the animosity is sworn
the creatures force him to a corner, as the ritual repeats

but most invited are divided by the drink
some evoke and others physically impede
but fuck it, i'm dunking my soul in elixirs
and ripping up scriptures they told me to read
evading persuasion of linear staging, 
you think in equation from playing campaign
i remember you had felt what i be
chrysalis tethered, eternally green

and she was lock and key, to his belief
internal leak is running deep and sinking streets
cold and heat have come to meet, releasing steam
but that peace is soon to cease, 
and he's deceased

turning sheperd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

grace period betrayal (branwen)

prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

yeah we never did it right
try to switch sides but its too late
take the rib out my side
every waking thought feels insane 
but i know thay im alive
been tryna find comfort in this pain
but boy its been a ride
saw that look up on ur face ur gone tonight

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
it’s like i couldn’t help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that you couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

we can waste time
thinking bout the past 
but im offline
since you made my heart black
and i gave my phone a crack

in the front seat of a new car
felt u cut me, got a new scar
aint it lovely when you’re so far?
family found me in the front yard 

been ashamed of the man that i was 
been off of the gram, cuz its only fake love
i came to conclusion im stuck in a rut
but im stronger than this so im not giving up

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
like i couodnt help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that u couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

breathless [under the maple tree]

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

produced by hero <3
mastered by neerdowell <3

I like this track a lot :)

Lyrics
- - - - -
I’ve gone through everything at least a thousand times (a thousand times)
Why don’t you tell me what you mean and save the time (and save the time)
I threw apologies, as if they weren’t mine (so wastefully)
And after everything you said, you weren’t mine (Just make-believe)

I remember the good times
I remember the bad
All the things we would talk of
How u hated your dad
All the plans for the future
How I’m happy I knew u
I was talking right through you
Now you don’t message back

Hand in hand
You led me back
To lands where in
You left me stranded
I’m the puppet
My heart manned it
I cant go against demands its

Not up to me
So baby spin that fantasy
I’ll lose all reality
As long as you keep feeding it

I love when you deceive me
Love it when you need me
Greed is the poison
That seeps from my needle
Feeble and weakened
Dead by the weekend
Toss and I turn to return to my grieving

Leave me for the graves
Fall into decay
Not another way
And that’s okay
I don’t need to be 
More than memory
Behind your faces
Replaced with
The next one on the chopping block
The places
Vacations
Maybe that’ll rid me from your brain
It’s escaping
Every fucking step you’ve ever taken
Piece of your creation
A mangled demonstration
Of coping in this matrix  
Hoping there's a day
Where we make it to oasis

I’ve gone through everything at least a thousand times (a thousand times)
Why don’t you tell me what you mean and save the time (and save the time)
I threw apologies, as if they weren’t mine (so wastefully)
And after everything you said, you weren’t mine (Just make-believe)


make believe (hero)

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

lyrics:
what if they dont like me
yeah like what if im a failure
what if i lose sight of the goal when im chasing all this paper

yeah but what if i dont make it, and she leave
well i dont blame her
she an angel, im a vampire
still do my best to save her

what if she stop calling when the money start to slow
what if i forget myself the further that i go
what if i lose grip if im tryna carry every load
but fuck it i was born to walk this fire down the road

well fuck that, ima be that, everything she need and more
aint no cop out, ima pop out, and i swear that to my core
im so tired now, of being scare now, i just want it even more
if the world fall, and collapse now, im still standing at her door

what if all this grinding just get heavy on my soul
what if every song i drop still never make me whole
what if i go numb and stop believing in the goal
what if i get rich and end up having no control

what if every friend i had, just a phase i never chose
what if every "im okay" was the pain i never showed
what if she get tired of the silence in my tone
and realize that she need somebody stronger down the road

whats wrong with me
just tell me please
i been looking in the mirror like the enemy

and my thoughts are playing tricks
i know they want to play both sides
like "youll never be enough"
and then "youre destined for the skies"

no cop out

dream w/ halfhearted (Michael Harrison)

Bitch Text Me Back :/

@imhalfhearted on insta <3

“halfhearted” on spotify

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