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lyrics:
tell me how to feel
tell me how to live
clearly i dont know
cuz now i rly cant forgive
put ur heart in a keepsake 
tellin him shit that we’d say
i smoke up for the relay
used to think that every
thing i’d say was backwards
shit i didnt matter
hard to cope at all
when i hear is all the chatter
my mind is fixed on my passion
i struggle with takin action

how can i forget?
easily in fact
u make it so hard to love u
& god i’d love to
but fuck no after that

how can i forget?
everything we had
clearly its not a struggle
if u can figure it
out then its not bad

tell me how to cope
late december snow
blurry photographs
its chilly in the autumn cold
u know i miss u, farther
than we’ve been before
i know it got too hard
thats why im gone for good

how can i forget?
easily in fact
u make it so hard to love u
& god i’d love to
but fuck no after that

how can i forget?
everything we had
clearly its not a struggle
if u can figure it
out then its not bad

easily, in fact [autrioly]

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up in the trees is where i would hang
'till i tumbled down when he told me to stay
back in the bush; cast on my arm
shall i never heal, i'll be happy a pine.
yet i'm full of shit, atone every word
but this is for you, so i'll try not to hurt
choked up every verse though.
you cannot reverse

what a fine young man, i wonder where his head's at
too far gone, now i needa take a step back
all that i want is to live in my notepad
feeding me lyrics for songs 'till my days' last
genuine crave, and i don't wanna change that
mental array in a haze getting whiplash
honest display, but there isn't a playback
trust in the heart of your cards when it fades black

patch on the leg; how the fuck do i move it
i miss your laugh, and with friends, watching movies
oh, i'll try a bit harder to step out my comfort,
but being alone is just way too damn soothing

i cannot bear this weight,
so i'll just eat it up and stomach it
your words they spoke to me,
i'd always wonder what would come of it

you were nervous, well, i'm anxious
but for you, did you know i would fucking get back on my feet,
though, not complaining
seldom i held any care, wouldn't budge, wouldn't speak
years, haven't walked down the street
i took a walk down the street.
bubbling grief
if only you knew what you meant to me, 
god i would hope you had felt what you meant to me

june arrived, i almost felt alive
but then i heard the news and felt the water rise
capsized the thought of letting go of life
but now it's even harder getting sleep at night
what a gentle soul, grown out the mold
with the sky his home, and for the earth, a stone
beyond the ozone; inside the mind
what an ethereal one, and of a joyous kind.

suck in the rain, spit out the clouds
our synergy now resides in the ground

yeah i know the rain is real important when it's pouring down the evergreens
thought about you often, so i hope that you remembered me
'cause you took your leave
autumn and sleep
we ran our shit up until '23
growing the seeds; sowing their seams
if i make it out of this, hoping you see, yeah.

sycamore

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lyrics:

u can see, so far ahead of me,
i consider us enemies..
u wont go down.
you creep, on me like im fresh meat.
i dont want you to be..
my only friend

im so done with yr attitude and all ur shit
ur so unholy, bet you dont know what the bible is
so full with lies and sin you can't imagine this
thats why ur on yr knees beggin' me forgiveness

(sometimes its hard to be human)
(i am unique)
is that necessary
oh u dont know it
(i keep crying)
that im killing myself (black tears) very precisely

i overthink way too much, in my head
ohh is that necessary (fuck)
ohh u dont know it, that im killing myself very precisely
and i dont really care, if u even like me
and your always standing in my way, please pardon me
you call me a douche, well bitch pls bite me
im on the highway going very highspeeds

im so done with yr attitude and all ur shit
ur so unholy, bet you dont know what the bible is
so full with lies and sin you can't imagine this
thats why ur on yr knees beggin' me forgiveness

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(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

produced by 🦠 homesick x jolst 

uh, i feel it x 6262662

she say slow down
goin too fast
for my liking
please don’t do that
she can’t take it 
got a new man
ima break him 

she don’t want no fun or want no drama
she got eyes just like her mama 
and a rage and vile temper just like hades 

she say she say baby please don’t do that
friends all hate her, rushi sunak
drop 2 bills on a half a set, and now im shakin

haven’t popped a pill or sipped a litre
since last year, im livin cleaner
got a baby on the way, and now i’m chasin 

chasin the bag
fell off last year, how tf i do that
had this whole shit in the palm of my hand
i got too lazy, took eyes off the plan 
let u boys win now i’m finally back
scene wants some drama, sendflowrs ur man
indirect tweets go and work on your jab 
fuckin cokeheads go and put down the bag
i hit the gym, smoke a blunt and i’m grand :)
dropped out of uni, got tired of that 
quit my old job, i got tired of that
listening to bullshit, got tired of that
jolst and homesick, on the beat make it slap

uh x 5262662

hades (jolst + homesick)

thunder and lightning prod nico wstdyth 01/22/2024

always involved
theres no room for you here
vultures wrap round me
my deaths imminent
but what should i fear

everyones leaving but they know my place
and i 
hope they come back to me to tell me bout their day
and how all this times passed and nothing much has changed
oh let it resume, ignorance in your face

honestly, yeah honestly its honestly pathetic
so count me out of everything my life line wont mend it
if this is how its meant to be, im sure that god planned it
by taking every part of me and leaving me stranded
with no one
now theres no one
fall apart and
pick myself up
its not the same
molded to change
eyes laying heavy tried keeping yours safe

see you in my dreams
holding close to me
this the closest the closest well ever be
dont take that away
god dont do it please
saw him yesterday
all the same to me

IF THATS ALL ILL GET
ILL NEVER COMPLAIN
IF HE SAW ME NOW
WOULD HE FEEL THE SAME ?
THOUGH ILL NEVER KNOW
KINDA LIKE IT THAT WAY
SOMETIMES FEEL AS THOUGH 
HE WOULD BE ASHAMED

vultures

A nostalgic album, revisiting the new age period with the ambient music's perspective added. 

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