🅱🆄🆃🆃🅴🆁

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

Follow  $orrow!  - https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer

My Somewhat CD:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T207BuC5gP8&t=361s

Art By Esau Andrews

LYRICS:

Check my pils bottles now they hollow I ain’t no damn Role model 
Not the one to follow with s heart so full of sorrow I know
That I should really just go 
Leave this world on my own 
Find a new place to call home 
Where I don’t feel so alone

Where the hell am I I been driving all Fucking night I don’t know 
Surrounded by phony homies claiming they know me but they don’t 
If you wanna see the real me just pop in my somewhat cd get lost in the memories and say hey if you see me,  whoa
I don’t want to wait for the pain end 
No heavens gates are gonna let me in
At least in hell I’ll see my friends 
I’m 22 might be the last one dead

This is for the mothefucking letdowns like me, 
Only feel a little joy when we bleed
Never feeling alright no reprieve 
All they wanna do is die on tv
To be infamous is my bliss 21st century sid vicious till I kill my bitch and then slit my wrist just to make history 

If you want to find me you can check my bedroom
Sleeping life away all I do 
Just So I can avoid all of you 
Don’t motherucking tell me what I can’t do 
I don’t want to work I just want to go Bezerk on the beat  and make all these hits 
Never die alone in an old folks home thinking how’d I end up like this?

WHOA OH OHHHHHHHH

Get Lost In The Tall Grass [Prod. sorrow bringer]

friends (prod. mxdnight)

grilled cheese (prod. youngtaylor & zerobeats)

factuals (prod. canis major)

produced by 9TAILS

combo breaker life just done turned into realer shit
almost lost my bro the other day to prescriptions
please just send him love
been one hell of a month
I need that man here
I love my bothers like a son for real
how I stay inside
and hold my faith that I'll blow up for real
hit my block for backwoods
then it's back to booting up FL
talking sound like static 
when the beat play from the beats pill
moonrocks with some vodka
making magic like I'm copperfield
woah
quick to the mic no slow
make beats then I hit flows
I just chopped my hair
I swear my fanbase is the only thing that grows
I might have some thorns and ya it shows
mean as fuck theres no payoff
stop looking for my rose
hoes
stay all up in my phone
cant talk in my zone
even if I could I'd facetime
my main on the phone
hands slide on her tattoos as I kiss her on the throat
this not Call of Duty but I got her going prone
she say she love my tone
said it sound like anger with a mix of monotone
I do not wear wool it make me itch
so why they calling me the goat
i dont know
my personal opinion is that I'm not even close
I'd never boast about the shit that
I'm supposed to hold as passion
acting like I'll blow is what'll make it never happen
everybody saying they're the best is less than avergae
I see too much arrogance on
my twitter I can't stand it
I can't have it

outside is heat now
CP24 told me four shootings in a week now
used to be downtown but now its 
two blocks from my street now
city grizzly children need more safety
than just seatbelts
walking home from starbucks get you
jammed just for your drink now
when it's bright out
12 year olds are scared to ride their bikes out
or fly kites out
not even when it's night out
that shit make me wanna cry now

you can trust me
you can tell me
things you wouldn't dare speak
there's not much I haven't seen
my thoughts are melting
you can trust me
you can love me
without the worry of me leaving
for a few weeks at least
girl take it or leave it

thankyou for listening

combo breaker

Prod. CashmoneyAP and Kado

She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause we don’t stop until the White’s gone
Shawty tryna fuck me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

Verse one
Cause I don’t want to go to the party
Blackout, I just want to back out I’m sorry 
She’ll be there starting drama like Maury
And when I’m getting wasted I act so retarded
Losing my composure and I don’t know why
Now I’m on my own it’s my own damn time
Get a little older and I’ll pass you by 
Didn’t tell me it was over let our snap streak die
And I been steady pissed since my plug ran dry
My homie steady missed six years gone by
And If I stay here then my clique gets mad
I don’t want to fucking hear that it’s not that bad
Cause she’ll be dancing like Cardi
And I been getting played like Atari
I hope one of us drowns in Bacardi
But I guess I’ll fucking go to the party
(I don’t want to go to the party)

Hook
She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause we don’t stop until the White’s gone
Shawty tryna fuck me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

V 2
But now I’m high on marijuana at the party showing out I’m 
Chilling in the corner with this ice up in my mouth I’m
Pretty high on something I don’t want to talk about
I just want to be alone, they just want a little clout so
I’m here in the bathroom wasted, tasting something that’ll put me on the pavement
Hope I die at 27 if I make it, can I still get into heaven if I fake it?
But ignorance is bliss, so say my fucking name so they all know what it is
I’m tryna get on, yeah I’m tryna get rich
Saying fuck a bad habit Ima fuck a bad bitch
Now I’m being pulled to the bathroom
But I’m not gonna do what I have to
Trying to protest you, Think I need a heart transplant so my body will reject you

She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause I won’t stop until my life’s gone
Shawty went and fucked me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

Blackout (Produced KadoOnTheTrack and CashMoneyAP )

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

Track three from Make It Through Fall

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox Lil Xtra

Additional Production: Kado

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They said that you wouldn’t be here
Guess I knew you’d be around 
From across the room I feel it as you stare me up and down
I guess I’ve been higher sometime I just can’t remember when 
The last thing that I remember was you... walking in with him

So I will drink and I’ll pretend 
I’m strong enough to handle this
To save the grace of faces I
Hope to call my friends 
But I’ll be fine by winter 
I told you once before
That I’m in love with freezing
If it’s right outside your door 
I’m right outside your door

And all my friends are drunk now 
But I wish that I was sober 
Because my mouth won’t seem to open to tell you that it’s over 
It's over

Weekends are for getting wasted isn’t that right aren't we cool?
You’re so punk rock I almost forgot I still fucking hate you 
I don’t care if people stare or they don't like the way we live 
Yes we’re all in love with dying but we’ve got so much to give

It’s not that bad, here on the floor 
If I’m not sad I’m fucking bored 
I hate the way you make me feel, that’s real as hell I hope you know 
It goes to show that life is hell
I’ve got to go I don’t feel well 
I just need to be alone sometimes I hope you understand 
But it’s cool if you don’t

And all my friends are drunk now 
But I wish that I was sober 
Because my mouth won’t seem to open to you that it’s over

Now they’re all out on the porch
But I don’t smoke cigarettes 
You keep asking me to listen but you’re boring me to death 
Sky is white, my lungs are black 
Once you give in you can’t go back 
Life is wack, I guess that’s it
But I’m so done feeling like shit

And all my friends are drunk now..
but I wish that I was sober..
Because my mouth won't seem to open
To tell you that it's over...

Sober

Track five from Make It Through Fall

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox - Lil Xtra
Additional Production - Kado

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And she says

I just want to see the real you 
Show me what your limits are, what you will do 
Answer that you’re looking for won’t thrill you 
Wishing on a shooting star as it kills you

Separated by the start of a new plague 
We’ve been living in the dark need a new day
So we fail at the sights that the news play 
And fall apart to the sound of the new age

And I wish you’d believe it when I say 
Things are hard right now but it’s okay 
When it heals then you’ll feel much less pain 
Just the scars to remind you to this day

I Keep picking up the pieces 
To see if they still fit 
But I know something’s missing 
We both know how this ends

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

We just want to leave in the worst way
Didn’t want to be here in the first place 
I’m just gonna surf to a new wave 
And fall apart when your heart strikes doomsday

So you sleep all day and I can’t rest 
Couldn’t be what you want just the next best 
And I told you everything, shoulda left it at
my dreams, so you couldn’t pull my heart out my chest but

It’s beating right there on the floor 
As you say, “just a little more” 
“I’ll always love you don’t forget”
Is the worst lie that you’ve told yet
But I hope you remember me
Cause I remember everything 
Please don’t talk to me like that 
I know you’re never coming back

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

(It's okay, It's okay)
It’s okay that you left me in pieces 
It’s okay that you left me in doubt 
It’s okay that I don’t know the resasons
But now I have to let this out

It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
...I don't hate you, I just hate this

It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
I'll never say I miss you again

I’M DOING FINE I SWEAR TO GOD

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

Make It Through Fall

The ninth track from Make It Through Fall, By Lil Xtra.

Additional production by KadoOnTheTrack.

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Lyrics:

Catch me in the back with my head down
I’m just gonna fade to the background 
I know that I’m awkward 
Laugh at the wrong jokes, say all the wrong words

I want to die in the front seat 
It feels like for the last few months we 
Just Can’t get it right, no love for life
Suicide on my mind every night

Cause I don’t understand my place 
What’s the point in being real when the world’s so fake? 
How many motherfucking pills does it take before my heart shuts down and my lifeline breaks?

I haven’t seen a soul in three weeks
Cause I haven’t left my bed, and I never even sleep 
Lost 20 pounds, I don’t want to fucking eat 
I just want to find some peace, oh god please

It’s raining in the morning 
It's raining in the evening 
Raining when I go to bed 
40 days and 40 nights, 
Nothing’s gonna be alright 
Until I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead

Finger to the back of my throat now 
Again and again get it all out 
I know I’m impatient, fucked it all up again, because I stay so anxious

I need something to die for 
I can’t put this life together like the tri-force 
I need a little wisdom, courage and power 
So I’m puffing level up every hour

Cause I don’t even know what’s real 
Either feel like shit or I just don’t feel 
How many bottles left on my bill 
Before I leave this scene and i chase these pills?

For real what’s going on?
You said it’s all right that it’s all wrong 
But I’ll be okay just as long 
As my spirit lives on through these songs but

It’s raining in the morning 
It's raining in the evening 
Raining when I go to bed 
40 days and 40 nights, 
Nothing’s gonna be alright 
Till I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead

Sometimes I wish I was dead

We blow away like the leaves
You thought you heard, misquoted
”I think I know what it means”
Guess I must’ve misspoken

I rode the train today
Forgot how much I hate tight spaces
I hope it takes me far away 
I hope you know that I'm off to the races, I'm off to the races..

Sometimes

Track ten from Make It Through Fall.

Guitar/lyrics/vox - Lil Xtra

Additional production by Kado

Open my eyes 
Roll out of bed 
We're all out of drugs to keep the thoughts from our heads 
You say you’re fine 
I know that you’re not 
Put it inside and let our veins rot

But I’m moving forward 
And you’re moving on 
Hesitate to separate, but this is all wrong 
And I know you think 
I fucking hate you 
But really I just don’t know what else to do

Cause lately 
It feels like there’s no one to save me 
I’m all alone in the life
I'll never do anything thing right 
I never do anything right

(Forecast: Well here we are in Atlanta, moving through our early week, Monday's forecast calling for a lovely day all across north Georgia. Lower 80's, low humidity. It feels really nice... Really nice... The good news is, that won't last too long.)

I’m In too much pain 
To get out of bed 
If it’s all the same then I’d rather be dead

If I eat at all
I’m gonna get fat 
Throw it back up, there’s nothing wrong with that 
Don’t you know?

And I miss you 
But not half as much 
As I know you miss them when you’re out of drugs 
But I am no saint 
A sinner as well
I’ll see you again maybe, one day in hell

It’s all in my head 
I know it’s not fair 
I said I would call and then
I wasn’t there 
I fucked up again, still what I do best 
I Can’t feel the fucked up heart beating
In my fucked up chest

Because lately 
It feels like there’s no one to save me 
I’m all alone in the life I’ll 
Never do anything thing right 
I never do anything right

I never do anything right

Siphon

Track twelve from Make It Through Fall.

(I went a little out there on this one)

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox - Lil Xtra

additional production by KadoOnTheTrack.

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Why do you always speak of rain like it’s not falling?
She says she loves when seasons change but she can’t stand autumn 
She spoke about the rain and I heard the thunder 
The undertow it came and it pulled me under
Yeah it pulled me under

I took your call out on the porch 
I need to hear what you have to say 
I know you said this call was private
But you’re on speaker anyways 
And I can’t see you there from half across the world 
But I feel it every time she says I hate you 


I’ve been thinking about all the things that you said and I think that you’re wrong but I’m fucked in the head so I guess, I could be wrong and it’s all for the best Wrote you a song I was feeling Depressed 
I’m sorry I’m always so fucking upset 
Sorry I can’t work it out in my head 
But everyone’s leaving only know I’m breathing when I feel the heart beating there in my chest 

Aye, she could never fall in love 
I could never be enough 
Aye, so now we turn to drugs 
I, barely even feel a buzz 
All these painkillers that I been on
Can’t move my arm or it’s falling off
No motivation to write a song 
No motivation to live at all 

I took your call out on the porch 
I need to hear what you have to say 
I know you said this call was private
But you’re on speaker anyways 
And I can’t see you there from half across the world 
But I feel it every time she says 

I hate you 
I hate you 
I hate you 
I do
I hate you 
I hate you 
I hate you 
I do

I feel it every time she says I hate you

Why do you always speak of rain like it's not falling?

Speak Of Rain

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes


https://soundcloud.com/montydatta

I’m drowning I can see the ark 
Sky opens up, world falls apart 
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da
I’m
Rocking all black strings on an old guitar 
With my all black jeans and my all black heart
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

Put me in an all white room and bind my hands
Tell me I’m no good till I understand but
Your demands mean nothing 
I need a Zoloft lil to even feel something 
Put me on a red eye flight and I’ll leave it all as you wave goodbye
She asking where the time goes 
Girl you might as well be asking why the wind blows 
But you see me through these all black windows 
Chilling with the sharks while you swimming with the minnows 
And I’m sorry but I chose my fate 
Big fish ‘round town done being the bait
It’s weighing on my all black lungs
But yours always right so I’ll hold me tounge
Got an all black soul with an all black prayer
I’m the all black sheep with the all black stars 

Hook 

Ripped black jeans and tears from sad eyes
I guess I’m alright I guess I’ll be fine 
I guess I’m real stressed I’m
Best when offline
Cause I suffocate when I talk to you 
It sucks to feel like you don’t want to choose 
I choke so bad my face turns blue 
My heart’s gone dark from loving you 
I won’t speak cause you won’t listen 
You’re my cure but we’ve been distant 
You’re too cute and that’s too bad cause 
Love won’t clean this mess I have 
I’m over love but I’m not over us 
Im over love but I’m not over us

World Falls Apart - Ft Sadeyes Prod. Monty Datta

I've been going too hard and I don’t care 
I don’t want to hear what you think cause you weren’t there 
Yeah everything’s perfect you say 
As I’m Sleeping of the pills on a Tuesday
I've been thinking bout life and my self worth 
And what I want before I’m underneath dirt 
Two things that I know I can stand for 
A bad bitch and a motherfucking round earth 

I believe in you and You believe in nothing 
Get along? Wouldn’t that something 
I can’t wait for the day you say 
Wish you were around 
As I Turn a shy girl to a screamer 
And turn my Enemies to believers 
Drug deals and a credit card schemer 
I don’t need to sleep I’m a motherfucking dreamer

So break out the drugs 
Break down the boundaries 
I’m so numb
I’m so glad you found me 
This year was rough 
But it’s not all about me
And you’re so tough
You’re better off without me 
Guess I’ll see you around
Yeah yeah 

Yeah check it
Yeah I want the check separate
I'm done with these locals and they hating ass brethren 
Fuck me for the clout and I know your ass desperate 
So I don’t give a fuck about your new found depression
I've been this way a for as long as I remember 
Not the first time that I heard dead in December like you 
Got some dead homies in the crew
And some dead head losers that I went and outgrew 
But Ima do my thing if you hate or you love me
At least I know my motherfucking haters thinking of me
Put a song out been out for like six months
One dislike bet I fucking know who that was
Homie you don’t know me
Hit my line again and I’m back to the old me 
And I don’t give a fuck if you miss me, we history 
Now we get to live it out alone with our misery  

She says I’ve got dreams too
Or did you forget?
I haven’t left you
At least I haven’t yet 
And don’t you say
That this is all my fault 
You’ll go drinking and pray 
Face to the asphalt
Like you do every time

See U Around

Break me, I know that you hate me
I don’t want to hear you’ve been doing good lately 
These thoughts I hold just keep holding me down down down 
Father would you even bother 
I can’t wait till you take me to the water 
Push my head in until I drown drown drown 

All I ever wanted wanted was to feel like
One day someday everything would feel right 
But I find that I’m living through phases
The good things die and the bad never changes 
All I really know is what I’ve been through
Retweet delete texts I’ll never send you 
I don’t mind that I’m living life wasted 
I just want to die gotta find a little patience 

Everyone I know is full of shit 
Light my hometown up man fuck those hypocrites 
Who needs enemies with a friend like this
I’d rather cop an Audi and some ice up on my wrists aye ya
I know that hurts when you see me up on the TV 
I know that it fucking burns I know that you want to be me
Maybe if you show at one of my shows I’ll sign a CD ya
Or maybe not cause these days I just don’t fuck witcha 

All I ever did was to defend you
You know I know you know what I been through 
Can’t deny that my life fucking wasted 
Tryna stay high with a heart full of hatred
I don’t want to hear about your problems 
We in the same boat bruh everybody’s got them 
And they never getting better better face it
Someone tell me why my life never changes 

My world falls apart again 

I miss my life I miss my friends I miss my health what happened
I miss my life I miss my friends I miss my health what happened

And my world falls apart again

I'm Just Having A Bad Day I'll Get Over It

You said 
I can’t
Believe that you would really say that
I know 
It hurts 
You want pretty lies but they’re just words 
I hope 
You know
I’m trying even if it don’t show 
You were 
The best curse 
That I ever could have asked for
I've been breathing since 1995
But I’ve only been feeling since you arrived 
Oh my how the fucking time flies
When you hate everything and you’re bored with life 
And now I’m bored with spite
I don’t really hate you I just hate the lies 
When the time comes gotta pay the price 
And I Always knew you would cut me down to size 

I don’t care I don’t care
That you said you would stay then you weren’t there
I don’t care I don’t care
Now I got a little clout that I won’t share 
I don’t care I don’t care
That I feel a little worse than my best years
I don’t care don’t care
I don’t give a fuck when the check clears 

I know 
I’m wrong 
Never let bygones be bygones 
Okay 
Its alright 
I know I never care at the right times 
Always 
I know 
You’re never gonna be at my show 
All good 
That’s fair 
There’s really no point cause you don’t care 
Check me on your tv screen
I don’t want to be rude but I think i’m gonna be 'cause 
All I ever really wanted to be was 
Happy with a mouth that keeps shut
But now I’m getting paid to speak up
Quick With the similes can’t keep up 
I Hit a couple g’s then I re-up 
Got Everything that I need in my prenup

It's whatever

Apathetic

Lay In bed all day I’m broken like my empty promises 

Once upon a long long time ago
I used to have these dreams I thought 
One day I’d find my purpose 
Over time I’ve realized I’m not 
Conquering the things I fear 
Capable of of breaking through 
Lost the things I once held dear
I don’t know what the fuck to do

Left beliefs that once defined me
My best days are long behind me 
Half the time I’m breathing In 
I’m dreaming of the day I finally stop 
Check my feelings at the door 
I don’t know what I’m fighting for 
I used to pray things would change 
But now I’m well aware they’re not 

I used to say 
Everything will be alright 
But it never will be
So I stay in my  bed
I hate when you call 
And say you should come out tonight 
I just bought an ounce 
I’m gonna smoke it instead 
Yeah yeah 

Stop fucking telling me I’m fine 
I hate the way you keep your cool 
I’m aware you’re always right 
Go on and play me for the fool  
Take the blood out of my veins 
Go on do your worst to me
I wouldn’t wish this type of pain
On my own worst enemy 

Lay in bed but never sleep
I tried to fight but I’m too weak
And Every time I try to speak 
I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor 
Heard you’re doing better now
It makes it worse I don’t know how 
The world keeps turning I can’t breath
I just can’t do this anymore 

I used to pray that everything would be alright 
But nothing could hear me
Cause there’s nothing... Nothing at all

I used to say 
Everything will be alright 
But it never will be
So I just stay in my bed
And I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead

I used to pray that
Everything would be alright 
But it never will be 
So I stay in my bed 
I won’t take your call 
I’m not going out tonight 
I’ll never be alright 
I wish I was dead 

I used to think that everything would be alright 
But it never will be
I wish I was dead

Deathwish

Round and round on the carousel 
I want to get off but I can’t 
Nothing I do ever works out end up right back at the start 

Step off of the plane in my home town 
I hate the way you always look down 
On me you’re never gonna think that wherever I am is where I ought to be now 
I want to believe in your good intentions 
I always seem let you down 
I’m always failing in your predictions
Push my head in watch me drown 

Hold it in, count to ten blow it back out 
Broken down from a pound to a stack now 
Broken but hoping you’ll hear this out
As the words fall right out of my mouth 

I don’t want to see you in my mentions 
Every time you let me down
I’m Better off without my suspicions 
You’re Better off without me around 

Round and round on the carousel 
I want to get off but I can’t 
Nothing I do ever works out end up right back at the start

To the start of my memories no one fucking with my art and you defending me 
It’s hard to believe that you got me to see that on my motherfucking own 
Is the way I’m supposed to be so 
I suppose opportunities grow 
But do I really give a fuck if you won’t be at my show 
On and on, always stressing bout the songs that I wrote 
On and on, when the world ends nobody knows 
While the world spins, I got lots of places to go i got some changes 
I want to make I got some money to blow 
And on the day I die I can’t take that shit with me so 
Ima try to do something you remember for

Carousel

First date two am and again I’m 
Wondering if this is even real? What is this
She’s, super cool and she’s into all this 
Weird shit  that I love, that no one ever is but
I can tell she’s a sad one 
But she’s the kind of girl that wouldn’t cry to dad if she had one 
Grew up rough on some tough love hits 18 
And there really ain’t nobody else to speak of 
And now she’s rolling with a reject
And I know my time’s short but she doesn’t want to leave yet
Roll it up hit the porch and of course 
When the smoke clears out all we really have are regrets
All we really had were secrets 
And I don’t know about the hole in my defense 
It’s all good let’s dispense with the pretense 
You don’t have to say it girl I know That you’re leaving 

Cause I don’t believe it when 
You say you’re happy 
How could you be 
When you cry all the time?
Maybe One day we’ll learn 
To cry while we’re laughing 
So maybe we 
We won’t 
Have to get high all the time 

First things first, I’m the worst and I know that 
Just your birthday curse that’s a throwback 
I ruin everything and you know that 
I’m the saddest motherfucker on this earth like I’m Bojack 
Black lungs white sky oh why can’t?
I just be free without a vivance 
When I ask for love I get silence 
As you go and hide behind eyelids
Just go to sleep I’ll be right back
Don’t you know that you’re all I have
Just breath she says it’s not that bad
You know I hate when you talk like that
Let me break and I’ll be done
I know you hate what I’ve become
With everything that I’ve been through
I just can’t be what you want me to 

Turns out I’m a problem unsolvable
Nausea from the toxins the bad son prodigal
Now I’m reaching for top it's improbable 
The way I got here turning thoughts into audibles
Turning art into an audience 
Against my haters judgement and against my own common sense 
Now I’m getting played in all the provinces 
Cause every time I hop up on the beat I fucking body it 

Cause I don’t believe it 
When you say that you're happy
How could you be
When we’re dying inside?
Maybe one day 
We’ll learn to cry while we’re laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
Cause I don’t believe it when 
You say you’re happy 
How could you be 
When you cry all the time?
One day we’ll learn 
To cry while we’re laughing 
So maybe we won’t 
Have to get high all the time

🅱🆄🆃🆃🅴🆁

Tater