Nothing, NoMore

The Upload

broken 💔

nothing.nowhere

[hero]

I COULD SEE THE SUBSTANCES THAT SCHOLARS NEVER COULD
AND I COULD FEEL THE SIDE OF HER THAT NO ONE UNDERSTOOD
and it ended in
blood
on the floors on the walls
bodies strewn in the hall
and i swear they weren’t there before
motels and hostels
with residues been charred off
at night i keep my shirt off
i’m not worried bout the bed bugs in the safezone
shit’s a no go
i dont wanna leave i just got here front the slow pokes
i feel them right behind me with their logos
tryna advertise in every place they control
she lashed out i felt flashbacks
she wont open my snapchat
i’m tryna choose my casket
she came back to jus backstab
I didn’t come to get laughed at
i got morals and a format
for this shit talk that i hash out
i’m sorry did i scream too loud

[yokai dreams]

Woahhh
I can feel the blood flowing from my heart as you clawed it out
Woah I can't stand this doubt

That gun shot called sirens
To where you had me dying
My friends say that I'm lying
You can't blame me for not trying
I picked up most pieces
But the last ain't been found
Got shit that I've lived thru
So I'm sorry if I scream a bit loud

[hero] (sewerperson - comet 2 outro)

till then
im sitting on the comets
im way up here
i just got the news and i was brought to tears
feeling on my body she gon raise my hairs
honestly im scared but im guessing
till then
im sitting on the comets
im way too high
friday night was crazy think i almost died
baby take my hand ill let u touch the sky
when im on the comets i come to life

blood vessels (ft. yokai dreams) (jolst)

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

for you <3

you drive me fucking crazy
cant see, my vision hazy
malfunction in this function
you’re heroin for me baby
break mirrors when i pass by
cut with the shards
on standby
smear my face on the pavement
a hopeless romantic? maybe.. 
baby (x3)
you’re all the drugs i could ever need
but im a bad addict and a fuckin fein
you showed me all the things that i could never see
you’ll never understand what you mean to me
i thought i was incapable of loving
because of you i finally feel something

a hopeless romantic.

And baby
Please come back
And I beg you
I know I been replaced with someone else
With someone else x2
And I know I'm the one who to you to let go
And all the memories that we had
I sware to God if I could take you back
And I know that we drifted away
And I will try again 
We your friends
Tell me that I wasn't enough
I can pretend 
That I'm will be ok
I was so caught up
And wanna be alone
That I made excuses
Why I left
And I know i was wrong
But im am sorry
And I know it will never be the same again
I'm sorry I wasted all your time
And what can I do to make things right 
I dont think yoy know me well
I don't think I know myself
I smile when the cameras out
But honestly that's someone else
I
Don't know
That I'm
Falling behind
And I miss everyone now
Just to see
You moved on
I promise I'll be fine

Butterflies to Spiders

Everything you say is all about the latest Where you been who your friends who the fakest 
I could care and compare till I get a nosebleed 
They love stare and act like they don't really know 

I'm trying just pull away 
But we keep talking 
On and off these days
When I look back 
It just falls away 
Guess I'll be blunt what is there to say 

Good, fast, cheap 
You can have two of the three 
When comes to making love under the sheets
And I guess you love cheap you're not suttle
So it don't mean a thing all this trouble 
In my head know said I won't notice 
No goodbye till next time but  you closed with 
Don't  tag any photos cuz your friends will know it 
You don't trust anyone but you never show it 
Let me know how that works out baby 
Cuz I heard you like the same songs latley
That I showed you that night with the light Creeping in and you asked what is this think I like it 
And it never meant anything to you 
I guess it never meant anything to me to 
And it never meant anything to you 
I guess it never meant anything to me to 

And I bet you say it 
You miss it the minute that say we're finished

Everything you say is all about the latest 
Where you been who ya friends who the fakest 
I could care and compare till I get a nosebleed 
They love stare and act like they don't really know

you love cheap (prod. splashgvng & Milodrama)

[Verse 1]
I've been waiting for something or someone to save me from this
I can't act like I'm fine when I'm not anymore and it hurts
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath
Reaching out for a hand 'cause the hurt makes it harder to be
Breathing out as I watch every season go by in complete
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

[Verse 2]
Searching for a god or something that is bigger than me so I wait
Reaching up at the sky sending prayers that I know won't be met
Sleep, wake, repeat
And I'm underneath

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

[Bridge]
And it's too late for you to save me
Your words cut like razor blades

[Chorus]
So watch me break
I'm barely breathing
I'm wide awake
And you're still sleeping (Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh)
'Cause all this weight
I'm bruised and beaten
You watch me break
You're barely bleeding

barely bleeding

Haha

mixed/mastered by kassgocrazy
produced by kassgocrazy x cgmbeats

lyrics:

Jealousy made me I saw the future u will fail
Look at the pit Keep going I wanna hear u yell
Pain had made me I could never burn in hell
Sick of this waiting I think ill go in myself
She said in my eyes she could see her as well
U could stay the night but she kiss and tell
Plus u would refuse to catch me if I ever fell
My heart way too big so I wouldn’t take it well

Woah woah I just couldn’t do it I baby I know I know im no fun
Once we said and done im only average but so what
Baby I got the code I swear know who I am
Sorry ive been so cold its cause I hate who I am
But you would hate hearing that so now I just keep it all in
With our head low They’re gonna cut it off baby
Oh were assholes Well we all know baby
All inside my head in my dreams it is nightmares
Spilling from brain thru my ears onto my shoulders
Welcome to the club for the people from nowhere
Maybe ill explain it again when ur older

Jealousy made me I saw the future u will fail
Look at the pit Keep going I wanna hear u yell
Pain had made me I could never burn in hell
Sick of this waiting I think ill go in myself
She said in my eyes she could see her as well
U could stay the night but she kiss and tell
Plus u would refuse to catch me if I ever fell
My heart way too big so I wouldn’t take it well

Jealousy made me I saw the future u will fail
Look at the pit Keep going I wanna hear u yell
Pain had made me I could never burn in hell
Sick of this waiting I think ill go in myself

pit (kassgocrazy x cgm)

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

and all the shit i do it makes me numb
it also makes me look so fucking dumb

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

now i'm crying laying in my bed
stuck with memories i can't forget

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

im really sorry for the blood you bled
and the tears that you had to shed

sorry for the mess i left
i am just a mess myself

lately i dont feel the best
dont know what's wrong with my head
all these people leave me feeling dead
honestly i don't understand

rot w/ thearchived (Wraith Nîr)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YJ0w685tKMw


music video

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If you are reading this, you have been in a coma for the past 20 years. I don't know where this message will end up in your dream, but I hope it works.

Please wake up . . .

Astari Archives - Volume 1: The Awakening

2015

Thank you to all my friends who put their trust in me & helped put together the first volume of the archives.

& shout outs to all of my amazing supporters out there listening to this, w/out you none of this would be possible & I wouldn't be where I am & who I am today w/out the love & support you all continuously show me. 

Thank you,

I hope you all enjoy the tape.

Cover art done by: @denzelsterling

barely bleeding

nothing,nowhere. (one take)