Get Drunk (Lana Del Rey)

just found out abt the male gaze....,,,,,, damn that shit suckssss. anyways, here’s the LYRICS:


I am the nudist neighbour in the window
I hope you watch me cross the yard, I’m new age rapunzel
Don’t close the curtain who am I if you’re not looking
At me? well fine
Then go, I’ve got two eyes that work just fine for looking at me
And I know I’m the girl you dream of
I’m the girl you dream of

This room was built brand new but I still think it’s haunted
A pretty tomb where all my melodies they go to die
And I’m stoned but I’m alone and it feels like someone’s in here, with me
So I save my bestest pretty dress to wear at night
And I brush my teeth in style
And I know I’m the girl you dream of
I’m the girl you dream of

Do I turn you on?
Do you think it’s wrong?
If all I want to be 
Is perfect like a painting
Comfortably still
Comfortable pills
Better off this way

When I know I’m the girl you dream of
Cuz I’m the girl I dream of
I’m the girl I dream of

Nũ Age Rapunzel

LYRICS:

You like how bad you get me down
Watch my eyes follow you around
Look up each time I make a sound
And it’s loud at the party

And I’ll pretend that I don’t care
Flustered your hands are in your hair
Tell jokes like you don’t know I’m there
But check to see me laughing

Now there’s a girl who’s getting brave
I wonder if she’ll make you cave
But when our eyes do meet you wave 
And you look gorgeous darling

But I could never let you know
Cuz friends are not supposed to go
Through doors that can not be re-closed
Do you want me as badly 



Who’s gonna be the first to give 
Who’s gonna be the first to give
Fall prey to whatever this is
That makes me wanna fold

Your name feels so good on my lips
I wrote you in my secret list
But it’d feel awful strange to kiss ya
When you act so cold

I bet I show up in your dreams
I bet you dream that I’d taste sweet
I hope you don’t keep it a secret
If you're so inclined

I wanna get you on your own
I want my testimony known
I want a simple yes or no
I wanna make you mine

Oh yes, I wanna make you mine
I wanna put you back in line 
I wanna settle this the right way
Falling to our knees

I wanna make you say it 
I wanna make you say it
I wanna hear you beggin
out for mercy
writhing at the feet

Out For Mercy

LYRICS:

This little strip of highway
has never seemed to stretch so long
The silent air between us has never 
Sounded quite so wrong
And your old pickup truck it’s 
always felt like home to me
But driving now your face is pale
you look so small and half asleep

Your mama asked if we were fighting
I told her I wish I knew
I tell you bout the things I’m writing
You don’t listen when I do
And I ask you to be honest, 
I’m not frightened by the truth
You shake your head say same old shit, 
It’s all I get these days from you

And I wanna scream
I wanna scream 
But there’s nothing I can say about what you don’t let me see
And I’d take the blade
I’d press it deep
If only you’d know what I mean when I say you’re the blood I bleed

I got you dancing in the basement
funny but it made my day 
But every time I turn around I’m scared 
you might just slip away
I wish that I could take you back
When we were kids id keep you safe
I wish they never let you down
I wish I knew you’d be ok

And I wanna scream
I wanna scream 
But there’s nothing I can say about what you don’t let me see
And I’d take the blade
I’d press it deep
If only you’d know what I mean when I say you’re the blood I bleed

The Blade

LYRICS:

I drink shame like wine
Do you wanna taste?
Well you can soak up mine

And if I let you drown
Won't you cough it out?
Pretend I never cried

And if I let you down
Won't you turn away?
'Cause I'm leaving now

I was only trying to relate
But I said too much
Now we're going down

And won't you call me angel
Call me your angel
Tell them I was an angel
When I'm sleeping in fire

I eat hate like bread
Do you like the taste?
Well you can take my head

And if I let you choke
Won't you hear my sins
'Fore we end up dead

And I will let you down
Won't you turn away
'Cause I'm leaving now

I was only trying to understand
What makes a man
Now we're going down

And won't you call me angel
Call me your angel
Tell them I was an angel
When I'm sleeping in fire
When I'm sleeping in fire
When I'm sleeping in

Sleeping In Fire

Drain You (Nirvana)

The Way Her Hair Falls (Grouper)

i think i should go now

Miniatures

LYRICS:

Black and blue
You didn't mind I was a fighter
When you pulled me from the noose

And I made no excuse
It never takes 'em long to catch you when
Your face is on the news

~~~

Check my attitude
And pull a chair up to my cell at night
To watch me play a tune

Sneak me in your room
It's not my idea of freedom but
I guess that it'll do

I said I won't choose
Between a life in which I'm wide awake
And another life in which I use

He said that won't do
Tie my wrist up to the bedpost
Leave me howling at the moon

~~~

Tell me, "ditch the spoon"
But I see the way you sneak it thinkin
I don't have a clue

Now you're caving too
I am married to the prison guard
And I'm marching to my doom

Prison Guard

This is a piece of shit but it's cute- an old demo i found from the first time i was in love. i clearly recorded it in 2 seconds w just one take each track. posting it because the arrangement kinda reminds me of the breeders or something lol

A Song From The First Time I Was In Love

LYRICS:

i wish you still called me when you were drunk
the way that you used to when we were younger
the boys act like dogs so we get on the phone
when did you got tired of writing back home?

you love the lights but do the lights love you?
do all your new friends hear your words like i do?
oh i love that crowd but i know where i stand
can you handle the sight of the eyes you command?

be your own man, do what you want
God knows you've got cooler places to haunt
and you're workin hard, harder than me
i guess it don't take twenty-twenty to see

we're through (i'm still hanging on)
what did i do? (i'm still hanging on)
waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)
still waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)

you're moving on up while i'm hangin around
hands in my pockets our old stomping grounds
did i offend ya? did i run my mouth?
am i just a reminder of this dead-end town?

well you're still electric, at least so i hear
i wouldn't know you've all but disappeared
when should I catch you? maybe next year?
i'll gamble my heart on your last resort beers

I guess that i'm bitter, i guess i've been burned
i'm such a child the way i never learn
don't hold it against me, my judgement's the worst
i know that you'll get it, and that's just why it hurts

we're through (i'm still hanging on)
what did i do? (i'm still hanging on)
waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)
still waiting on you (i'm still hanging on)

I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk (I wish you still called me when you were drunk)
I wish you still called me when you were drunk, I wish you still called me cuz i'd still pick up

I Wish You Still Called Me When You Were Drunk

This one goes out to my girl Diane Selwyn

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LYRICS:

in all of my dreams i am missing my teeth
and dead things come back just to die again
ive sold our souls for a pink limousine just to circle the ground we’ll be lyin in

that surf rock you’re playing i cant make it out 
not quite like the ocean but how the lake sounds
this picture is silent you’re screaming too loud
echoing even now you’ve closed your mouth

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

sometimes i see you in girls on the screen
lips red like blood while you smile and wave
i never said that it should’ve been me
and you never cared to know anyways

i went to bed begging woke up confused
static on standby electrical blue
glow in the dark as you’re leaving the room
please don’t turn it off i cant sleep without you

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby
pick me up drive me home wont you stay baby

pick up your laundry
pick up your laundry
pick up your laundry
blind now but once i could see

how would you like to disappear?
i know a place
tell me that theres nothing i should fear
then waste away
every rotten corpse i’ve kissed on sunset boulevard
reduced to dust 
and gold dont rust
but im still no star

Pink Limousine

One Hand, One Heart

Terrible quality recording from my phone but this was performed for a TIFF Party with Good Enough Live Karaoke (the band I host for) at the Cambell House

Rid of Me (PJ Harvey) LIVE with GELK at Campbell House

The same song as before but holy fuck why did I use so much reverb the first time

Prison Guard (2024 Mix)

LYRICS

You said it’s easy money
And nothing’s set in stone
Well I’m gonna live forever
And you’re gonna go on home

Are you a good man to your family?
I’m a mystery to mine
I’m gonna live forever
I’m gonna borrow baby’s time

When the devil gets to talkin
And the devil gets to do
And the devil wants his shirt back
He’s gonna come a lookin for you

But I ran off with your interests 
And I took your poems too
Sold your evil for a sandwich
Wrote a tune about the view

Borrowed time
Borrowed love 
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm
Mmm-mmm

I’m a flirtin with your demons
Did you think you were the son of God?
I’m a freak show teasin Jesus, 
Man your son is out here barking like a dog

I’m a stray cat catching sparrows
You say you’re just a wild thing too
With a bit of power dripping from behind your lips
You couldn’t swallow up the truth

When the devil gets to talkin
And the devil gets to do
And the devil wants his girl back
He’s gonna come a lookin for you

But I ran to where you come from
Back to the twilight zone
I’m gonna live forever
And you’re gonna go on home

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Are you mad that this means nothing?
Are you tired of chasing birds?
Still going for that trophy?
Are you disappointed in these words?

Do you need more dedication?
Do you need a thoughtful prayer?
Cause I’ve got this raw ambition
It’s around here but I don’t know where

And I’m angry at the future
For leaving me behind
And I’m angry at the stars for being
Way too fucking high

And I’m angry at my shadow
For trying to take my place
She hits but I forgive because the
Shit she writes is…
(Actually it’s not even that great)

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Wake up, baby release the doves!
Borrowed time
Borrowed love
Running blind
Chin up, baby release the doves!

Release the Doves!

frustration

Here's my bluesy reimagining of Lana Del Rey's For K Part 1/Drive-by, an unreleased song (don't sue me!!) back from her Lizzy Grant days. She released an acoustic album called Sirens under the alias May Jailer way back when, and then later tried to have it erased from existence.

For K Part 1 (Lana Del Rey)

I don't even know what this is. I listened to too much Beck and tried to make something lo-fi. sounds pretty shitty just be grateful i didn't name it giant flying ant

You Shoulda Known

a little recreation of one of my favourite beck songs

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