I...L0$t..My...S0ul..In..2023😮‍💨

[emptychest]
cold green eyes
yeh
yeh
pop out
i said pop out
FTP when this shit goes to rot down
yeh
yeh
hot now 
im on now
aint nothin i aint seen but my god now
fell in love but im right back at home now
scared to call, wont survive if i dont now

cold green eyes
hypnotize her soul
whats outside..?
they let them know

[LOVENude]
ok like top me now
your in my fucking town
i do not want to talk to you baby i need u now 
youve been so lost inside my head i really get it now
i had to sought around i drive away to crash it out

and i take drugs baby
and i just like to numb the pain because im so crazy
and i do not just like to talk to you so crazy
you are just like a stranger 
get in danger
i just need to the pain im movin thru 

pain in my sanity it never goes away 
im lost lost ion like to talk im movin to another day
she been in my head she like a stranger not another day
illucidated ive been so damn crazy need a fucking place to stay

but im so upset
i cannot loose you
and i dont want to walk alone

so baby hold my hand
were almost there
i keep on talking to you your a stanger in advanced
we hop inside the ride and ride away so we can dance
i wanna find a place with u and
die slowy with you

but i dont know what to do
ive been gone i found the truth 
shes fucking with another guy oh man what a suprise

scared2call +LOVENude [p. lxst ghxul]

prod. caves

i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

produced by caves.

metallic taste in my mouth
bloodshot eyes and im out
i dont know my route
i dont know my route
i dont know my route..
live, endeavor
☆
old news that i already know
pissed off and i cant get old
what do i have to say?
(could i ever?)
(could i ever?)
(one missed call)
(two missed calls)
☆
and who am i right now..?
MY BODYS TELLING ME 
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
RIGHT NOW
"I NEED TO GET OUT, NEED TO GET AWAY"
to find contrast
in my life
or all this will be nothing
(nothing)
yeah, it'll be nothing.
☆
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
FOR ALL MY LIFE
I SCRAPE ANY HOPE
OFF MY BEDROOM FLOOR
and if i cannot find it,
I'LL LEAVE ANYWAY
☆
a hurricanes coming thru and
it kinda reminds me of you
kinda reminds me of you..
have you ever, have you ever,
been alone like that?
and all this time i finally need to matter

live, endeavor.

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & Ally Holloway
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶

don't worry, you'll be fine.
don't worry, you'll be fine..

and I dont know how serious it really is
I dont know what i want

and it echoes thru these halls again
and the ghost you left still wanders around
(it still wanders)
woah

silence speaks more than sound
I've been lost and found

Lost and found

mixed, mastered, and written by Ally Holloway
produced by wissery & yago
٩(× ×)۶

it's really not meant to be,
i know..
i know..
but i get to caught up,
and i love it..
i love it,
i love it..

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn.
yeah,
I'll do what he wants, and ill pull it back for you.
yeah,
him and her and all that fuckin bullshit,
and if i dont care, am i just a fuckin fool, man?

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn..

Just getting by

im still learning

mixed, mastered, and written by Ally Holloway
produced by Jang0 & Autrioly

(pre-chorus)
You're right, I'm tryna' find love again.
Am I wrong, to say that you don't care?
Or maybe I don't care enough,
To save myself or walk away.

(chorus)
You should know by now,
I don't plan to tone it down.
I'll scream even if it's not loud enough.
I'll break my shell, cause my angels' askin' me;
"Why?"
"Have I haven't yet?"
(I haven't yet)
Got my license yet,
I'll tell you why; I just wait.
I'm bound to say yes if it's still real but,
I'm not down to wait around for you.

(breakdown)
I.. don't,
Wanna get back at you.
I'm talkin' about
Nobody but Me.

(verse)
You're wrong,
Cause I don't wanna love again,
And every night, I'm guilty for the wrong things.
I wanna be unique,
To save myself or walk away.

(chorus)
You should know by now,
I don't plan to tone it down.
I'll scream even if it's not loud enough.
I'll break my shell..
And they ask me why I procastinate
(Haven't yet)
For what I mean, I'm growing up.
I'll tell you why; I just wait.
I'm bound to say yes if it's still real but,
I'm not down to wait around for you.

I'm still learning

momentary 

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
I'm still waiting on like everything, thing's like,
boy, come here
I'll make this our year
light up the street lights with the power from our love, dear
you can stay here, angel don't fear
I'll dive deep inside your mind cause it's my frontier, yeah.
we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day life's ours

and I just want you
can we cross the borders, and claim our mind's back?
can we stay up all night till the sunrise, and think back..
to better days? :')
(no..)

crossed your path once again
didn't mean to, but i love you, and i mean that shit
i got lost again, am i learning?- i don't know.
you hate talking to me, but it's mutual,
and i can't be happy so just shut up.

we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day lifes ours

and yeah, your presence's enough! :(
probably numb,
sleeping in love,
problems a dove,
and i can't get enough
of my ignorance
to better, days.

It's miserable..
I can't be happy,
so just shut up.

Momentary

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
white shinobi: @white-shinobi
gin$eng: @ginsengxx

they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i think our scene would be alot better without them
do you think we need them?
i dont think we need them?
cause we have nick and we have miles
you know exactly who the fuck im talking about.
they're clones 
and they barely try cause 
they get cosigned and 
they already have fans before they start
maybe i shouldnt talk about it at all
but im just being honest
im just being honest
you cant look me in the face and tell me that it looks fine to you
cause we work our ass off and we get nowhere
i think we all secretly know this is not very fun
cause itd be alot funner if people gave a fuck.
or if we could live off of this, but right now we could die from this
im not tryna be a pessimist, but you know music's more than this
i dont think i wanna stick around to see how it goes,
cause how fucking far can you make it in here?
they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i tried to tell you once but you didnt listen
"we're nothing special, we're just a follower."
im not tryna make you sad at all
please dont give up
i just want you to know
they're not what you thought they were.

bonessss/clonessss (white shinobi x gin$eng)

0000

headphones on my head like every night
i dont have friends ive got me to fight
welcome to my life, ill help you see them, see them
i have a strange feeling that its the end, the end.

im addicted to my death and im addicted to this pattern
i realized every choice boils down to the same kind of people
and same kind of morals
and same kind of morals, so what do you believe in?
do you really think that this life has a meaning?
did you really think that id let you off easily?
oh hell fucking no ill come down on you like you did in my dreams
i know hes confused but i dont think i care
night time comes and once again you are a disgrace baby
you look entirely defaced lets rewind baby
to first base
when your place wasnt my place
ive always had shit to say but now im fucking say it 
cause ive spent too long putting up with it 
woah
 woah
  yeah i bet you got a death wish
see me in my room tied up by my necklace
you scandalously walk thru all my halls for an answer
but theres no answer
i float thru these walls as a ghost 
i see you in my grasp, getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know..
what i did to you, cause i always kept my mouth closed
like you should have done about me 
keep it quiet and i wont ever fuck you up
dont worry bout it man the season calls for it
dont worry bout my plan youll know when it hits
this shit is really how i feel and theres only one
person that i wouldnt lie to
its my microphone
dont call your home
your soul will always be bound to my tomb
our stories in stone 
you took over my throne 
and now were just bones 
drink poison and enjoy it
basically my point is 
our puny love was disjointed
by you
by you
i float thru these walls as a ghost
i see you in my grasp getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know 
what i did to you cause i always kept my mouth close
this is a story about all my demons 
welcome to my head, ill help you see them
when i hit 19 might as well be the end
i dont wanna die but im really not living
so stay a little longer just to make it funner
when i go under, please dont suffer

white lies lead to murder (domesticsoul)

@safeatlast

ive never met someone quite like u 
im still tryna find out why u popped up out of nowhere
but god i cant complain cus ur my somewhere
to go when the storm hits
yeah, ive been dealing with some shit for almost four years
i think im a little bit more grown up now tho
and i finally know what i truly need
i need a pretty fucking girl to hold me in her arms, right now,
someone specifically.
(grace)
i dont know much
but i know you mean every word you say
yeah, this shit happened fast, you're damn right
(damn right)
but what am i suppose to say when i feel alive?
(feel alive)
do you feel the vibe?
i dont wanna rush this, but i wanna thrive
my lifes a cycle and youre there to reset me
youre the first thing thats never really left me
you were there, i was there, and it felt right
if you were dying, i would stay up with you all night
cause i love you

grace

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grace (jolst x homesick)

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

cover by @northshoremusic / me

when the clouds break down youll see me shining bright up in the sky
i dont mean to hurt you but i think i might have to disguise
but ill always be your friend, no matter what you do ill always be there in the end
now its raining more than it ever has 
looks like the road is broken but i just dont seem to mind
cause as long as i got you i just dont give a shit
judgement day could be coming but i still think we'd be fine
in my mind its just growing up
so why are we so afraid of this?
theres so much shit to think about and im overwhelmed 
but ive always wanted this so i gotta do it right now
december bound im coming for you
to start a life brand new
i swear 
it doesnt 
take that much
it just takes some time and a little bit of love
i know we got it rough but we just gotta learn to change
all the pain into brighter shades of black and white and darker greys to see the brighter side
say what all you want about me but im still me
and even on the brighter nights i still hate me 
the love was still there but i couldnt see it 
i was still there but he wasnt breathing

it dont seem like much but its gon add up soon
packing my bags to get you to the moon im gon see what i can do to make it better for you
yuh i waited all night i guess this my life
december bound im coming for you
to start a life a brand new
i swear it  doesnt take that much
it just take some time and a little bit of love
you been there for four years youve seen me grow up
and i dont wanna go back then so hold me up right now baby
popped off at the table he said i was cheating bitch
im really not cheating bitch im just a demon bitch and ill
take the energy out yo life to fuel mine
cause i dont got a source of power to call mine
but blast off, im bouta be out of here
i got a girl in my mind 
she helped me out of fear  
i lived in my room since forever
and if i dont change i will never
and if you dont stay i will wither
and if you dont stay i will wither

DECEMBER BOUND (Kosfinger)

entirely non-profit.
produced by noizz
https://soundcloud.com/noizz2
https://soundcloud.com/noizzbeatz

bruh.. what the fuck is happening
i dont even know
theres anime music in my ear right now
.. um..
im gonna get more high..
okay, 
bye.

sometimes i wake up in a cold sweat
i cant help it i just seen death
x2

did you dig right out my mind?
youve been there like a thousand times
timeless fuck it up, yeah
double up my cup, yeah
i dont give a fuck
BLOOD GOT ON MY WHITE DRESS!
now i got some tendencies and cbd
inside of me, inside of me

i got some tendencies nobody knows
i row backwards when i row that boat
yeah yeah yeah 
petty as shit and i cant get out of this
im just a bitch i know that shit

i cant help it, i just seen death

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@noizz2
@noizzbeatz

smoke blows out my face like a dragon
i always got a mf drag pen
always end up mf back here
i was always stuck inside my head  
i ask myself quite a bit
are the shadow people staring
teeth eyes glaring
i cannot be famous
looking out my window everythings fucking bafflin me
everythings scaring me
i know i fucked up so drag me down to hell where i belong
night, night.. yeah
you can bite down
dont get blood on your gown
if theres a problem in my house
i dont wanna hear the sound

night

everythings a little scary

entirely non-profit.
produced by nilowh
@nilowhbeats

procastinate your life,
you know that you lied.
im staying up tonight
to smoke away 
everything inside my mind
take a shot of novacaine
& bleed out in the same day
you changed
but i didn't
torn apart 
with a tough love ribbon
same day 
different difference
im insane
whats my worth if im not a person?
fuck you and all your lies
i spent a hundred nights sublime
you changed >:(
but i didnt 
torn apart with a tough love ribbon
same day
different difference
im insane

ｂｕｔ， ｉ ｄｉｄｎ＇ｔ．

u changed, but i didn't

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entirely non-profit.
produced by nilowh
@nilowhbeats

wtf is going on inside my head?
i say im fine but i would rather be dead
i lick a gun and i get turned on
dont question my morals cus im wrong
wtf is going on inside my head?
i say im fine but i would rather be dead
i lick a gun and i get turned on

i broke my clutch in the turn and thats alright
thats a lesson well learned, bounce
i got a problem w talking to people
if im not kinda high
make me your blood, make me your blood
God,
God,
God.

wtf is going on inside my head

what the fuck is going on inside my head

pick up the fuckin phone
yeh yeh yeh
ya we turned him 2 a painting
no one does wat i do so i paid him
fuc naw i didnt do jack shit
i learned dis on my own now i dont owe shit
im damn near the best
ya we turned him 2 a painting
no one does wat i do so i paid him
fuc naw i didnt do jack shit
learned dis on my own now i dont owe shit

high tide get me an my soul fried
i dont wana good night
i jst wanna stay up and contemplate my whole liii-
huh :p
boy thot he was nice he was runnin up a dub
uh
bitch im 2 high to ever give a fuck!
ur nothin special 
eck >:(
ur just a test wound
it was alright
BLAH!
till it wasnt!
yeh
im a zombie
bae!
do u copy?
word.
do u see me in tha cemetary late at night
walking round tryna find some fuckin spite 
i dont wanna kill u but i gotta jst to make it right
try to act cool but u know u got Formaldehyde
poisin x_x
its pointless shit u know ull cry for quite a while
but dont do shit about it
pull up in a brand new whip
gtr4s or a corvette
yep
ill whoop u in like any game, call it life
yep
enough of all the talk shit
lets just fuckin talk shit

im a monolithic mommy 
corrupting the thoughts above me 
and i cant get away from this
why u try to love me man?
why u try and hate me
why u try to say the words that cant help but tame me
i cant write the story
but i can on my face
ill put ur name on my hand
and make it somethin like "grace"
four eyed motherfuckin fuck up
four eyed motherfuckin fuck up

aries

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breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

ＯＬＥＡＮＤＥＲ

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ＯＬＥＡＮＤＥＲ （ＰＲＯＤ．ＣＨＲＯＮＹＣ）

I love all kinds of music except for country

I...L0$t..My...S0ul..In..2023😮‍💨

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