I...L0$t..My...S0ul..In..2023😮‍💨

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Wait Until I Fall

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

spotify!

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & Ally Holloway
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶

don't worry, you'll be fine.
don't worry, you'll be fine..

and I dont know how serious it really is
I dont know what i want

and it echoes thru these halls again
and the ghost you left still wanders around
(it still wanders)
woah

silence speaks more than sound
I've been lost and found

Lost and found

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

[intro]

Hold on to things around us
I hope that we don’t rust

[verse 1]

Time goes
with the wind of ghosts
I need control 
of my own soul

Maybe this time is just falling apart 
Everything that I see just turns dark
This is the time that I see red, mars
And see myself with these old scars

Time tells me that I won’t go far
Maybe he’s right I’m behind his bars
Wind sucks up like it is tar
Wouldn’t be surprised if we get charred 

[chorus]

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

[verse 2 - lxst boy]

Ghosts are haunting me, they are behind me
Breathing down my back, fire spewing all around me
And I’m just lost in this space you provided me
And who am I to think they wouldn’t lie to me

Demons all on my chest, can’t control my head
Losing all of my breath, I’m probably better dead
Get in position, they got a new proposition 
I feel alive in the cyclone, I hope it raises suspicion 

I hope, I go
Peacefully in December’s snow
I know, I’m gone
Write another poem I’m the right one

[chorus]

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

Where the time go in this cyclone
I can tell it’s flying by in this wind though
Then I go home become hollow
Then I wonder where the night went it this silo

wind from ghosts (feat. lxst boy)(puhf & zekiro)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
white shinobi: @white-shinobi
gin$eng: @ginsengxx

they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i think our scene would be alot better without them
do you think we need them?
i dont think we need them?
cause we have nick and we have miles
you know exactly who the fuck im talking about.
they're clones 
and they barely try cause 
they get cosigned and 
they already have fans before they start
maybe i shouldnt talk about it at all
but im just being honest
im just being honest
you cant look me in the face and tell me that it looks fine to you
cause we work our ass off and we get nowhere
i think we all secretly know this is not very fun
cause itd be alot funner if people gave a fuck.
or if we could live off of this, but right now we could die from this
im not tryna be a pessimist, but you know music's more than this
i dont think i wanna stick around to see how it goes,
cause how fucking far can you make it in here?
they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i tried to tell you once but you didnt listen
"we're nothing special, we're just a follower."
im not tryna make you sad at all
please dont give up
i just want you to know
they're not what you thought they were.

bonessss/clonessss (white shinobi x gin$eng)

0000

headphones on my head like every night
i dont have friends ive got me to fight
welcome to my life, ill help you see them, see them
i have a strange feeling that its the end, the end.

im addicted to my death and im addicted to this pattern
i realized every choice boils down to the same kind of people
and same kind of morals
and same kind of morals, so what do you believe in?
do you really think that this life has a meaning?
did you really think that id let you off easily?
oh hell fucking no ill come down on you like you did in my dreams
i know hes confused but i dont think i care
night time comes and once again you are a disgrace baby
you look entirely defaced lets rewind baby
to first base
when your place wasnt my place
ive always had shit to say but now im fucking say it 
cause ive spent too long putting up with it 
woah
 woah
  yeah i bet you got a death wish
see me in my room tied up by my necklace
you scandalously walk thru all my halls for an answer
but theres no answer
i float thru these walls as a ghost 
i see you in my grasp, getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know..
what i did to you, cause i always kept my mouth closed
like you should have done about me 
keep it quiet and i wont ever fuck you up
dont worry bout it man the season calls for it
dont worry bout my plan youll know when it hits
this shit is really how i feel and theres only one
person that i wouldnt lie to
its my microphone
dont call your home
your soul will always be bound to my tomb
our stories in stone 
you took over my throne 
and now were just bones 
drink poison and enjoy it
basically my point is 
our puny love was disjointed
by you
by you
i float thru these walls as a ghost
i see you in my grasp getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know 
what i did to you cause i always kept my mouth close
this is a story about all my demons 
welcome to my head, ill help you see them
when i hit 19 might as well be the end
i dont wanna die but im really not living
so stay a little longer just to make it funner
when i go under, please dont suffer

white lies lead to murder (domesticsoul)

lyrics
-------
was it all okay?
i put you in my place
feelin like a disgrace
cant get you out of my head

love you;dream
its not at all what it seemed
feels like a movie, im on set, and im stuck in my dreams

put it all on pause
hit it on restart
its better to keep moving, than to get where i been lost

i wish, you the best 
feeling my life, keep on coming to end
standing and staring, ur knife in my back
your a asshole from head to ur toes once again

its a shame no one knows
ripped up ur letters and notes
i hate ur guts and it shows!
the scars that you left me alone!

with
put me in the ditch
why are you such a, bitch
a stupid little snitch
ill say i love you till it, ends

20 and i fuckin hate it!
i dont have any patience
i wish that i could fucking take it
cant make it!

love you;dream

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

mix & mastr @fleshgolem

ft @lxstboymusic 🐐

lyrics

[mæsk]
i felt planets hit and all took was a single touch
it was a smoothe sail out to nowhere so ima a bit out of touch
i hit the main land swear it wasn’t this lush
but now i seek more just a temporary rush

scattered throughout the stratosphere 
holding down the atmosphere 
let ur guard down, drop my wings and let’s get the hell outta here

avoid the snakes when they appear
a fallen angel anaware
surrounding take its toll
but this endless ether baby

how much more
more can u endure
it’s gone get hot, just don’t get torched

there’s gon be changing course
and err pushing through a force field 
my voice is hoarse 
but we can make it out no matter the power that storm yields

just follow my lead 
what is life without a dream
extrinsic value to me has never meant a thing 
i’m finding lightning from within
but there’s more behind my skin
ur over more than half of me
am i fighting just to win?
(this is endless ether baby)

[lxst boy]

(this is real life, open your eyes)
I made a pact with the devil
he told me im destined for damage
I gotta go, running away 
packing my stuff in a panic
my life aint worth the air that I breathe
but im finding a way to manage
I guess ill keep quite 

I aint got philosophise im too afraid to talk about
maybe its not 

the real man in charge is in the sky and hes just looking down
I am not worthy of the life that ive been living now

but lately ive been tired of fighting entities who live around

my brain my rules thats something they better figure out

the sun it scorched my eyes

I keep records of pain thats what this is
yeah and day 14 I really hate the wilderness
but I gotta push through coz survivals worth the risk
I guess writing all these poems aint gonna fix my loneliness

I guess its over now
we can settle down

endless ether ft lxst boy (fantompower)

prod by the legend skyp

LYRICS¬

If i tried explaining this shit you wouldn’t get it
and ive had enough of you callin me pathetic
I dont wanna talk about it no
I dont wanna talk about it no
press me like i owe you something 
but im not fucking stupid know i owe you nothing oooh
Play me for my weakness bae thats low
But Im not surprised in the least you know

She was obsessive, wouldn’t confess it
all of the games, she keeping me guessing 
Fucked with my mind, shit got me stressing
mixing the codeine to deal with depression and
think i need sedative medicine
Might just OD for the hell of iiiit

But to you thats an occasion to celebrate
like what the fuck is that about
Am not even leaving the house
Im scared of the actions you take and im fearing the words that come outta ya mouth

everything just seems so played out
and it took me forever to try break out

It wont be long till im not special to you
and you can call me ‘Liar’ but ive seen the truth
to be honest i cant ever fucking trust you 
Cos i know that i could never compare to hiim

If i tried explaining this shit you wouldn’t get it
and ive had enough of you callin me pathetic
I dont wanna talk about it no
I dont wanna talk about it no
press me like i owe you something
but im not fucking stupid know i owe you nothing oooh
Play me for my weakness bae thats low
But Im not surprised in the least you know

Yeah
Feeling mindless
Fucked up alone i suffer in the silence
I can feel my brain collapse behind my eyelids
I cant do this anymore, were always fighting
A please wasnt enough to change your mind i guess
that you pray for the day that i take my final breath
And i can take the fall if its my final test
I just dont wanna be alone if this is not the end

plz (skyp)

entirely non-profit.
produced by nilowh
@nilowhbeats

procastinate your life,
you know that you lied.
im staying up tonight
to smoke away 
everything inside my mind
take a shot of novacaine
& bleed out in the same day
you changed
but i didn't
torn apart 
with a tough love ribbon
same day 
different difference
im insane
whats my worth if im not a person?
fuck you and all your lies
i spent a hundred nights sublime
you changed >:(
but i didnt 
torn apart with a tough love ribbon
same day
different difference
im insane

ｂｕｔ， ｉ ｄｉｄｎ＇ｔ．

u changed, but i didn't

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lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

its timeless
nothing left in my pockets
broken heart, and wallet
there's no way to stop it
I'm running away from my conscious-

but the time really passes by my friend
we were just in high school, now ur back at it again
in college with new friends
and I'm at home again
I swear that this life, never ever really ends

HOW'D END UP HERE ANYWAY
SMOTHERD BY YOUR TOUCH, THATS WHY I RAN AWAY
GOD, OH GOD, MY LIFE IS SUCH! A! MISTAKE!
I am such a god damn, mistake 

I
feel
the blood running through my veins
pain
nothing ever really felt the same
anyway

COVER ME IN ROSES
I AM SO ATROCIOUS

but the time really passes by my friend
we were just in high school, now ur back at it again
in college with new friends
and I'm at home again
I swear that this life, never ever really ends

*no it never really ends*

but the pain in my heart is immense
oh my god, I'm so pressed
16 with all of this pain, again
I DONT GET IT

we, all move along
we, all have, a song that means something
we, don't care at all
everybody, is selfish, in their own ways

timeless (prod. hero)

Blessed

I love all kinds of music except for country

u changed, but i didn't

emptychest

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