keepsake

- Choke u till u feel da painnn

- thanks again to twik for sending me a bunch of beats

FilterFreak (twikipedia)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

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the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

written: me
mixed: me
produced: @rokuhonda
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxrrss/talk

Lyrics:

(chorus)
there's nothing to say
like what can i do
when everyone around me reminds me of you
how can i stay
mad at the truth
how can i win if I'm not there for you

(verse)
what i gotta say
what i gotta do
i dont understand baby tell the truth
if you gave a chance i could never lose
i don't wanna stand if I'm not with you 
i don't wanna take more of your love
i just really wanna see what you want
i just really wanna go (go)
i don't really wanna say too much 
tryna keep it on the low (low)
you don't gotta go and make things tough
i don't even wanna show (show)
tell me something that wont break my heart
I've been tryna let you know (know)
you're the only one i wont call

talk (roku)

written: me
mixed: me
produced: @ReAll
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxrrss/why-2

Lyrics: 

(intro)

why am i spending so much time with someone selfish
if you really understand me, would you talk now?
i don't know how i can be so understanding
everytime you build me up you bring me back down

(chorus)

why, do i try to get you off my mind
i see you everynight
no that wont work at all
why, do i try to hold you close at night
when all we do is fight
no that wont work at all

(verse)

stopping time no 
i don't need to fall in love
talk about how far you've gone
smoke fill up my fucking lungs,
take your time 
always gotta do shit that i never liked
why you gotta bullshit lying bout your life
I've been chilling on the north end couldn't tell you why

hide my scars so u don't cry
i gave you reasons i wont slide
like who with why you wasting time
i told myself i wouldn't need your lies no more
no more (no more)
no more (no more)
no more (no more)
no more (no more)

007

*Hikikomori*

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