hatin Demons

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

FOLLOW MY MAN LUX!!!

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

{toomanyproblems}

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

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Soundcloud

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Insta

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Twitter

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Youtube

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Facebook

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Rollin on keep rollin on keep figuring it out/
Feeling like im peaking but its really just enough/
You be all up in my mind just lingering it up/
Talking to myself about these feelings and this love/

And I know you feel alone and you’ve been it all day/ hate it like that so you call me like ey/
Prolly gon die if I feel this everyday/ 
Baby why you sad cause Im feeling what you say like/

Loooow life I know you feeling bad/ 
you dont gotta die cause you never take it back/
I dont want a funeral and no one ever had/
Baby keep on struggling and shit will always pass/

I-I dont want to be alone/
Can you please just try/
Cause I need you in my zone/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Why you on my mind like never been before/
I just need some time, I really need to know/
Really wanna play, fucking with my soul/
Tired of this game and everything you know like/

Why you never wanna ride with me/
All you wanna do is getting high with me/
Feeling like you never wanna set me free/
Baby why you making it so hard to breathe/

Im falling down/
And I cant really help it/
No I cant really help it/

You’re all I want/
But I cant really save you/
No I cant really save you/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

alive

my attempt at self-defense

featuring my friend @guccihighwaters

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an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

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spotify

fucking up (ft. guccihighwaters)

(Prod. LghtSkinBoi)

Late night, Im tired/
I feel your high desires/
I know you, you fire/
And you only gonna hurt me/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

Come along and get high with me/
Feel me like that you would die with ease/
Promise I’ll be loyal til the day I dont exist/
Baby take a chance you dont know what you could’ve missed/

Running running running got me feeling that low/
And Im tired be haunted I dont want it no more/
You be there, you be gone, I just feel all alone
turn you on , what you want is a question I dont know ey/

Dont you want it to be better/
Blowing off the weather/
Wanna borrow another sweater/
I love you like/

Give you what you want/
You dont give it back/
Cause I, want you to be strong/
Baby thats a fact cause

I would never tell you lies/
Listen to your mind you’ll hear that I was right/
Can your hear it now, can you hear it now/

Late night, Im tired/
I feel your high desires/
I know you, you fire/
And you only gonna hurt me/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

Come along and get high with me/
Feel me like that you would die with ease/
Promise I’ll be loyal til the day I dont exist/
Baby take a chance you dont know what you could’ve missed/

Come along and spend time with me/
Feel her like that Imma die with ease/
Taking our lives just to live it to the most/
Shit Im so fly you can see it from below ey/

die with ease

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

cut myself with thorns, for you to throw away the roses

prod. @stillvanishing
ft. @lilxtraatl

s/o @prodbybrody
& @the-gnarly-neighbors

die with ease

exsetty