all I had left 

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all i had left (feat. kais)

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

lyrics vvv

(wow! you're turning into a skeleton!)

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
babe i love you, but i want outta my my my head....

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could

accepting my feelings, and moving on (skellington)

Little Good

Little Good (feat. Skele)

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

lyrics
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gon be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

bitch dont match my energy
she bumping all my melodies
im 17 with felonies
these drugs gon take my memory
they want something that I'll never be
wish she love me like ecstasy
used to look at me so breathlessly 
but her mind full of jealousy

all these fucking drugs that I abuse
cause I don't got nothing better to do
hope you know that I'm in love with you
I'm just scared these drugs will get you too

sendflowrs
I've been thinking about you with a cup poured
if this shit gon kill me why it feel so good for
these feelings must be what they make the mud for
ion know I promise I'm ok girl why'd you run for?
if you really being honest why you hide it?
n they say it gets better, I don't mind it
2019 I lost my heart cant find it
ion know if I'll love again I guess I'll find out soon

residential
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gonna be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

2019 w sendflowrs (nevrfall x branwen)

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

@xobroken @jolst


and i can tell when you're lying
you can see it in your eyes
you can see it in your smile
fucking hate when you're vile

its like you get a fucking knife
and you stab me in the vital

ur only nice on your birthday
get your cards and open them up
the writing on the inside are lies open it up

and i dont wanna feed your ego
if i could get out of here
id be heathrow

guess i pay the price now
fuck it its a time out
i just turn the light out
tell me whats important
6 in the morning
i left in the morning
i just want a foreign

"take a seat"
i dont wanna sit down
ive been all up on my mind
n idk where im going

dont act like you know
dont act like you know whats going on
cause you fkn dont

It’s a cycle
She hit my vitals
No survival 
Expect apologies when I’m dying, ya so entitled
Feelin like I lost myself since your arrival
Saw this Shit coming but I was in denial

I been deceased 
She not missing me
Turned into fiend
Full of grief
Xanax make me lean
Weak up in the knees
Puffin trees
Just to get some sleep
Unable to dream
White tee
Blood drippin on me

Didn’t see you leaving, what should I expect? Im so dead,  there’s no way to resurrect me
Said you loved me 
Then you left
What’s is that?
Everything’s a mess

smile w/ xobroken (jolst x radkoun)

what i like [neverforever]

i ruin everything i fucking touch

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_16

yeah i better wake up quick
"get it going, gotta get an iced out wrist
aint nobody going fuckin hard like this
and i been down bad but now im on my shit"
and all my friends
wanna act like i switched
now everybody wanna take a pic 
god damn
see your face on the gram
got me really missing when i could hold your hand

it's a lot to see u when i wake up
it's been hard to tell u that i want us
i ruin everything i fucking touch
and you'll get sick of me wont take much

yeah you'll get tired of me 
you'll just stop missing my company
it gets so hard to breathe 
wrist cut straight to the artery
i wish didn't push u away 
but sometimes i really don't know what to say
i see your eyes when u ask me to stay 
i just don't know how much i can take
and it's a lot to tell u that i love u
i swear it's me, i wanna trust u

sick of me (prod. pekarot)

thank you for listening 
<3
https://soundcloud.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever


it hurts me over n over again 
i think something’s wrong with my head
it’s easy to try and pretend 
but sometimes i’d rather be dead
i’m paranoid 
think you hate me 
shedding tears over our polaroids 
expectations on my chest, defenses i employ 

it’s okay, you can tell me i’m wasting your time
you don’t feel like you did and it’s fine 
you don’t miss me, it’s alright 
i get a bag n i spend it real quick 
i got some diamonds they dance on my wrist 
see me n public now they want a pic 
money can’t come much more easy than this 
every night i spent dreaming of shit 
every night i spent waiting for this 
i could lose it all
i don’t wanna fall 
i could pull the trigger 
paint the fucking wall

all i had left (feat. kais)

CxldKid