why this song is about that girl from senior year

"voluntary fits of the truth, hope you read these lines in a clear view"

a part two to an old classic

lyrics:
i wish i could say to get me off this ride 
it’s the same old story
so the same old conflict is eating me alive 
i’m lying saying that i will get to choose 
a roller coaster in the winter just waiting to be used 
but who am i without you 
a wide eyed idiot chasing after something new 
like it’s something to prove 
like it’s something to prove

it’s coming up again 
and it’s forcing me to leave
all these recycled notions 
that stay in my head 
stereotypically kick me
til i’m showing red 
i don’t want it 
but i caused this 
stupid conflict 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 

the first one hit right with the moon 
then the guard fell down and it crept through
it’s a new message i’m feeling blue 
but i’m wondering if it paints you too
and i swore it’s what i wanted 
as soon as it was started 
but now it’s being flaunted 
and i keep feeling haunted 
by every mistake etched 
still don’t know what is best 

but who am i without this 
a blind eyed idiot, searching for the magic 
til i’m feelin sick 
so tell me if i should quit 

it’s coming up again 
and it’s forcing me to leave
all these recycled notions 
that stay in my head 
stereotypically kick me
til i’m showing red 
i don’t want it 
but i caused this 
stupid conflict 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 

so many times i felt it’s see through 
pull the mask off, show the real you 
voluntarily fits of the truth 
hope you read these lines in a clear view 
i don’t want this 
i don’t want this 

is there something in the silence
is there more to this decay 
can i really make the right choice 
when you’re asking me to stay

clear view pt. II [prod. elvien]

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

prod. @trechorboy & @yuumu2k

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Lyrics:
you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

somehow saying sorry feels too melancholy
i’ll just leave my body cut for you
soak in anguish
probably shouldn’t take this double dose
im spacing out
i feel brand new
cuz im not ready to talk
‘pardonne-moi’
you know that
its no competition
let go of that pedestal shit
but i see you win and choke on my own thoughts
i hate myself more than i ask for help
i tried to crack my shell and all i felt was loss

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs 
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

i drink
and drink
and drink
so excessive that i think i broke the link tying you and i
stay away
hurray, purging feelings in the sink
for the fifth time this week
how can i forget?
what you did to me is burned into my head
like a cigarette
smoke
the scent
the dread
nothing can put these pieces back together
(x2)

Vehicular Manslaughter

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#notacareintheworld
produced by cxrter & yashio
📸: lilly foster

lyrics:
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows
play the strings, my guitar
hear the beat of my heart
they think i'm spitting bars, but no i'm just making art
they call me KiddPicasso when they play it in their car
if ur hearing this then you’re amazing, yes you are
y’all my creepy crawlies like the spider on my arm
carter got the cartier, we cooking up a storm
i was in the studio since the day i was born
Dj, they love my taste in music
i spend all my money on useless things
it makes them clueless
materialism is the way i view it 
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows

time slows <3 w/ kiddamo (prod. cxrter x yashio)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

all i have is nothing w/ byekento

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

@xobroken @jolst


and i can tell when you're lying
you can see it in your eyes
you can see it in your smile
fucking hate when you're vile

its like you get a fucking knife
and you stab me in the vital

ur only nice on your birthday
get your cards and open them up
the writing on the inside are lies open it up

and i dont wanna feed your ego
if i could get out of here
id be heathrow

guess i pay the price now
fuck it its a time out
i just turn the light out
tell me whats important
6 in the morning
i left in the morning
i just want a foreign

"take a seat"
i dont wanna sit down
ive been all up on my mind
n idk where im going

dont act like you know
dont act like you know whats going on
cause you fkn dont

It’s a cycle
She hit my vitals
No survival 
Expect apologies when I’m dying, ya so entitled
Feelin like I lost myself since your arrival
Saw this Shit coming but I was in denial

I been deceased 
She not missing me
Turned into fiend
Full of grief
Xanax make me lean
Weak up in the knees
Puffin trees
Just to get some sleep
Unable to dream
White tee
Blood drippin on me

Didn’t see you leaving, what should I expect? Im so dead,  there’s no way to resurrect me
Said you loved me 
Then you left
What’s is that?
Everything’s a mess

smile w/ xobroken (jolst x radkoun)

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

smile w/ xobroken (jolst x radkoun)

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