prod. metlast

i try to pretend this shit
is not fucking real
cuz theres no, way in hell
i could ever deal
with all the shit u say to me
and all things that ppl think
and i dont need to let u know
i dont need ur apathy 
i would rather die 
then take that shit anyway 

cuz everydays a living hell
but i still deny every ounce of help
that is offered to me 
cuz i dont...
feel like i dont deserve it
ppls affection....
makes me nervous... 
woah

just toss me out to sea...
it would probably be more efficent
cuz i have dreams of swimming with these fish
and all i do these days is reminisce

nervous [+metlast]

made in a day so i dont remember what the lyrics were

deathbed

lyrics
imma muthafuckin reject,
run around witcho bitch in a pheonix
imma muthafuckin deject,
a heart from a girl that i like to call my ex. x2

she says im well.

i cant save myself.

my mental health.

is goin to hell.

help me out, imma drown now,
imma go dark, till i pass out,
who's who now, am i dead wow,
can i come back? i can't see, od'd out.

imma muthafuckin reject,
run around witcho bitch in a pheonix
imma muthafuckin deject,
a heart from a girl that i like to call my ex. x2

kais

reject (prod.dead spyro)

thank you to @lilskeleskrrt and @lilduckk

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

I won't be alright
I'm trapped inside my mind
Fallen time to time and never get it right
I just run my life away
Never want to fight
I look right in back of me
The monster's right behind
Oh yeah, it's right behind me (right behind me)

I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

Do you really wanna know my life?
Do you really wanna see inside?
Do you really wanna look through my eyes?
All the suffering that happens at night

[lil skele]
I don't wanna take up your time
Think of what you said
You've been in my head taking up my mind
I've been looking out for what I think is best
But there's something in my head that makes my heart break through my chest so I know that I am more than this

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this

starchaser ft. skele (prod. WellFed)

here goes nothing

lyrics:

it's funny how right when she wouldn't talk to me anymore
it's you that answers the phone, dad
it's weird that it's weird to hear your voice, and
i know that you're busy as fuck, and
that you're not that proud of your son, and
didn't wanna answer my call, but
you still did, and for that i love you
i'm a fuck up
and i drained the well dry
runnin the streets, you were lookin for love
and you couldn't find it after my mother
i'm the same way, i need another
sickness tore all of us apart and
way too big of a heart for your chest, but
way too much on your shoulders to rest, you
run from baggage you left unaddressed, and
i relate 'cause i do the same thing
your son, and that shit's amazing
i'm sorry shit had to get fucked up,
i never meant to betray you
one year since we spoke on some real shit
i just hope i say the right things
i only dialed you 'cause i thought this time maybe you'd answer me

yeah
maybe you'd answer me
yea.. 
maybe you'd answer me

spotify

letter from your son (prod. cxld blxxd)

https://soundcloud.com/wstdyth

Prod. Droozy
Mixed. Ricky Ant

Insomnia

(repeated)
You told me that you love me that's not easy, something new to you-
And you can have my love until there's nothing left to give to you.

Close your tired eyes, I never thought that I'd say that again.
call me on your phone if you text back, I swear on everything I never meant that...

I cannot tell when im sad,
if you love me so much, why did you dip?
now that I've moved onto the next, try not to think about you in my head,
and she wears a hoodie to cover her wrists,
I tell her I love them, and give them a kiss.
girl don't feel like you're nothing, the only thing keeping me alive.

Every time she leaves I try not to cry..
If you weren't here I woulda been took my life..
I wipe her tears every time that she cries,
and then I tell her this every single night:

(repeated)
You told me that you love me that's not easy, something new to you-
And you can have my love until there's nothing left to give to you.

black oak (prod. rohff)

just fine w/ decks & seejayxo (prod nevrfall)

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova
Produced By: https://soundcloud.com/jolst
Mixed And Mastered By Hazenova

something i never had (feat. hazenova) (prod. jolst)

See him, walking in my shadows,
It's all, in my head, know that,
I see, nothing in my nightmares,
I sold, my soul, just to be happy.

Reaping comes when the night falls,
never found out what I want,
broke her heart, she's another one.

Reaper (ft. kais)

produced by me x 93feetofsmoke


lyrics:

sometimes i wonder how i got here
sometimes i wonder why im even trying
sometimes i wonder what i want here
this pain in my chest makes me feel like im dying
sitting all alone in my backyard
so down bad playing guitar
and nobody knows me
im just a ghost wearing all black clothing
walking through the hallway i hear their words
i just ignore it even tho it hurts
it hurts, it hurts x2

Insomnia

CxldKid