Lyrics

And there's million songs i write
A thousand tears i still cry
And somehow i’m not alright
That you still ain’t by my side

No I don’t want to fix this
And the world's still my witness
I put this on marius
I took things too far i guess

I’m lost in october
At least i’m still sober
I still workout for the closure
In the hope this would be over

I still can’t look into her eyes
She got these tears falling, tears forming
Cause she's got beauty i can’t have
I hate now when she laughs

Cos it’s never for me
But that’s not the same story
I know she loves beabadoobee
Got me missing her, missing her now

I tried loving slow
Oh girl I tried loving faster
And now my mother’s at home
She knows her son’s a disaster

She asks me politely
Bout the demons i’m fighting
I said I’m taking a liking 
To who i just might be

I come here to vent cos
My home life is safe now
Before i rebelled lots
And now my home’s the safe spot

And it took me too long
I got my life all wrong
I sung her my first songs
We made a few tiktoks

Yeah we made a few tiktoks
Made a few tiktoks

And there's million songs i write
A thousand tears i still cry
And somehow i’m not alright
That you still ain’t by my side

No I don’t want to fix this
And the world's still my witness
I put this on marius
I took things too far i guess

I’m lost in october
At least i’m still sober
I still workout for the closure
In the hope this would be over

I still can’t look into her eyes
She got these tears falling, tears forming
Cause she's got beauty i can’t have
I hate now when she laughs

hate when she laughs p. hurtwinds

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