a creeping feeling of dissociation //
- losing touch with one's self

a fleeting sense of attachment

this was a freestyle recorded in 2020 on a night when i was drunk and sad.

purchase on bandcamp here: https://otrapic.bandcamp.com/track/flutter

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7vYyDasfVor6TpYtOOP5RJ?si=dde422623649419d

listen on apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/flutter/1606804327?i=1606804328&app=music

flutter

https://open.spotify.com/album/6Kj9588aZGNMwgdbDoOhZ1?si=ruquPjxkQNaqyznkfxG0SQ

Bandcamp: https://lesliedoesmusic.bandcamp.com/album/blank-slate

I'm writing an album of vocal pop songs

Parasocial

big thanks to paddy (@clovehitch) for advice on arrangement and mixing

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to say
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

I can't quite read your face, Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, Mona
Please communicate, I'm waiting for you to say 
something that will end all the pain.

I'm not a psychopath blowing up your phone for fun.
Could you listen to my song cuz I think you're the one.
Your dad is one lunatic if he wants me to stop
cuz I'm still in love with you and I'm still in love with you.

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to stay in love
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

If you want to get to know me a little bit better, then you should try

telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait
telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait

try

Rosa Lisa

[im] so fucking high
and most people think im insane
im just creating space for what its still to come
the space between my body and my mind
the space where i can just be
my natural state of allowing
deep into the silent nothingness
listening
where i just observe
this space where i can go deeper

thank you for listening

aegis

(3/3) off of my EP, "FLOATERS"

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25Ll6g-QeSc

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https://aquoferne.bandcamp.com/

(lyrics)
smell the rain that's set aside
we've tried our best to run and hide
what's left is yours, not mine to break
i'm really trying my best to stay awake

if there's nothing there to love
then the light should wake us up

if there's life right up above
where's my name?

help me
i cant pick and choose
i'm so afraid to lose
everything and everyone

decide
every path i want
to go and walk around
while the sun keeps beaming down

i've wrote the year before, again
when you're gone, i've count to ten
how long should i still play pretend?
will we stay as friends?

or, is this the end?

i'm losing touch
not doing much
i've gone insane
just play it all again

left in this space
hold hands, say grace
to a future where we live
to a life we want to love

help me
i cant pick and choose
i'm so afraid to lose
everything and everyone

decide
every path i want
to go and walk around
while the sun keeps beaming down

Last year

I quit everything today
Old moldy yogurt and exercise bands
In the basement where I know that I can do anything

Follow the signs, I’ve been losing my mind
And these ears are too damaged to hear
I’m wasting your time while you’re waiting in line;
I think you should get out of here

Fairy lights round the window
Tinsel and tassels
I’m warm and I’m sinful

I will hurt you if you try
Give it another

Watch as I calcify
Think I’ll take medicine for the rest of my life
Cut the opening day ribbon and
 
Give me a sign, I’ve been losing my mind
You’re not in a condition to hear
Save me some time, I’ve been waiting in line
But I gotta get right out of here

I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today
I can do anything
I quit everything today (glue on the carpet)
I can do anything (door off its hinges)
I quit everything today
I can do anything

I am in so much pain
If I take my life find my songs on my hard drive and put them online
Not cause I feel like I need to be heard
But along the same lines, just hope packing my little ideas up pays off in some way
Clearly I’d trade the process for product any day

Any day now

I Quit Everything

Under the live oak where you stand,
I throw a stick and then you fly away.
You held it tight, 
almost as if you taunted me.
"You.. You couldn't catch me if you tried to!"
 
Under the live oak there you stand,
lowered your level posture so I would join you.

I couldn't catch you if I tried.

Run; do not think.
Evening pressing sunset oak leaves.
Run, you love thing.

Love thing.

run you love thing

i got up
it was cold
i left the window open

beeping so
truck horn shriek
skidding tire track road

lighter up, flick
finger burnt tips
trembling lips
kissing my wrists

and it hasnt snowed yet
think id regret
seeing my breath

a fleeting sense of attachment

N33T