lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. farber x jang0

hook
i hate the way that i treat myself
i know i need it i never ask for help
i don’t open up retreat into my shell
i blame it all on you when i should blame
myself
i cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
i just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
and it never helps it just fucks me up 
backseat of the uber got me throwing up

verse
cause i cannot drive without thinking about crashing it
the story of my life became a background in my own movie
mad at myself i hate the situations i’m placed in
daddy taught me how to swim by just pushing me in
i don’t have support to push me in the right direction 
only have my people hold my head above the water 
it’s cause i push them all away when i’m not feeling right
how can i be mad at her for fucking up my life

there’s not a lot to begin with 
i feel like i’m unfinished
pieces of my personality just won’t fit in
questions with no answers will i ever get it right
eventually i’ll get it but for now i need some time

bridge
this neglect that i put myself through
is a prelude to my fall 
will i ever get the timing right
to give you my all 

hook
i hate the way that i treat myself
i know i need it i never ask for help
i don’t open up retreat into my shell
i blame it all on you when i should blame
myself
i cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
i just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
and it never helps it just fucks me up 
backseat of the uber got me throwing up

verse
bottled up feelings got me acting like i’m crazy
late at night the memories that keep me up are hazy
calling out for someone that i know could never save me
you changed once but in the long run it changed me
pain in my heart that won’t ever go away
cause i know i really loved her but i had to walk away
looking forward to a brighter day when i can be okay
but for now let me grieve promise i can bounce back

PRELUDE TO MY FALL (farber x jang0)

struggler
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