PRELUDE TO MY FALL

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. by Jolst

verse:
i just stack my money up
you sick of me don’t give a fuck
last thing i could care about is trying when i’m fucking up
first thing that i worry bout is me when i’m waking up
need to take my time but i’m still tripping off what’s in my cup
i don’t wanna die but honestly wish i could disappear 
cause my heart been frozen over it’s cold and empty filled w fear
who am i and what do i want i’ll just try next year
honestly i’d just be better if i shed my tears

chorus:
all this time
i’ve been thinking bout
how i’m not fine
i wish i could go back in time
cause there’s a lot of shit 
i want to fix
i know i can’t tho

verse:
picturesque 
the feelings that you’ve built don’t mean a thing to me
how can say all that shit you’ve really never acted on it
say you love me means as much as dirt if ask me
how you gonna fall apart and still expect me fix things
i don’t even wanna fix myself that just means nothing
in reality i’m like a broken toy upon the shelf 
try and tried to kill myself but you won’t let me go away
i guess i’ll just haunt you til u hate me
i won’t fade away

chorus:
all this time
i’ve been thinking bout
how i’m not fine
i wish i could go back in time
cause there’s a lot of shit 
i want to fix
i know i can’t tho

verse:
i just stack my money up
you sick of me don’t give a fuck
last thing i could care about is trying when i’m fucking up
first thing that i worry bout is me when i’m waking up
need to take my time but i’m still tripping off what’s in my cup
i don’t wanna die but honestly wish i could disappear 
cause my heart been frozen over it’s cold and empty filled w fear
who am i and what do i want i’ll just try next year
honestly i’d just be better if i shed my tears

ALL THIS TIME (Jolst)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. cxrter and cloud

intro
whispers on the wind 
telling secrets we should keep 
i don’t wanna feel i don’t wanna think
mom said that i’m hateful
she hates the way i am
i wish i could go back and try it all again

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
i know i’m getting worse i can’t communicate with anyone
i cannot reply to the texts that are on my phone 
paranoia hitting me i’m locked inside my home
i hate the way they wanna talk just please leave me alone
but i feel so fucking bad 
cause they loved me on their own
this is like my karmic debt im reaping what i sowed
all the words they’ve said to me to get back what they’re owed
momma said i’m said turning bad i’m way too spiteful

i am way too tired to be feeling like this
put me on the pyre then you better light that shit
somehow you’re talking you’re barely making sense
i don’t even answer cause i’m clearly speechless

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
if i could take the time to heal 
i wouldn’t be here
write another song to make you feel like a shit
i don’t even care if you don’t think it’s a hit
gotta watch my back cause i know that people switch
lately i’m the outcast like the block that couldn’t fit
you call me a liar and say that you’re a bitch
i just wanted love but you never could commit
maybe im the wrong one in every single way

cause i cannot escape from overthinking bout my day
staring at the ceiling trying hard to be okay
scars on my heart that will never go away
hopefully the memories will start to slowly fade

hook
i prefer a text but always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

WHISPERS IN THE WIND (cxrter x cloud)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. farber x jang0

hook
i hate the way that i treat myself
i know i need it i never ask for help
i don’t open up retreat into my shell
i blame it all on you when i should blame
myself
i cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
i just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
and it never helps it just fucks me up 
backseat of the uber got me throwing up

verse
cause i cannot drive without thinking about crashing it
the story of my life became a background in my own movie
mad at myself i hate the situations i’m placed in
daddy taught me how to swim by just pushing me in
i don’t have support to push me in the right direction 
only have my people hold my head above the water 
it’s cause i push them all away when i’m not feeling right
how can i be mad at her for fucking up my life

there’s not a lot to begin with 
i feel like i’m unfinished
pieces of my personality just won’t fit in
questions with no answers will i ever get it right
eventually i’ll get it but for now i need some time

bridge
this neglect that i put myself through
is a prelude to my fall 
will i ever get the timing right
to give you my all 

hook
i hate the way that i treat myself
i know i need it i never ask for help
i don’t open up retreat into my shell
i blame it all on you when i should blame
myself
i cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
i just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
and it never helps it just fucks me up 
backseat of the uber got me throwing up

verse
bottled up feelings got me acting like i’m crazy
late at night the memories that keep me up are hazy
calling out for someone that i know could never save me
you changed once but in the long run it changed me
pain in my heart that won’t ever go away
cause i know i really loved her but i had to walk away
looking forward to a brighter day when i can be okay
but for now let me grieve promise i can bounce back

PRELUDE TO MY FALL (farber x jang0)

i tried interlude
beat prod. by farber 
lyrics by v0ice
performed by v0ice


i could separate from you and try to heal
the problems in my head that i never deal with
keep me up at night like i can’t be real with

anyone i used to
i wish i could fix things 
i fell out love but i fell right into place
took you off my socials i don’t wanna see your face
somehow if you hear this hope you know you’ve been erased

in the same city, hate it how we left things
now i see your face when i’m walking on the street
try to stay away because i’m scared that we could meet

you said that i’m pitiful i’m small and i’m weak
cause i don’t wanna stay when you treat me like i’m trash
i don’t wanna think about it, really hate the past
another year gone kinda sad how fast 
i say i tried cause i know you never did 
finally stepped away i’m gonna leave it as it is
im gonna leave it as it is
you make me feel so fucking selfish

blame it on me like i’m the problem 
you say i’m toxic and i’ll never solve it
you mad as hell that i left without you
take it out on everyone who comes around you
oh the stars i wanna see 
when i die push me out to sea
and let my body float away
i’m better now that i have walked away
you used me to help yourself
treat me like a tool to help kill yourself

now we’re dead inside 
who can we blame
me or you it’s all the same 
funny how time passes but you never change
talk about me to all your friends
what’s it really come to in the end
it’s not worth a lie 
and i will not pretend

I TRIED INTERLUDE x farber

track 5 from PRELUDE TO MY FALL; DEATH IS ALWAYS AN OPTION, I GUESS

recorded in april 2023

i lost the lyrics for this somewhere, probably misnamed the song in my notes :/ 

sorry

DEATH IS ALWAYS AN OPTION, I GUESS x kaadota

struggler
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