Conarium, the pineal gland; the seat of the soul. The part of the body, the material world (res extensa - as René Descartes called it) where consciousness (res cogitans) resides. Finding balance between our soul and our body is essential for our well-being. The frequencies of 72 Hz, 144Hz (and so on) can aid us in opening our third eye, our Conarium. This piece of music - featuring resonant didgeridoo-like sounds mixed with synthesizers, choir chants and rhythmic percussion - is written as a kind of meditation to assist in finding balance between res extensa and res cogitans.

Lyrics:

Honos
Decus
Fides
Verum
Res Extensa
Res Cogitans

Written, recorded and produced by Den Dipeza
Tuned to A=432Hz
Lyric video on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpGCKvJ0pN4

Den Dipeza - Conarium

simple song about a simple time way back when
#lofi   #first love  #losing yer VitaminC

Tangerine
                                                                                     
Well I was thinking of how we used to play                                        
Oh so many years ago
Made up some silly names
No one knew what we meant
Where did that time with you go

I recall you had a passion for those fruits
Called me your Red Raspberry Toy
You were my mashed Banana Girl
Well that really cracked you up
And I was your Cherry Baby Boy

Then our time was over when you said                                                                        
Your Daddy’s gonna move the family west
On that final day, you pleaded, “Hold me Sugar Plum,
and whisper the name I like the best”

Tangerine, Let me be  the Apple of your eye
My Tangerine, I’m sticky and sweet, your guy
Oh Tangerine, my first love
Now say goodbye

You sent me letters saying you’d always wait for me
Using veggie names to cheer me up
I became your Broccoli 
and I christened you Sweet Pea
It was all I had but it was enough

Saying when can I see you my Cauliflower Queen
I would call you up but we couldn't talk for long
Paying by the minute, those long distance charges added up 
There was only time for me to sing your favorite song

Tangerine, I wanna  be the Apple of your eye
My Tangerine I’ll always be sticky and sweet, your guy
Tangerine, you were my first love 
Now say goodbye
Goodbye





Tangerine

This song is a deeply personal and emotional journey, exploring the complexities of pain, hope, and resilience. Through the lyrics, I aim to convey the struggle of navigating darkness and finding solace in creative expression. The song is about holding on to hope, even when it feels like everything is falling apart, and using music as a lifeline to cope with the pain and find a way forward. It's a reflection of my own experiences and emotions, and I hope it resonates with those who listen.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake to the gray, no reason why
I fake the smile, let the silence lie
Tears beg for release behind my eyes
But I swallow them down, like lullabies 

My pen’s a blade, it cuts me free
I bleed the words no one else can see
In minor chords, I pour my soul
A shattered heart in a broken scroll 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one knows how loud it screams
When all you are lives in your dreams 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 2]
I’ve painted skies in midnight tones
Sung lullabies to broken bones
But in the shadows, sometimes I find
A spark that whispers, “You’re still alive” 

The joy I fake, the hope I write
Is how I learn to fight the night
A fragile light behind the veil
A voice that says I will prevail 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one sees the war I wage
Behind the smile I wear onstage 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 3]
It’s hard to stand when silence screams
But I keep building lifeboats from dreams
Some days I write just to survive
Others I sing to feel alive 

My sorrow’s ink, my joy’s disguise
But somewhere deep behind these cries
There’s a fire that won’t die
No matter how much I want to say goodbye 

[Bridge]
So here I am, broken and bold
With songs like scars that never grow old
This voice is cracked, but it’s still mine
A lullaby lost in time 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Sung from the ledge where hope once bled
If I can feel, if I can write
Then maybe I can win this fight

Each chorus pulls me back from fate
Reminds me that it’s not too late
And through the tears I leave behind
I still believe I’ll be fine 

[Outro]
So I write... and I cry
But I don’t say goodbye
My song’s are not done yet
And I’m still alive you bet


Notes from the Edge

This is an acoustic jam of the idea. Original track is here:
https://on.soundcloud.com/7vFx9WxImqCzzUKcQq

Notes
I'm thinking of the mentalists who fascinate me in this tune as well as other things. The idea of neuroplasticity and actually wiring your brain towards a path that offers content feelings by releasing negativity just by intending it or doing the same conversely if that's your frame of mind. There lies Einstein's famous quote, "The most important decision you will make is whether you live in a hostile universe"
We decide how we feel about everything and those decisions are what let them effect our mindset either positively or negatively. I used to look at that quote as having your head in the sand on reality and that maybe thinking like that didn't factor in other people's suffering properly. But I think I get it how he meant it now. No matter what is happening that's not in your control.. You still decide what your mindset is whether it's about a war or a relationship with one other human. They can both profoundly effect you if you let them. But maybe his point is it doesn't matter what the reality is that you are processing, you still chose to manifest it in a positive or negative manner as only you can build your own mindset and only you can control whatever level of connectivity you have with that other human or that war you may be in our not... Both scenarios can suck and be a challenge but the true power is being at peace with what you do control, your own brain...

Derren Browne and Keith Barry are two great mind specialists worth a rabbit hole each.

I don't believe  what they have discovered and teach has to end with enjoying them as entertainment. We can be that if we learn our own versions of what they've found and get that positive for own own beings. It's all about mind set, not magic... It is more control over the universe of neurons we all have inside our skulls. The stuff we can and should learn to control because then we move towards the greater good with common sense


432 A - EADGAD - 96 bpm

Lyrics
One can never know
Ones suffering
It might not show
You might just get a glow & a grin

Brave faces found
We know deep down
Their light flickers sound
Pain as Earth pounds and pounds and pounds and pounds and pounds ...

So give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace for it
Give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace of it

Then it gets hard
Untenable
We disconnect
We end this fake mirrored show
We sleep
We wake
Hands tied
Joints and pills to take
We're trying to feel alive
May we all survive

Oh give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace for it
I'll be your devil drain
Let it out to cease your sore
Lets find peace for more

Give me your Pain

Cumbianaut-Ritmos de verano

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix
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another fictionalive /+/ szalap collab - Shout-out!
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/// the ballad of the golden calf
by fictionalive: re-imagined, written & performed narration
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music you hear = two tracks:
‘lab’ + ‘samples mastered’
written, produced & provided by szalep
courtesy of szalap @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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fictionalive + szalap aka mc fukoff
arrangement & mix
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fusion of it all –
fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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cover art: fictionalive, that’s it
fair use only
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dropped july 21st, 2025
01:01 pm – central european hot summer time / rainy, cool breeze today
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keep shining ✨
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The story of the golden "Kalb"—better known in English as the Golden Calf—is a famous episode from the book of Exodus in the Hebrew Bible. 
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Here’s what happened:
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After Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt and up to Mount Sinai, he went up the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments from God, staying there forty days and nights. 

His long absence caused anxiety among the Israelites at the camp below. Fearing Moses might never return, the people approached his brother Aaron and asked him to make them a new god to lead them.

Aaron told the people to gather all their golden jewelry, which he melted down and fashioned into a golden calf—a symbol likely borrowed from Egyptian religious imagery. 

Aaron then declared that this idol was the god that brought them out of Egypt, built an altar, and proclaimed a festival. 

The Israelites began worshipping the calf, offering sacrifices, feasting, drinking, and dancing around it.

Meanwhile, God informed Moses of the idolatry and threatened to destroy the people for their unfaithfulness. 

Moses pleaded for mercy on their behalf, and God relented from total destruction but promised consequences.

Moses returned to the camp, enraged at the sight of the idolatry. He smashed the stone tablets of the law, burned and ground the golden calf to powder, mixed it with water, and forced the Israelites to drink it. 

Moses then ordered the Levites to punish the ringleaders, resulting in the death of about three thousand people. 
God later sent a plague as further punishment.

The story’s moral is a warning about the dangers of idolatry and turning away from faith, especially at moments of uncertainty. 

It also underscores the necessity of strong leadership and devotion in maintaining spiritual discipline. 

The golden calf remains a potent symbol, often interpreted as a lesson about the perils of faithlessness, materialism, and communal disobedience.

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix


People who hate low traffic neighbourhoods
Drive massive 4x4s because they think that they should
They do all their shopping in retail parks
Dump their Mcdonalds without regard 

They can't walk further than 20 yards
As they waddle back to their massive cars
And they tarmac their front gardens to park                     
Their fleet of motors in a pathetic arc 

Then they claim they want England
To look like it did
Before they wrecked it! 
With my sarcasm on hold
That is pretty bold of them 

They yearn for bobbies on bicycles in pretty towns
Clean streets and friendly communities without a frown
And don't we all want that?
But the rich pay no tax

454. they claim they want england to look like it did (harding).mp3

Monkeys and Robots

Tuning 440
Timing 4/4 (Changed to 2/4 bar 49 this is to cheat the DAW into not stretching midi vs wav then anything else - delay on the beat achieves the actual step up in tempo after the timing change)

Chords // Bm  / G / Em //


JJ Calls

Praying hands
Whatever cause
Once the greater good not lost
Bored children create their fun
We shelve French horn for this fine one
"Nice one lads" We read it all!
Vacation taken
To JJ calls
Neighbour to good Mickey Moore
Find Michigan piano pure

Down the road city of cars
To Howell front deck
Dad and Guitars
We jam that love then tell the world
Love and service human highway knurled
Good bi-product of happiness sought
With Croatian fun to cloud we court

Terrell Terminator in Jungle
Predator for good
Keys like Mr Bungle
Faith in more like we could
He Thanks you
It's lifestyle
Built from a porch
Good collective friend
Keep lighting that torch

Some moments sealed, marked and moulded
Pure intention
Dark blindfolded
Howl from human to Howell good soul
Keyed keystone as collective role

JJ calls
Darkness falls
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
JJ calls

JJ Calls - Session 4

Velvet Groove - BOUKHA Paris

A solitary figure moves through quiet, snow-covered woods at night, drawn in by the beauty and stillness around them. Though tempted to stop and stay, they choose to keep going, guided by distant stars and a sense of purpose. It’s a moment of reflection where hesitation meets resolve, and the journey forward matters more than the comfort of standing still.

Where Stars Have Shone

***IMPORTANT PLEASE READ***
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She finally found a lawyer who can save her case, but she has to raise the fees quickly. This is her last chance for justice.

If you can help — even a little — it would mean the world. And if you can’t donate, sharing the link helps more than you know. 💜🙏

GoFundMe:
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Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read or support. It truly matters. 🫶


Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here. Especially for some of the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course, I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️





Notes from the Edge

VickStiX