This is a collection of powerful songs that confront the shadows of mental health. This thought-provoking playlist delves into the complexities of depression, suicidal thoughts, loneliness, and emotional turmoil.

Featuring haunting melodies and raw, honest lyrics, these songs provide a cathartic outlet for those struggling with inner demons. From the desperation of "Last Resort" to the haunting vulnerability of "Help" and the intense emotional release of "Kill the Noise", each track sheds light on the darkness that often accompanies mental health struggles.

Purpose: To provide a voice for those struggling, foster empathy and understanding, and encourage open conversations about mental health.

Resources: If you're struggling with mental health issues, please reach out to:

- National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK)
- Crisis Text Line (text HOME to 741741)
- Your local mental health resources


*Warning:* This collection addresses sensitive topics; listener discretion is advised.

Sad/Depression/Suicide 😢😭

Buy on iTunes

Goodbye I'm Sorry

Kill The Noise

Buy or Stream

Rad Wings of Destiny

Kill the Pain

Lost

Going Under

Going Under (Remastered 2023)

My Immortal

My Immortal (Remastered 2023)

"Lonely and Scared" is a haunting, introspective ballad probing the shadows of painful relationships. With poignant lyrics and soothing vocals, it confronts the darkness of recurring heartache, questioning destiny and self-worth. The song's narrative delves into the anguish of emotional and physical scars, echoing the longing for answers: "Why does love come with a price?" and "Do I even deserve?" It's a relatable, soul-stirring exploration of vulnerability, resonating with those weary of love's trials, wondering if happiness is within reach.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I feel the echoes of a love that's long gone,
A heart that’s been shattered, just trying to hold on.
From scars on my skin to wounds deep inside,
Every chance that I take, I just seem to collide.
Got me questioning life, all that I’ve known 

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Verse 2]
Each face is a mirror, reflecting my fears,
I’m trapped in this cycle, lost count of the years.
Still haunted by moments of trust that I've lent,
Wondering if love was a path I was meant.
Maybe it’s fate, or maybe it’s me?

[Chorus]
Why does love come with a price that I pay?
When will the darkness just fade into day?
I’m seeking the light, but it ends in a blur,
Lonely and scared, do I even deserve? 

[Outro]
Twenty years later, I’m still on my own.
Love's just a ghost that I've never known.

Lonely and Scared

This is another song inspired by Lynn Carey Saylor, one of my favorite singer/songwriters, and her poignant song "I Wasn't A Friend." 
https://on.soundcloud.com/VfBvk
I draw constant inspiration from her amazing works, and I hope she won't mind! Although I doubt she'll ever hear my songs, her influence on me is undeniable, and I appreciate the creative spark her music and her tweets ignite. 

"The Weight of That Night" is a haunting ballad that tackles the devastating consequences of letting a friend drive drunk. This powerful song weaves a tragic tale of regret, guilt, and longing, recounting the fateful night when silence proved deadly. With poignant lyrics and soaring vocals, it explores the anguish of "what ifs" and the weight of unanswered questions, serving as a stark reminder of the irreversible harm caused by one moment's hesitation. This heartfelt warning urges listeners to speak up and take action, honoring the memory of loved ones lost.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1:]
We laughed and joked, as the night wore on
Never thinking, the consequences would be so wrong
You got behind the wheel, I didn't say a word
Now the silence screams, and I'm forever scarred 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Verse 2:]
We swerved off course, on that fatal ride
I see the crash, in my mind's eye
Your smile fades fast, as the lights go low
My screams echo, in the darkness that grows 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Bridge:]
What ifs haunt me, through the endless night
A thousand regrets, a single, fatal sight
One decision, one moment's hesitation
Could've changed the course, of that deadly destination 

[Chorus:]
Oh, the guilt I bear, the weight I hold
For letting you drive, into the cold
I should've spoken up, I should've been bold
Now you're gone, and I'm left to unfold 

[Outro:]
Your memory stays, a constant pain
A reminder of the price I couldn't contain
I'll carry this weight, for all my days
A lesson learned, in the most tragic way.


The Weight Of That Night

I've written festive, feel-good, sad, sexy, funky, dysfunctional, and fun Christmas songs, so now I wanted to tackle a different kind of Christmas tune. Imagine if Evanescence were to make a Christmas song. I have a feeling it might sound a little something like this.

'Dark December' is a raw and honest reflection of the pain and loneliness that can often accompany the holiday season. It's a song for those who struggle to find joy amidst the twinkling lights and cheerful carols. If you've ever felt like you're drowning in a sea of seasonal cheer, while secretly struggling with sadness and isolation, know that you're not alone. This song is for you, and I hope it brings some comfort in knowing that you're not the only one feeling this way.



LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Frosted glass covers my soul
Shadows whisper tales untold
Silent night ain't silent now
Why won't peace find me somehow 

[Chorus]
Dark December in my head
Fading lights they fill with dread
Bitter snow and frozen tears
Lonely nights with deepest fears 

[Verse 2]
Echoes linger in the air
Wreaths of pine but none to share
Candles flicker life in gray
Christmas lost in disarray 

[Chorus]
Dark December in my head
Fading lights they fill with dread
Bitter snow and frozen tears
Lonely nights with deepest fears 

[Bridge]
Wish upon a broken star
Hollow wishes not too far
Crimson sky and icy ground
Silent screams the only sound 

[Chorus]
Dark December in my head
Fading lights they fill with dread
Bitter snow and frozen tears
Lonely nights with deepest fears

[Bridge]
Wish upon a broken star
Hollow wishes not too far
Crimson sky and icy ground
Silent screams the only sound 

[Chorus]
Dark December in my head
Fading lights they fill with dread
Bitter snow and frozen tears
Lonely nights with deepest fears


Dark December

This song is a haunting and intense exploration of the devastating consequences of betrayal, deception, and heartbreak, weaving a dark narrative of shattered love, broken trust, and the crippling pain of being lied to by the one you love. With eerie imagery and emotional intensity, the song delves into the anguish of discovering a lover's deceit, the suffocating weight of faithless whispers, and the desperate struggle to escape the void of a broken heart.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Whispers in the dark again
Lies dripping from your grin
Broken mirrors show your sin
Shattered love where do I begin

[Verse 2]
Footsteps in a haunted hall
Echoes of a lover’s fall
Truths I never heard at all
Heartbeats turn to ghostly calls

[Chorus]
You’re a traitor of shadows and dreams
Silent screams tearing at the seams
Faithless whispers rip me apart
Falling into the void of your heart

[Verse 3]
Empty words in a hollow night
Promises turn into fright
Cold deceit no hope in sight
Lost in the never-ending fight

[Bridge]
Candles flicker ghosts arise
Drowning in a sea of lies
Faded dawns and poison skies
Seeing through your dead disguise

[Chorus]
You’re a traitor of shadows and dreams
Silent screams tearing at the seams
Faithless whispers rip me apart
Falling into the void of your heart


Traitor of Shadows

Step into the dark and seductive world of this haunting song, where the allure of the strip club meets the despair of lost souls. With its driving beats and soaring vocals, this track delves into the complex and often tragic lives of strippers, trapped in a cycle of objectification and exploitation. The song's intense and atmospheric soundscapes evoke the flashing lights and pulsating rhythms of the club, while the lyrics expose the painful truths and shattered dreams that lie beneath the surface.


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Dark nights
Strobe light
Bodies twirl
Pain ignites
Whispers haunt
Shadows call
Sinful dance
Endless fall

[Chorus]
Dollar bills
Lost souls
Strip away
Dark control
Haunting beats
Scream aloud
Fallen grace
Heads bowed

[Verse 2]
Neon gleam
Broken dreams
Silken flesh
Silent screams
Gothic charm
Harsh command
Twisted fate
Blood-soaked hands

[Bridge]
Veil of night
Tears and lies
Witch’s chant
Heaven dies
Glitch beats
Heart shatters
Eternal night
Nothing matters

[Chorus]
Dollar bills
Lost souls
Strip away
Dark control
Haunting beats
Scream aloud
Fallen grace
Heads bowed

[Verse 3]
Cyber pulse
Cold embrace
Merciless
Spectral face
Dub bass
Synched despair
Empty eyes
Blank stare

Lost Souls

Hybrid Theory

One Step Closer

In the End

Automatic For The People

Everybody Hurts

Unstoppable

Meteora

Numb

Time Capsule

War of the Angels

The Best of Nickelback, Vol. 1

Lullaby

20/20

Last Resort (2020)

Scars (2020)

Songwriting has been a lifelong passion for me, dating back to elementary school when I first began crafting stories, poems, and eventually lyrics. As a former drummer in various bands, I always relied on others to bring my words to life musically. However, after a long hiatus from drumming, I decided to take the leap and learn to compose music to accompany my lyrics. Through classes and dedication, I've embarked on a new journey, breathing fresh life into old lyrics and penning new ones. You'll find a mix of older and newer works here, for the lyrics. 

Music has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being completely entranced by 'The Little Drummer Boy' as a very young child. There was something about the rhythm and the melody that just captivated me. I must have played it a thousand times, wearing the record out, and from that moment on, I was hooked. I knew I wanted to be a drummer, and to create that magic for others. 

But I was too young then, and of course I couldn't afford a drum set just yet. So, I turned to writing as a way to express myself. As I mentioned above, I started with stories, then poems, and eventually, lyrics. I found that writing was not only a way to tap into my creativity, but also a way to process my emotions and experiences. 

As I grew older, my love for music only deepened. I realized that music has this incredible power to transport us to different times and places, to evoke emotions and memories that we thought were long forgotten. It's a universal language that can bring people together like nothing else can. 

For me, writing lyrics is a cathartic experience. It's a way for me to tap into my emotions, to process the world around me, and to create something that I hope will resonate with others. And when I hear my words come to life in a song, it's truly magical. It's a feeling that never gets old, and it's what keeps me coming back to music time and time again. 

I love many genres of music and artists of many genres. And if you listen to some of my songs, you will find that I like to make songs of different genres as well as mix different genres into each song. One of my all-time favorite bands is Evanescence, and I have made a lot of songs where I have tried my best to emulate that sound. 

Now, I have recently started experimenting with new sounds. I never heard of glitch beats before I took music classes, and now I'm fascinated with the sound, so I have been experimenting with glitch beats recently. 

I hope you enjoy some of my songs. And thanks so much to everyone who has been listening so far. I truly appreciate it. I welcome constructive feedback to help me grow as an artist, and I appreciate your support. ❤️

Sad/Depression/Suicide 😢😭

VickStiX