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down bad ft @staggyucrazy
prod @01kon ♥ 

lyrics:
And I'm not really one for all the talking
Think that I should try before I knock it
You don't realize that I’ve been cautious
Thinking bout your eyes just got me nauseous

Lately I don't care about what they’re saying
Do you realize that i've been waiting
Know I want you bad but i've been patient
Waited for a text but then the day went

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

Lately I don't care about what they’re saying
Do you realize that i've been waiting
Know I want you bad but i've been patient
Waited for a text but then the day went

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

Don't you worry about me I know they're laced
Watch the makeup run right down your face
This a 1 way street I cut my brakes
This the last time you gon come my way

Cant sleep now I'm so restless
Living everyday so fast so reckless
Guess I should've taken this one as a lesson
Mean girls keep silent no wesson

You would never even know that its us
So far just to trip and then I'm stuck in the dust
So hard it dont matter there aint nun to discuss
Low bar but aint nothing getting lower than us

(so sad baby nothing getting lower than us)

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

And I'll never be enough
I been trying to tell you
But I'm feeling hella stuck
I've been trying to tell you
You're the one I'm thinking of
Like I dont want to but I might give up

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind

down bad! ft staggy (01kon)

my favorite least favorite song w/ keepsake

@55depths
@aurasrevenge
@giabellee

do you remember? 
i started to again.

prod. and mixed by me
thx alex and gia<3
video: https://youtu.be/JT3Tf9qXyrQ

lyrics:
(dth)
like salt in a wound
i've been all consumed
i've wasted my time
i've wasted a life
and with nothing to prove
just a burden to you
is this goodbye?
is it goodbye?

(aura)
ripping out the poem that i wrote for you out of your hand
it hurts seeing u with another man
looking a fool wasn't destined inside of my plan
i don't think i'll ever get out of the sand

but i always knew i wasn't enough 
yeah i hate myself just enough for the both of us
now im confused,
because this is goodbye, but you're someone i don't wanna lose

(dth)
am i fool for keeping notes
back from when you wrote me?
sleeping soundly on the bedroom floor
i fucked things up for sure
(is it goodbye?)
(is this goodbye?)

like salt in a wound
i've been all consumed
i've wasted my time
i've wasted a life
and with nothing to prove
just a burden to you
is this goodbye?
is it goodbye?
like salt in a wound
i've been all consumed
i've wasted my time
i've wasted a life
and with nothing to prove
just a burden to you
is this goodbye?
is it goodbye?

getting closure
i wanna take it back
i know you're hurting deep inside
and i'm the cause of that
i gotta know for sure
i need to see your face
maybe things were never really
at the time or place

(outro)
i wish i met you now
because i still think back to those nights
and how we hated saying goodbye
i just wish we could start fresh
but i wasn't the person i could have been for you
and you had to leave
sometimes we still meet
but only in dreams

is this goodbye? w/ killaura and giabelle

ft @ploua <3
mix by me and ploua, master by me 
coverart from @claudesdiary shoutout percy and ginny <3

vocals 4 sillyness vvvv
https://soundcloud.com/tunatunatunatuna/im-a-bad-person-but-so-r-u-145-ebmaj-vocals/s-GkPGqorc88k?si=14dae48fd8b949e8a358d1fb43275fef&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics ~

and i know you dont wanna see me
hate for myself and its stacked to the cieling
the love u had for me was so unappealing 
that being said i still kinda miss having someone by my side
even if its not u thats with me for the ride
cuz i just miss the dopamine with being in love 
and Im one shot away from saying that i love u 
I dont really love anything that u had to bring for me  
u can say anything ill hate anything that u have
best interest at heart did not mean to make u mad
im sorry i shattered every feeling that u had

i know sometimes i wont be there for you
just hit me back i only need a day i swear
your loves too much and know that it just dont feel fair
just say the word and know that ill be out of your hair

so ill hold my breathe till i get a text from u
waiting this whole time to get the best of u
after all you said still cant think any less of u 
hold my head up this isnt anything new
this whole time know im  feeling bad
i wipe my tears and pull back my hair
ive been tryna move on w/o u life aint fair
i was so damn wrong bout u back to square 1

my mind is already lost again
but ill tell u twice
ill find my way back home
dont need to tell me ur lies
ur tryna get in my mind
dont need to tell u twice
all i need to do is get u out of my life

im a bad person but so r u feat ploua prod iof x used beats

produced + mastered by @xona

leave me be
i’m just another hologram in your life (x4)

cutting off the stalk
check the time, don’t forget to set back all the clocks
cuz i’m invisible -
to you, won’t see it coming, why i pity you

every second of my life is in 2D
and you could cover me up with some looseleaf
these fuckers always tryna take my pride away
go check the time and date
just like a feather, you’ll float away
this bitch step on my pedestal
now i see it different, and i really think i’m dead to you
watch when all the tables turn over
still fucked up by the state of you,
turn your body over

peel my skin off
and watch my flesh decay
decay
watch me burn and i’ll watch you burn too
this broken mirror won’t work
-
leave me be
i’m just another hologram in your life (x4)

spotify

hologram

produced by michael harrison & ayoley

i’m coming back to my home
but as i open the car door
i get a taste of bittersweetness in the air
never faced a challenge that was so deep inside my bones
that would lock my whole world away in a small, glass, dome 
you didn’t see it, and i didn’t too 
it’s been hidden in my brain until we split in two
but the cause was never you
i’ve known about this my whole life, i wasn’t ready to own up to the truth
because i knew it would break me and you apart
but it doesn’t really matter now
learning to stay afloat in the dark

i push the painkillers off my drawer
laying limp to the sound of tears
wishing i never came out of my shell
make an appointment for death next year
when i’m gone
don’t bother asking around
but i’ll be with you in the clouds

don’t speak, pay attention when i sleep right now
i’m just hidden in the trees
somewhere, where you never come around

i’m coming back to my home
but as i open the car door
i get a taste of bittersweetness in the air
never faced a challenge that was so deep inside my bones
that would lock my whole world away in a small, glass, dome 
you didn’t see it, and i didn’t too 
it’s been hidden in my brain until we split in two
but the cause was never you
i’ve known about this my whole life, i wasn’t ready to own up to the truth
because i knew it would break me and you apart
but it doesn’t really matter now
learning to stay afloat in the dark

bittersweet

produced by plantcham

(there’s no fit uh-uh, no fit uh-uh x4)

the sun dried all the pores on my face
but it’s not summertime
we’re near the end of the race

breathe in
seethe your chest in the water

if you see what i see, don’t reap what i sow
i’ve been through it all, got a lot of pages left to show
seems like this past year i can’t get a break
it’s blasphemous to my inner state
i’m crashing, not to be saved
i focus on what’s right but still stuck in this core debate
playing every card in line but got jammed, guess i lost an ace
you should see my face
i’m feeling burnt out, not one’s true to chase
i got a pokerface
just waiting my turn, for the lights to stray

for the lights to stray
i’m beat down, when i come back it’s my way only
i see a glimpse of light in the corner of the hallways i used to sit and cry in

fading like we’re used to
i can see a difference in your smile and your truthfulness to me 
just save it for the bees, and pass the time on concrete

keeping track of all my movements on the channel row
i used to seek a different cure, but i’m the antidote
when you fall, don’t single me out to blame
i’ll put you right in your place
to see the image with space
so am i target now? a fraud, what may i be?
you couldn’t recall a time or place where i felt safe in my own feet
i go to a doctor now, a roundabout where i can see
all of my problems now written on a chalkboard
helps me to restart

for the lights to stray
i’m beat down, when i come back it’s my way only
i see a glimpse of light in the corner of the hallways i used to sit and cry in

fading like we’re used to
i can see a difference in your smile and your truthfulness to me 
just save it for the bees, and pass the time on concrete

pokerface

pacifist (intro)

lyrics:

That's a neck
On the porch 'till I hop off the deck
Baby, I ain't gone use you for sex
Got a check moving pounds in the Czech
(What?)
I split a purple pill with my girl like D12
Snapped Achilles, now both your knees swell
Stomp his face until he got that feet smell
She gone tell you how I fucked in detail

(Foot on necks)
(Webster bank, I just cashed my check)
(I don't sleep, I don't need no rest)
(Foot on necks)

Mixing the compounds in the cup, I might throw in a xanny for special effects
It's been a long time, but I think you remember the last time you made me upset
Only good with these songs, I ain't gone cap, I ain't talking computers when I talk Hi-Tech
Boy, I came from a long line of some killers, And they ain't gonna spare you they ringing your neck
That's a neck
On the porch 'till I hop off the deck
Baby, I ain't gone use you for sex
Got a check moving pounds in the Czech
(What?)
I split a purple pill with my girl like D12
Snapped Achilles, now both your knees swell
Stomp his face until he got that feet smell
She gone tell you how I fucked in detail
(And that shit was graphic oh my god she let me fuck)
Buck, Buck, Bucks
And that shit dirty as fuck
Still not as dirty as what's in my cup
Throwing up, that's when I take too much
Blowing up whenever sloan gone come
(This is sloan shoutout Connecticut)
(Shoutout Connecticut)
Boy I'm up with your bitch and she getting it
She come back cause I fuck her with etiquette 
Hit her with every one of the SEVEN SINS
Take PRIDE in the way that I fuck from the back
LUST in her eyes when I'm pulling her tracks
Said to hit again I need to take her to saks
GREEDdy bitch I had to cut contact
Got a new bitch, now she ENVY me
Start the party I'm the MVP
Got BACARDI got the HENNESSY
Can't let ANGER get the best of me
So I'm fucking her friends
Damn, lil baby I told you I'm playin'
Thought you knew that I'm only your man
Where you going? This ain't part of the plan
Damn
Damn
Hope you know I still hit it on cam
And you got me if you in a jam
Said "If you leave I'm letting it blam"
Blam

Mixing the compounds in the cup, I might throw in a xanny for special effects
It's been a long time, but I think you remember the last time you made me upset
Only good with these songs, I ain't gone cap, I ain't talking computers when I talk Hi-Tech
Boy, I came from a long line of some killers, And they ain't gonna spare you they ringing your neck
That's a neck
On the porch 'till I hop off the deck
Baby, I ain't gone use you for sex
Got a check moving pounds in the Czech
(What?)
I split a purple pill with my girl like D12
Snapped Achilles, now both your knees swell
Stomp his face until he got that feet smell
She gone tell you how I fucked in detail

dirty (jxyln)

produced by michael harrison and aidan han

i feel all grown up, i'm only 18
all the pressure lays in my hands
karma always comes to break me
right there, took a chance then ran

same road now we're all worried about
that's just the potent saying in this town
theres only one shot you get in this life
(so make it count)

carve your name in stone
the rosemary's blocking the door
the only place i knew as home
grew apart, like the wings i soared (with)
day by day i grow older
leaving my troubled past aside
oh, how i hate it
living adult life
no more bright days when i don't try
-
don't know which cards to place
i'm back here, stuck in the middle

growth rate

𝘪𝘮𝘢 𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦
additional production by me
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Q2ggA8q5zizowN7b2AJat?si=_dkJHWDjSz6JXoDPz9XwNw
visualizer: https://youtu.be/ELC3oCwdewU

(I’ma say sorry then I do again)
(I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends)
(Now you live in my head, now I play pretend)
(I don’t wanna die, but I think about it)
(Swear I wanna die when I think about it)
(Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded)
(And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded)

You’ve been outta touch for a minute, I know
You been outta reach, you’ve been trying to grow
And it’s hard to breathe when you think about it
Hard to say sorry when it don’t mean shit

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

hologram

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