you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

BURNING IN THE DANGERS OF THE LIFE I WANTTTTT

hope u guys like this one, put a lot of emotion into it

HUGE shoutout to @b_murph for the fucking amazing feature ily dawggg

lyrics:

(oh, ohhhh)

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

one step too close to the edge
now im falling back down, yeah
im falling in love again
but you're not from the motherland
im in love with a motherfucking demon

i hide the cuts on my wrist, promise im just tryna feel sum (something)
she said that she loves me but she said she never feels nun (nothing)
i hide all my pain with tequila and some white rum
the closer that we get the more i just wanna run

so tell me your intentions before i give me all to you
cause i dont wanna lose you, like i always fucking do

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

angel w/ bmurph [prod. branwen]

VIDEO OUT NOW: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tL3xuo6fCHY

prod @2hischooldropout

i took you up to the stars
cause when it gets dark
you the only one that shines at night
swear you're always on my mind
that girl be my ride or die
hey lil baby wyd tonight?
smoke in the air ~ we just don't care

that girl be my ride or die
hey lil baby wyd tonight? (tonight, tonight)
that girl be my ride or die
swear lil baby yeah you're doing just fine

tonight tonight x4

yeah you know i been ready for this
i am so ill don't get sick
i saw this when i was 6
know that we don't fit the picture
but it's okay to exist
in my selfless state of mind
& my head is a butterfly

TONIGHT.

TONIGHT. (prod. hischooldropout)

Guitar by Kazba
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
Somehow can’t believe I let you take this from me
Cut down on my own
But I won’t concede
I’m better off now
Believe it or not
I can be who I want without you

You made me hate who I was
Yeah I felt bad about it
For the first time in my life
Visions clouded by doubt
How will I make it now
After losing you
In a world so cruel

(decks)
I said I'd make it back
Two hundred foot collapse
You’ll never get it
When I left I thought we’d stay intact
But if it breathes on its own
Could you see what you know
Its a breeze from your home
I remember
To forgive is an art
And I don’t care for your heart
That's why the ties we had made are severed
I see your losses are sore
Bleeding out on the floor
And I'm okay
No it wasn’t forever

Listen on Spotify!

Believe It (or Not) w/ decks [Prod. w/ Kazba]

*dont know who made the beat so soundcloud exclusive*

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns 

Sometimes I watch the sunrise 
Mostly I been getting high for the whole night 
And I know that Im the only one that’s still holding on 
If I called it love baby would you call me wrong 
I can’t control it 
That life’s a roller coaster 
And I’m afraid of falling 
no one to stop it from hurting at all 

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns 

Spent my whole life waiting
Feel like its been ages
Driving myself crazy
Filling empty spaces
Looking for solutions 
Filling up the pages
If only I didn’t have heavy ties
Binding them in place
In my diary of Jane 
I will try to find my place 
The thorns around her vines 
Are wrapped around my spine 

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns

roses have thorns

philippineCoast (+rubbish)

i wont ever go outside again
shaky pls don’t look at me again
what’s the point i’ll never have a friend
it’s so fucked up that i’m sick again
i’m sick again

shaking breathing nothing makes sense
why the hell do i wanna die again
do i wanna call you and make amends
why am i sick again
why am i sick again

congestion really gets to my brain
you don’t know half of my pain
haven’t slept right in three days
i don’t know why i’m up till eight
sick of staring at this blade
sick of constant lust for change
why do i feel this way

the sick song

Chine - under my bed *freestyle

First single off "The Same Color As Fall" hope you enjoy!!!!

TONIGHT. (prod. hischooldropout)

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