Lyrics:

I looked up my symptoms
It said I was dying but I don’t know
If I trust google
More than my doctor, he’s official

Medical Certificate
Framed and hung on the wall
It shows that you made it
It shows that you made it

But what do I have to show?
For all of these half-filled shows
I can’t tell them apart
It’s tearing me apart

But what do I have to show
For all of these half-filled shows
I don’t want to give up
I don’t know where to go
anymore

Ever since I ghosted my therapist
I’ve been looking up my diagnosis
To see if my symptoms persist
I might consider hypnosis

You can say I’m crazy
You can say I’m rude
But I don’t care,
Have you got some food?

Coz I smoked the biggest blunt
Out the back
The biggest blunt I’ve ever seen

Now I can’t make no eye contact
If you see my cry, it’s a panic attack
Saw your face in a crowded room
But I didn’t have the courage, didn’t have the courage 

To talk to you, can we walk outside?
It’s really loud in here
And I’m sorry, for being a bitch
But I don’t deserve the fear I feel

Every time I see your face
Every time I see my old friends

I don’t know, if they know me anymore

And I’m stealing chords from ppl i hate
and I’m stealing lines from people I like
and I’m starting to learn that people that hurt me
Don’t deserve to have my company 

And I am safe, and I’ll get better
Everyday is an uphill battle
I don’t know where I’ll be tomorrow
I just know I’ll be here today

google is my therapist

just fucking around on garageband for the first time in my life lmao

Lyrics:
Outside, I heard a noise I saw the light
I asked you to come back inside
No need to hide, I’m by your side

I breathe in, count to four,
feels like we’ve been here before
hold for seven and out in eight
you never liked to meditate
My mental health declining fast
Don’t know how to make this last
Ignore my friends, ignore my past
Ignore the calls from mom and dad

Coz it’s all the same
Or am I going insane now
Coz It’s all the same

Alice's Album

outside demo version 1 (iphone)

Lyrics:
I can’t lie, but I don’t know if I can tell the truth
When I wake up, I just want to go back to sleep
But I don’t, coz I know, I just need to do the 
things i need to do for myself

I make my bed, brush my teeth, say hi to my cat
She kept me up all night long, slapping my head
It’s her love language, I’m not mad, it’s okay
I’ll just poke her when she tries to sleep today

Yeah I’m a piece of shit, what of it, I don’t care

They say music pays,
Got nothing to show for
Spent my time inside, hiding, lying on the floor
Wishing I was dead
but I guess I’ll do this instead
I gotta go and get that bread

They say music pays,
Just want something to live for

To live for
to live for
so i can leave this floor

2day (draft unmixed)

SPOTIFY ANNOUNCEMENT

Who u gonna call?

Lyrics and chords:
Capo 3
Am        
E       
F       Fm   
C       E

Hey
Would it be okay
If i just stood next to you
And didn’t say a word
It’s alright,
All is fine
I just can’t figure out
How to get these words right

When you ask me
What I’ve been up to
lately
It’s all so hazy x2

Maybe I’ve been 
wasting my time
Working so hard
Yet falling behind x2

F.     Fm.   
I’m not a bot
That’s just a thought
I got

C.   E.   
Am.  F. 

I would if i could
But I can’t so I won’t x 3

So I won’t 
Say anything
Coz everything sounds embarrassing 
When i try to write or sing
And i could 
Try more
Give it all my attention
So i can finally cut the tension

I would if i could
Well i can, so i will

Saul Goodman

I Think There’s A Ghost in Your Head

Dead in my head
I don’t ever wanna feel again
Oh no

Can’t sleep lately
God knows that I’ve tried
No hope

Can’t think properly
Or speak with our tongues tied
Go slow

You pushed too hard
But I don’t wanna let it go
Explode / Let go

Had a dream we were friends
Until I pushed you away
I can’t take your hits
Mould myself into a better shape
… Loose lips sink ships
That’s what they always say
It’ll never happen anyway
And I don’t wanna feel again

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Ba da da
Ba ba
Ba da dada da

Tongue

Gentle touch across
My rough skin
I'm made of spikes
But you let yourself in
Can I offer a hug
You are my medicine
I can't get enough
Of you, you're healing

All of my wounds
They fade with the seasons
The leaves die out
Like the skin we're shedding
I wish you were closer
If I move I might die
A hedgehog's dilemma
Won't you stay for awhile

All curled up but it's never enough
The space between is far too much
And we stay cold until we’re close enough
Afraid to get hurt but what's one more scar?

Turn to face you and your bright eyes
You feel so warm when we collide
All my fears seem to subside
And I could melt to your mirage
Tangled legs like sprawling roots
How good it feels pressed close to you
Skin on skin to keep us glued
With all the things that we could do

A still-life painting in your room
We could try but what's the use
Sunflower stems our limbs let loose
If I'm alive this is the proof

The Hedgehog (and the Sunflower)

I don't wanna wake up
Guess I'll never sleep instead
Taking off my makeup
Running down my head (face) again

How do I know if I'm all right
When do i finally feel alive

Maybe it's the way you call my name
Nothing ever sounds the same
Maybe it's the way you hold my hand
They'd probably never understand

How do i know if i'm all right
When do i finally alive
Hours flying by, always running out of time
When do i get to be alive

You don't want to be alone
And I'm the one you call upon
I don't want to be alone
It's hard when you're the one I want

Everything's a headache
And I can't stand the thought of us
Everything's a headache now
And I can't stand the thought of us

When do I get to be alive

Headache

I fell deep into the bitter sea
Felt so cold, yeah my body went weak
Red alert you say you wanna see me
Got so high till I couldn't think straight
Heart palpitations sweat perspiring
Head gone numb and I couldn't breathe
Party fell dead now you wanna speak
Saw your face now I wanna leave, sorry

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Hate this, you make me feel useless
I'm not gonna be the one that breaks first

Curse this scene, get me out of here
Too cliche for the hell of it, maybe
The writers just wanna, embarrass me, probably
Script might change, but I wanna quit, way too
… Naive, for my own good, so what now?
Surreptitious and ineloquent
No cares left, think I'm ready to throw up
… Gotta dig a way outta this hole I dug

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Fuck that, don't tell me you love me
I don't need false hope to believe in

I don't wanna be the one that breaks first

Bitter

Spiderman Stickers (Studio)

the things we used to talk about
well they've all been talked about
we're tracing steps only to end up 
right where we started

i'll light a match
to burn it all down
i hope the fire takes
me as well

we've come so far
just to give up now
I at least thought
that this was real

you and i play cards to pass the time
and family dinner's spent in silence

we speak soft to save our breath
and sleep like logs on our motel bed

we've come so far
just to give up now
I at least thought		
that this was real

i'll light a match
to burn it all down
i hope the fire takes
me as well

sad songs for sad people

I know Heathrow Airport is in London but no one's stopping you from going there too :)

Have Fun In France

In which I butcher some of my favorite songs because I fucked up my fingers

I got stains on my fingers and i don’t know how long they’ll linger there
And I’ll scrub, and pray that they’ll all go away
Like everything goes away, why can’t you just stay with me today?

I got stains on my fingers and I don’t know how long they’ll linger there
Reminding me that I fucked up again and I should never dare to be
Anything that I’m not.

I got stains on my fingers and I don’t know how long they’ll linger there
And I’d rather chop ‘em off than to let you ever see them bare
Cause they all lead to the smoke, I exhale into the air

And I woke up hating myself, like I did so much yesterday
And I woke up hating myself, trying to think of anything i could say 
Oh can’t you stay, just little bit longer? I’m not sure but I’ll try to be stronger.
Oh can’t you stay, just a little while longer, I just don’t want this day to be over.

When I am sad oh I am sad, but when I’m happy I am happy and there’s just no place in between for us to be ( Flashlight - The Front Bottoms)
When you’re sad, oh god I’m sad, but when you’re happy I am happy, and there’s just no place in between for us to be
And I "steal all my lines from this guy named Brian”, (Bottom - Mccafferty) yet I stole that one from this guy named Nick
And I feel like a dick cause I can see me slowly dying

I’m not doing anything, about it. Scrub my fingers and try to hide it
I’m not doing anything, about it. Will I keep a promise? I doubt it.


Nicotine Stains

Feeling the cold, slowly seep into me
You’re drunk and I’m stoned, the rest is history
And the moon is up again, my oldest friend
Keeping us company on the road to the golden M.

And it knows my long walks home at midnight.
It might be cold but it’ll be alright

So if I called you again, would you pick up?
I won’t play the lottery coz I guess I’m out of luck
And I don’t think that Joe really gives a fuck
Cause he pissed on that tree and now he left his mark

And he knows my long walks home at midnight


Maccas Run

CALLED YOU AT MIDNIGHT
DIDN'T THINK YOU'D STILL BE AWAKE
I'M LIKE THAT SOMETIMES
I'M DESTINED FOR FAILURE

ONE DAY I'LL FIND YOU (AGAIN)
AND I WILL APOLOGISE
FOR FUCKING UP BADLY
FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE

AND SOMETIMES
I THINK I (PASS YOU ON THE STREET) 	  
AM PASSING YOU ON THE STREET
BUT MOST NIGHTS 
I REALISE
I'M JUST HIGH AND LONELY

you're busy working
and i'm busy being up late.
i need better timing
and a far better place

your hands they were shaking
the first night we smoked it
i'll never forget, the fear
yet the love in your eyes

AND SOMETIMES
I THINK I'M
A BETTER PERSON
BUT I'M EVEN 
LESS THAN 
I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL

i thought i saw you once.

Shitty songs because of shitty weathers

Lyrics:
Rolling papers, nothing on tonight
Keep on rolling, hopin’ everything’s alright
I hear them coming, I turn off the light’
I hear them coming, I just fill my cup
‘Cause I’m not waking up, don’t mean I’m giving up
I just want more of these dreams I can’t seem to get enough

Now she’s waiting in my room, (I’m hoping it’s not a mess)
Everything is going well, (she’s gonna take off her dress)
And a little note peaks her interest
She asks “hey where did you find that?”
I say “It’s a secret, let’s just leave it at that.”
Well, she likes a little mystery
But she won’t want my history
So just lie with me, we’ll wait for the sun to set
Listen to Mccafferty, and think about where our lives could be 
In a year from now, or 18 months from now
Cause she says “18 months is better for planning. Cause a year is too short, but 3 years is too long. 18 months? Well, 18 months is perfect, because it’s just in the sweet spot to make plans, and be more realistic about them. You know?” And I say “Yep… Realism is totally my thing..”

So pinch me cause I think I’m finally happy
I found someone to dream along with me
So pinch me cause I think I’m finally happy
I knew our love was too good to be

18 Months

Yeah... Timezones

On the coldest night of summer time, I wrote the words, 'will you be mine?' I couldn’t see a thing, the sky the darkest it had ever been. There was no moon, there were no stars, but I still memorized, the constellations in your eyes. The constant shaking of my voice keeps me inside, keeps me silent (coz)I hate the way I talk, so I drink and so smoke.
Til I forget, the things we said, the day we met and the way we spent, and I’ll regret, the smoke on my breath, when our lips meet. I can’t keep doing this. Now I’m in bed, quietly coughing into my pillow so you don’t wake up.
I’m sorry, if you did.

I’ll find the time, I promise this, of all the things, it's your voice I miss.
In these cold nights, where there’s no moon, I’ll look at the sky, hope I'll see you soon.
We’re running without direction, it’s useless but that’s what living feels like. 

Quietly Coughing, so you don’t wake up.
Constantly shaking, so afraid to lose you but,
Seeing you smiling, feels like the only thing my eyes are good for
Silently while walking you home, I’ll hope this road never ends I’ll hope this road never-

Quietly Coughing

(possibly inaccurate)

you assured me i was fine
said 'there is nothing WRONG with you'
stay in bed all day, and night
haven't slept in a week or five.

got a call from an unknown number
turning off my phone, avoiding the world
it's a shame the world can't avoid me.
and you for one shouldn't have to comfort me.
x

always so scared of the outside
am i walking alright?
am i smiling and talking normally?
teach me how to be human once more.

turning 20-something
never growing up, just growing older
you don't deserve this you don't deserve this.
i can do better. you can do better.
x

i'm trying my best here
and i know it's not much
it shouldn't be this hard 
but i'm fucking up at every corner
and every single time i falter

you don't deserve this
you can do better

I already know I can't sing (tell me something different; no capo)

I saw stan lee in a subaru,
It made me think of you,
Made me think of you.
I said ‘Hurry, you don’t want to miss this
Coz he’s driving to the distance, 
And the red light won’t stay red’

And if it’s a cameo-oh
You’d be the hero

But I’m pretty sure it’s not Stan Lee
Coz why the hell would he be in Glen Waverley
And I don’t think he’d drive a subaru,
Though I don’t know cars, maybe I should ask you

You said “Stan Lee? In a subaru?
What’s up with you?” “What’s up with you?”
“Why would he be in Australia?
 drive a subaru, on the road with the likes of you?”
STAN LEE, IN A SUBARU??
MAYBE HE IS HERE TO SEE A KANGAROO

I saw some guy that looks like Stan Lee in a Subaru

With every morning, I try to fight the clock to fight time
Never mind the sun, the tram can wait for me for once.
I’ll be late to work, and I’ll curse myself for staying up late
I’ll promise I’ll sleep at eight this time around.
But I don’t have you to wake up,
No more good mornings, no more smiling coffee cup.
There’s nothing to see so I’ll keep my eyes shut
All the way to work,.

So now I’m living like a shadow, that you left behind
So now I’m living like a shadow, of what you wanted me to be
So now I’m living like a shadow, that you left behind
Feels like I’m drowning in the shallows, can’t tell if I’m alive, or just a ghost from your- 

And my bed still smells like your messy hair when I wake up feels like you’re still there
In my mind, I find, well this curse is mine, I lost you to time, I always lose to time

So now I’m living like a shadow, that you left behind
So now I’m living like the shadow of a man who thought he could make everything last
So now I’m living like a shadow, that you left behind
Feels like I’m drowning in the shallows, can’t tell if I’m alive, or just a ghost from your past.

Shadow

Let’s sing until our throats get numb and I don’t think this party is dumb,
but if I were to host it I’d pick something better than 
Listening to pop hits of last weeks that sound the same as last years
But let’s raise our glasses, to the birthday kid and say
“It’s alright, it’s okay, happy birthday”
 
Am I getting cocky? I should enjoy this fucking party
But things are looking grim, and someone just passed out in the backyard
I just want to leave and take you with me, 
If we leave early we can catch the train out of the city
“You can touch on, and touch off, with my myki
If I get a fine, that’s fine, that’s fine by/with me”

Another Party Song

Lyrics:
The way you sang along to Covered In Chrome in the back seat, such a simple thing. I realised I couldn't be alone. It's a long way to Apollo Bay. If you keep singing like this I think I might like this too much. It's a bit too much. I think too much about the songs on your playlists. What does it say? What does it mean? What should I do when you lean in?

In the ocean, there's a blue raft. Another lesson you're probably you're good at. Listen I'm dying to tell you "Oh and btw I'm getting a tattoo of a SSB line that never left my mind." Have it on my skin to remind me.

There's beers if you want them. In the back seat you can have anything you want. ;) You can have my beers. You can have my ciders. You can have my lips anywhere you like. It's a long way to Apollo Bay. We are stuck here, so we might as well play American Beauty on my laptop, but the real beauty is right outside.  (damn it how does it go?)

In  the ocean there's a blue raft. Another lesson you're probably good at. I am on it, with boots of concrete. But lately I couldn't feel my feet. Swept me off, slowly, when we sang along to McCafferty. Swept me off, slowly, when we sang along to Foley!

So I'll hold you close. As close as you're comfortable. And I'll be your seat belt so you don't end up in the hospital. 'Cause I'm not afraid to get hurt, but I am afraid to hold your hand. When you let go, and idk, where we will be tomorrow. When I wake up in the morning, will you still be lying next to me? Or will I be in a puddle next to a goddamn tree? It is freezing. I am freezing. I am freezing up when you look at me. Am I crazy? I'm going crazy. Am I lazy or something?

thanks/sorry/sure to (In order of reference): Violent Soho, Moose Blood, Apollo Bay, The Front Bottoms x2, Smith Street Band, TFB, American Beauty, McCafferty, Foley, and, of course, The Front Bottoms

Back Tops Front on Bottom (Limited Edition Demo, AUS only)- One Take (Acoustic)

close enough version

with our backs to our small town dreams
nothing is ever as it seems (to be)
my body is a shipwreck//at the bottom of the ocean floor
taking in a deep breath//towards my true north

too proud to understand, too dumb to ever stop
i didn't mind it then, counting numbers on the clock

i don't wanna go out
i don't wanna see you
i don't wanna do anything
i'm sorry.

i'll find something diferent to say, eventually
spend time plotting up new ways, to leave

too proud to understand, too dumb to ever stop
i didn't mind it then, counting numbers on the clock

i don't wanna go out
i don't wanna see you
i don't wanna do anything
so tell me what's new

it's digging deeper into my skin (A//Jake Chord)
i don't wanna do anything x3
it's digging deeper in my skin
guess i could

get drunk get high get something
get better get worse get nothing
do anything do anything
i can't do anything right

i can't do anything right x4

i don't wanna do anything (draft)

I pick my battles carefully
What did you mean what you said 'sorry'
It feels like you don't want to be here
Sometimes, I don't want to be here

Say what I don't want to say. 
Drunk out of my mind
We should sleep but I am trying the best I can
To spend the time we've got left together,

So what's the point? 
When you say you're gonna be here when you're not gonna be here?
What's the point? What's the point? 
When you say you're gonna be here when you're not gonna be near me?

Commitment

I got Soundcloud Pro now so may as well upload some new demos! <3 Thanks for listening/Sticking Around

Lyrics:

Where did you find that love you gave
Covered in dust and spiderwebs
Learned from parents who never raised
Childhood files have been erased

And I know you'll have a restart
But it's not a machine, no it's your heart
So you've gotta take good care of it
Eat your veggies bone apple teeth

You said 'I'm broken
I can't be fixed but here's hoping'
A conversation over a cigarette
I've lived a life that I regret

And I don't believe in God but I wish I could
She'd be the best if she ever would
Show her face in this neighbourhood
Cos we need her grace in the common good

And the world is ending, I'm done pretending
I've been a saint when I've been sinning
Got a track record that could be seen
In the resume of a supervillain

I'm on my knees
I've started to pray
Not to these gods that I've been reading about my whole life
Cos they start wars and take lives

I'm praying for love, praying for peace
To be happy
And for the beast to come back and save the world
So my kids can grow old

I'm never gonna have kids anyway
Cos I don't know how to raise them
Not the way my parents did

And I think, yeah, it'll be alright
These wounds cut deep but it's been awhile
Since I've seen some kindness
From those who were meant to raise us

bone apple teeth (demo)

Lyrics:

When you’re w me can’t seem to find the
Right words to say
Count me lucky if I’m at the right place,
On the right time
And I’ve got all my friends’ name on the door
They wanna hear me sing about my problems 
Like the way I did before

It’s not about a girl w a boyfriend
Or a boy with a girlfriend
Let’s sing about the end of the word
As we know it
The trees burning up should’ve been a warning
And I don’t know what the fuck this government is doing
World War 3 is coming up as I’m coming down
Drugs are getting expensive in this town

This town, this town,
This town that you and I both desperately wanna leave

So it’s time, to rise up and get our power back
I’m sick of lying around and having panic attacks
Conversations all the same, they’ll lie to us anyway
We’ll find out when they make it to mars

But the dead planet knows where the blood river flows
My secrets are known to those who are close
We’ll make it outside when this plague blows over
And make this world a little bit better
We’ll make this world a little bit better

Quarantine Blues (Demo)

Lyrics:

Every morning is the same, my leg is asleep and I woke up late.
I've been dreaming of you again, just a couple more minutes to play pretend.
That you haven't been gone, left me all alone.
And I'm too young to die, too old to lie,
Staring at the mirror as I start to cry,
And I wonder why I don't know myself,
Everybody out here seems to know themselves.

If you sing about your feelings that's a step towards healing,
Make sure that it's appealing if you want to keep it going.
Got an album you won't listen, it's the age of playlisting
Spotify out here making fucking millions.
The Industry is fucked yeah we all know that,
I just want to leave and never come back
And the gossip is making me sick
This tea is getting too hot to sip
And I'm parched, so thirsty,
The words you left, still haunt me
And I'm scared that you'll hurt me
When I finally tell my story.

Age of Playlisting (demo)

22/09/20 (draft)

inept space cadet
chewing on a cigarette bud
wondering if he will ever quit
but yeah, my bad
i was just really fucking sad
i had the worst damn dream
that i've ever really had
where i'm alone
and i'm not
just waiting for my life to start

it's a part of me i'm working on
still working

sometimes i wish i were dead
but i wish you were here
get me out of my head
sometimes i wish i was gone
thought i was alone
now i'm on my way home
i'm on my way home

your airhead best friend
lit another cigarette
his head is always ringing 
full of habits that he never quit
oh well swell kid
time to learn the violin
add another bullet to your 
brand new bucket list

but it never really mattered
it never really mattered
nothing really matters

Inept Space Cadet

capo 2

Say what’s been happening? I haven’t caught up with the news yet
Catching up, has it been half a year already? yeah
I’ve been struggling to pick up my phone
So I had no idea what’s been going on.

When you moved out of your city/shitty apartment
To a house that you could hide your stuff in
you said ‘Life alone is a life worth living
When you get to have your own kitchen’

I’m scared, to leave my room sometimes
to show my face sometimes,
to leave my house sometimes.

Bite my lip just a little
don’t know if I should talk yet
My cigarette in the middle
but you’re the one that’s coughin
Now we’re both laughing
At the irony of everything
Are we cursed or lucky? x2

I don’t knoww

I’m not good but, I’ll be fine 

In a year’s time, I’ll see you
Drinking boxed wine, in a bathroom
that we both don’t belong in

I’ll hold your hair while you throw up if you hold mine too,
Like no time passed between us, but that’s not true
and you know that I missed you but I don’t know 
if you missed me too

But I don’t mind, cause we stayed up all night
Laughing, talking, catching up
Sometimes feels like just enough

Catching Up

Alice (she/her)
sometimes jason (he/him)

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