performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

dont know how to live without ur touch
got me feeling like ive never been enough
i was helpless but i still thought i was lucky
i gave up thinking about giving up
doesnt matter even if i try my hardest
it wont ever be the way that it was
and i made my circle smaller than ur heart is
idc im prepared to collapse

every time i think, its a burden to me... keep my mind in silence
i miss every night when we talked bout nothing we still laughed and smiled
but i guess that ur onto the next thing i just dont wanna be alive
and i thought u were never gonna lie but u said u were never gonna let me cry

it was a waste of time when i crumpled up into pieces
fake smile hope they believe it
i know they rly hate me so im bleeding
heart broken crying and screaming
hole in my chest idk how im breathing
new pain but its not for a reason
new day and another ones leaving
idk how to cope with these feelings

homesick

@resolve1k
i need to put this all behind me
deceive me and you blind me 
can't deal with always lying 
girl i need
to put it all in the past
i know i shouldn't want you back
100 other options yea
so see ya hope you're doing well
put your heart in the bag
push to start i hit the gas
she said "i don't want u back"
i wont be coming in last
said she wants my heart 
said she wants me bad
cuz she wants what she can't have
i cannot get attached 
i was taken a back 
by all the shit that you said 
"i never thought we could last"
and "get the fuck out my head"
can you tell me why i try
things never seem to go right
shit never seems to work out
you're the only thing on my mind
and i'm not feeling alright 
always with some other guy
i don't need you by my side
i need to leave it behind

behind me (inno)

feat @0arid n @angelicxmei
prod @neohnq & @012207
mastered by @chriad
ty 4 1.5k im not stopping anytime soon :D #gogogo

lyrics :
@whyhaze
i’ve been off the pills n they got me losing focus
tell me is it real is it your hand that im holding
all these scars on my body i didn’t want u to notice 
girl u leave me hopeless 
toying with my feelings & you know it

almost had it right there
don’t know why im trying 
look me in my eyes i got a feeling that ur lying
i thought it was right but ig it’s bad timing 
so long.. it felt so wrong
but i had to say goodbye

ik u dont want it either i can see it in ur face
counting big bankk
but i still can’t replicate 
i was thinking ab buying u a diamond ring
i can feel my dreams dying 
i hope it’s not getting tiring

@0arid
all the words on ur fingertips
i just wanna make a final wish
to be as one
i know its harder wen ur gone
u ask me if i like that i dont even know
i dont wanna be here wanna stay home
but i dont wanna be alone
i guess ill do it on my own

@angelicxmei
i cant never get it right
i guess theres no one by my side...
i took pills like twice
what is going on idkkk
put a bullet to my heart
make it hollow
getting closer to the end
and i thought you would follow
does it all really make sense
i be going backwards
i cant never progress
never again
i think ive lost my way...

SPOTIFY

so wrong w/ arid & angelicxmei (neohn & baz)

prod by @prodsoma
master by @chriad
all plats soon
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lyrics
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do yk what it means
wht it means 2 b alone
idk where 2 go
my eyes r on the road
im grabbing on ur letter & my hands r getting cold
realize it aint no fun & games. we rly growing old
u dk what it means, means everything to me
feels like nothing to you
u love it when i bleed
u love it when i die
wna do it slowlyy
thinkin of it everynight but im barely holding
onto the edge

i just need to go away
i gave u all my flowers n u let them all decay
i think of rotting everyday
dont count me out, just yet
eyes closed. im counting down 2my death
i need one last breath 
js2 say im upset
put a hole in my neck frm the cigarettes
the same blood that i shed became all i have left for now
if u go 
that'd be the world's way of letting me down
if u go 

so stay here for now
ur thoughts crawling push them out
they wna throw me out
nvr been the chosen one
nvr been no one to call
feel like im no one at all
tired enough, nowadays im just waiting for the fall

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nothing to you (soma)

Disgrace w/ tera (jonny)

@whyhaze
@prodkirian
@ripwarheart

[arid]
bc it feels like the last time idrc ab it
i dont wanna think rn yea my memories clouded
u told u would hit me but i rlly doubt it
u told me youd leave me yea go right ahead
i dont need u on the right hand
i feel it killing me am i dead
its all ok lay on my shoulder
i dont think u wanted me had to take it slower

[whyhaze]
take it slower
take ur time girl
i'll give u the whole world just stay by my side yaa 
she wanna feel my body
only mine only mine
ur the one one i want with me
when i lay awake at night 
pain in my chest sometimes i feel like im not enough
sit and wait for ur response
girl u got me feeling rough
feels like the last time
u said i didnt care enough
little do u know u rly tear me tear me up
last night
u opened up told me ur tired
that time works against us
im still behind u if u need me
if u got me i got u

slower w/ whyhaze [kirian + warheart + riki]

@domerrz
@ddertbag
(@owtiss on the lil end part yep shoutout that guy)

www.instagram.com/01domerz/
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[@domerrz]
think I had lost my feelings
this time I really mean it
words cut deep, I lost all meaning
wounded heart, but I'm still gonna heal it

It's eating me up inside, don't know who you really are
like what you're really like, tell me who you truly are
I know that these feelings come and go
yeah, its quite bizarre 
losing my body, no self control, I'm not going far

and idk why it happened to me 
I took every path and it led back, I feel weak as hell
going round in circles is bad for me
just cut the talk, yea I'd rather throw my pain in a wishing well

feelings (ddertbag)

feat @domerrz + @owtiss
prod @decago


(intro)
i don't wanna lie, i been feeling sad
my heart on the ground, falling once again
i don't wanna lie, i been feeling sad
my heart on the ground, falling once again

(chorus)
put my feelings to the side, they don't matter
trusted you too much, now my heart is shattered
always doing my best but it never works out, nooo  
i don't wanna lie, 
i been feeling sad
my heart on the ground, 
falling once again
i'm just trying to follow my dreams 
until the end i will always believe

(verse dom - @domerrz)
i fall into your lies once again
fool me once now im terrified
my heart will never mend
played my part in your story
you left me i feel dead
you despise me just say it
just tell me its the end

it's like every time 
it's just all my fault
crying once again
what did i do wrong
im ripping up my skin
for you its not enough
but ima play pretend 
dont think i hurt enough

(verse - @owtiss)
ive just had enough
everything is starting again..
n im so tired of love
i dont wna see u again
i think ill fall apart!
when could we ever make amends??
u never cared in the end
i think id rather be dead

every day that passes i get new regrets now
the only time i can reset is when im passed out!!
i wish i could do more than just accept how
our relationship could never be repaired now :(

(chorus)
put my feelings to the side, they don't matter
trusted you too much, now my heart is shattered
always doing my best but it never works out, nooo  
i don't wanna lie, 
i been feeling sad
my heart on the ground, 
falling once again
i'm just trying to follow my dreams 
until the end i will always believe

my fault +dom & owtiss (decago)

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
@coldspades
@manmelter

infatuated with u i admit it  
more than a dream is this life that im living 
u make my heart scream need u js to breath
ur like nicotine to me 

again and again ill wait for u
until the end of time 
cuz the thought of u not being next to me 
is too much js to bare 
bring u the moon and stars 
foreign fashion had to cop it too large
girl what u wna do 
let me get a taste of you

love when our worlds colliding
and i think its perfect pick up hear my phone chiming 
its perfect timing
want u to myself 
id do anything to make it real 

rain hits my window 
im thinking ab u but yk its not that simple 
its 3am walk home under city lights
id do anything to make it right 
with u it js feels so nice
wna see u can we talk tonight 
i feel like the stars have js aligned 
so can u tell me what is on ur mind

if i wait for u then would u wait for me
i dont need nothing else cause ur my ecstasy
how can i make u see that ur the only one i need
i’ll never give up on u wont admit defeat

just know ur always enough, dont make me say it again
if u give me ur trust then we can be more than friends
all i need is ur love, i’ll be with u til the end
yea, i’ll be with u until the end

stars align +coldspades (inci0)

@closr18

i know its hard to see the tears here on a black shirt
all ur words hurt like a fractured bone
treating me dumb like I didn't know the answer
wanted u to think I was the only one
in my life
threw it all behind just to see u cry
tried to look back it was me behind
look me in the eyes I cant even try
its not the same i was always broken
I don't feel the pain I got ibuprofen
tell me what to say all the words you've chosen
laying here like I haven't awoken
tried to run and leave me how?
ur words have the safest sound
grab my hand trust me like I figured it out
don't know the plan cant wait for it to turn all around

Ibuprofen (closr)

MoneyBag

https://youtu.be/bGMNRBa2pqw?si=MNDYo4X6hL5Qp4Q9

so wrong w/ arid & angelicxmei (neohn & baz)

whyhaze

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