noNeon! (+blckhrt x askenemy)

prod. metlast

if I cover my eyes
i wont see the wreck, but still
open your mind to the fears, that I'm willing
driving at night scares me to death
why
anxiety lays, in my head all the time

don't lie
you can see the smile from my eyes, eyes
its so hard to comply
with you
and all the things thats going on in the world its true

ill cry
hold my hand through the night
me and u
we'll make it through the fire
the power amongst us
the people in power, just making everyone cower

can you see the welt
baby please just be yourself
patient 23 is creeping back, its so hard to shelf
all of my past
all of the stress and tears
no one is left

my best friend is lost in my head
I guess that I regret
my decisions and my past
cause we're the reason no one left
 
nothing is changing
baby just hold my hand
and hold your breath
and hope to God there's something left

all i see

What the fuck nah this shit can’t be real
How u hold a grudge when u don’t know how I feel
In the hole I dug I just sit here n I chill 
Thin out my blood love the poison in my pills 

Body in the mud watch my color turn to teal
When I burn to dust who gon care ab me still
She js want a thug and she see me in the field 
But girl Im lookin for love Ian tryna be yo shield 

You tryna get away you say that you can’t take the drama 
She In her prime ain’t got no time to be no baby mama
I Don’t know why they see me grind and get to hating y’all are trippin 
Can’t imagine what the fuck it’s gonna take for me to listen
Maybe if I’m by myself then I won’t be so codependent 
Maybe if I get some help then I can finally make a difference 
Say I’m fine but how I’m doin really not nobody businesses 
Ian tryna fight I’m just needing you to 

Listen for a minute babe
I can tell when ur hurt girl I know pain 
I’m just tryna make sure that ur okay
When they put me in the dirt nothin gon change
 I’m here 

What the fuck nah this shit can’t be real
How u hold a grudge when u don’t know how I feel
In the hole I dug I just sit here n I chill 
Thin out my blood love the poison in my pills 

Body in the mud watch my color turn to teal
When I burn to dust who gon care ab me still
She js want a thug and she see me in the field 
But girl Im lookin for love Ian tryna be yo shield

Teal (frevel)

Flesh

lyr


i just sit and rot in the brine
yeah
i just need to shut off my mind
give it time
i cant cus ive been wasting mine
every night
im guided back by scary sprites
you can stay a while
promise i dont mind
can u spare some life i been wasting mine
i should just retire
starting cutting ties
everythings on fire
but it all feels fine

shit in life much different than what i learned before 
hiding so much shit behind a metaphor 
can u let me in im banging on the door
on the door
i been here since half past four

ur asking me to do shit that i cant
theres a reason i keep telling you its out of my hands
i knew you werent listening from way in advance 
i keep writing garbage this’ll probably get canned


i just sit and rot in the brine
yeah
i just need to shut off my mind
give it time
i cant cus ive been wasting mine
every night
im guided back by scary sprites
you can stay a while
promise i dont mind
can u spare some life i been wasting mine
i should just retire
starting cutting ties
everythings on fire
but it all feels fine

a hailstorm of nuclear warheads dropping in my vicinity (sorrowbringer)

*** Unfinished - The Lost Hard Drive Tape ***


This is UTLHDT, a collection of really shitty unfinished songs dating back to April 2023 that I never got the chance to finish.
These songs were recovered in part from private uploads to my soundcloud and I have no way of finishing them.
I didn't want to just throw all of this away, even tho most of it isn't very good at all, so here it is. 

Feel free to not enjoy it at all, they really do suck lol.

This music was a part of my life at one point, and having the ability to release them even in part, is still a bit cathartic.
I was devastated when I lost all of my music. I'm happy to at least have these though.

If you did listen, I appreciate you endlessly. 

- getbetter <3




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your time

TEMPORAL BLEED

Hold On To Me

lyr


im in the bunker
u shuld come too
theres tornadoes spinning by u
let the tears drip out my eyes soon
do u believe me when i love u
after all that how can i trust u
running out of time
might be done soon
i got half a mind just to bust thru
every night it gets uncomfortable 

i dug a hole for the two of us
i got some time 
would u shut me up
clouds looking angry 
we’re out of luck
you couldve saved me 
but u backed off
ur in the way can u please back up
id love to stay but i gotta run
inside my brain theres a flock of doves
dripped out my face is a bit of blood

my brain liquifies and it pours out my mouth
i asked for some time but u shut me down
ive grown impatient paced round my house
please take a breath and calm urself down

shifting of tides pushed me out to the side 
gave it a week and im out of your sight
im in the back while i try not to die
im in ur arms while i try not to cry

im in the bunker
u shuld come too
theres tornadoes spinning by u
let the tears drip out my eyes soon
do u believe me when i love u
after all that how can i trust u
running out of time
might be done soon
i got half a mind just to bust thru
every night it gets uncomfortable

storm_chaser (hollowprpl)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

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getbetter

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