ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

Pictures w/ foreign forest + lilidentitycrisis

yeah you can keep that to yourself 
I don’t need to know that 
I don’t need to know that
No I don’t need to know
Just Leave my heart at ease 
Understand this final plea 
find the placement underneath 
this level of trust has gone too deep 
this rust has gotten to me 

If you got a selective memory 
Just choose the best of me for now 
And you can point it right back at me I’ll 
redirect this mess right back at you 
All I ever wanted 
Was the skeleton in your closet 
Now he haunts me
He’s haunting me and he’s got me by the neck 
It’s holding tight for everything I said 
I try run away from this heart attack 
But I can’t see an ending 
I can’t see an ending for this

And I’ll let myself down first that’s the way it goes that’s the way it goes 
Slip away but I thought that’s why you chose yeah I thought that’s what you chose 

If you got a selective memory 
Just choose the best of me for now 
And you can point it right back at me I’ll 
redirect this mess right back at you 
All I ever wanted 
Was the skeleton in your closet 
Now he haunts me
He’s haunting me and he’s got me by the neck 
It’s holding tight for everything I said 
I try run away from this heart attack 
But I can’t see an ending 
I can’t see an ending for this

selective memory (king theta)

*** Unfinished - The Lost Hard Drive Tape ***


This is UTLHDT, a collection of really shitty unfinished songs dating back to April 2023 that I never got the chance to finish.
These songs were recovered in part from private uploads to my soundcloud and I have no way of finishing them.
I didn't want to just throw all of this away, even tho most of it isn't very good at all, so here it is. 

Feel free to not enjoy it at all, they really do suck lol.

This music was a part of my life at one point, and having the ability to release them even in part, is still a bit cathartic.
I was devastated when I lost all of my music. I'm happy to at least have these though.

If you did listen, I appreciate you endlessly. 

- getbetter <3




commit (UTLHDT)

surgery <\3 w/ @luvdarza (prod. dragon)

im sorry ifi  let anyone down. 

lyrics:

how can i love u?
when u keep pushing me away..
and i dont know what im supposed to say
its not my fault but i always feel to blame
cause you just push me, u just push me away..

dont know. if u noticed
inside im dying im soulless
outside
i put mysmile on
get kicked awhile im down
go and write a song, still
i hope that you listen
my words your thoughts submission
i dont think that im rly a bad guy
but u kill me so i guess ima flatline

how can i love u?
when u keep pushing me away..
and i dont know what im supposed to say
its not my fault but i always feel that way

how can i love u?
when u keep pushing me away..
and i dont know what im supposed to say
its not my fault but i always feel to blame
cause you just push me, u just push me away..

push me away

watch the music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EV4yZaTOfPE

written, recorded, and produced by foreign forest & lilidentitycrisis

listen on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5ONJcPsbDjaFTPSzWVvIis
listen on bandcamp: https://foreignforest.bandcamp.com/track/empty-hallways-ft-lilidentitycrisis

lyrics:
[foreign forest: hook]
stuck in my head
feels like always
tired of all these
empty hallways
miss the feeling then
well the one that I had back then
tastes bittersweet
it's red velvet
way I miss you
I can't help it
I cannot pretend
can't get you out of my head
x2

[foreign forest: verse]
tears running down my face
it's okay I didn't shower yet today
all my problems go away
and all the pain
rushes straight to my brain
sorry if I need a moment
it's my problem and I own it
I love you and you know it
but it's not enough I know it

[foreign forest: hook]
stuck in my head
feels like always
tired of all these
empty hallways
miss the feeling then
well the one that I had back then
tastes bittersweet
it's red velvet
way I miss you
I can't help it
I cannot pretend
can't get you out of my head
x2

[lilidentitycrisis: verse]
can't get you out of my head
'cause all the things you've said
i'm waiting outside
i want to be in your bed
i'll be by your side
in case these things they go red
in case these things they go bad
yeah i got your back
i will be better off
with having you back
you told me don't get involved
you told me don't get attached
and now i'm sinking in love
and i don't want to look back
and i don't want to look back
because i know you're the one
and i don't want to fuck this up
even though it's already done
because sometimes i fuck up
and sometimes i'm like hold up
and sometimes you're like shut up
so i look at you like what

empty hallways w/ lilidentitycrisis (music video in desc.)

Cannibals (prod. sorrowbringer)

DUSK

in the mirror (curve) - Lil Uzi Vert (with drums)

A slow, dark exploration of emotional numbness and apathy - not happy, not sad, just comfortable existing in the void.