produced by killedmyself

completely non profit 

lyrics

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

ur life is over just as its begun
she found the sun inside anothers arms
and to a brother that had sworn no harm
i think ill stay inside long until the weathers calm
she got a humble cause
tearing u in half
tryna mend ur heart
she wanna leave some scars
head
whats going on in ur head babe
eyes are feeling like an xray
honestly i think im too dazed
feeling like its been 2 days
caught up in all of my blue days
that is not worthy of news page
so how r u liking my new face
ripped the skin off of my mainframe
rolled it around in an ashtray
stapled it back onto my veins

its alright
its alright
its alright
its alright

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

poetry from a diary i found buried by my headstone (killedmyself)

You Wouldn't Know

You Wouldnt Know

the first single off my new album 'dearly departing', coming out 9/9!

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
album art by @/ashleydhe on instagram

so much time and effort has been put into this project and i truly hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i cant really see it here and now
and the lights behind my back are turning down
every sailor knows his in and outs
but i struggle every now and then with life so hear me out

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

and i stand and wait as cold air breaks the sail before us all
our fatal fate has taken everything that we once loved
so fuck it all
if i go down i’ll be swinging
a rope tied to songs i’ve been singing
the weight is enough for a fixing
so i tighten the knot and im ready for war
war
i still need more (from life, inside my mind)
more

i cant really see it here and now
so i contemplate the ways in which i drown
every time i’m lost im never found
i just suffer all the consequences, end up on the ground

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere 

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

im leading a life not worth living
and seemingly so, unforgiving
its time i let out this anger

dearly departing

anchor [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

V. anchor [jolst]

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

s/o my buddy @brecken
lyrics
power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i gave it up but its stressing me out
u in her dms but im in her house
said she in love with the way that i shout
its the way that i sound
just bring me back to the ground
i got heavy eyes
i dont call nowhere home
but im comfy inside of her thighs

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i wish that u could kno how every night u make me feel
i dont buckle up when im in my whip but i steer
yea u make me fear
was it ever real or was it all just a lie
but i cant take it anymore
is there any surprise
i was down on the floor
n u looked me in my eyes
u said its all gonna be fine
i said i hope its alright
i guess ill stay here tonight
i guess its one more delight
its okay if u dont want me back
just kno that ill be here forever
its okay if u stab me in my back
baby girl ur messing with my temper

power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

calling my bluff w/ brecken (cløud x heyrick)

diamondbackpack! w/ kid $ora (prod. snoozed x lifted)

ajalife - desire paths(spiral) #p @seattletmh_

Playboi Carti - Different Day You're The Moon (jerk remix) ##GHETTOMONEY

prod by my boi @majinaruu 💕💕

lyrics

buried alive, no-one can find me, 
I don't know why, you keep on hiding,
I got blood in my wine, live like a viking,
fucked up my life, just for one night
x2

im just smoking with my friends, like wheres the bag? lets smoke some more
I don't know if I will make it, push the clutch down to the floor,
in the snow just on my own, when ur asleep im at ur door,
nice to look at but ur sour, ur just rotten to the core,

and ur rotten,
im besotted,
I got a knife in my chest where my heart is,
line me up, id love to be your next target,
sign me up id love to be your next target

buried alive, no-one can find me, 
I don't know why, you keep on hiding,
I got blood in my wine, live like a viking,
fucked up my life, just for one night
x2

im buried alive.
im buried alive.
im buried alive.
im buried alive.

buried alive

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0jrQffaiJQ

recently my skins been shedding
hoping that it grow back
views get blown, dark overtones
an ocean of a world
cast off 
drop sail
hope I prevail
baby you're my harbor
sunset auburn
hoping that you know that

I will not stop loving you
when you're down around the town
I'll pick you up
"Diamond in the rust"
baby please just kiss me up
taste of red bull on your lips
yes my clover bring me luck
~
and I'm done with playing all these games
I can't fuck with all you lames
lately life been crazy but I know that I'll be with you

recently my skins been shedding
hoping that it grow back
views get blown, dark overtones
an ocean of a world
cast off 
drop sail
hope I prevail
baby you're my harbor
sunset auburn
hoping that you know that

girl I miss you I cannot kiss you
2000 miles away that's the issue
I will just smile and pray we will see new
but I know we will get through it and be two

like loving you
never gonna walk away yes we are two
like lie by you
loving you forever I rely on you

recently my skins been shedding
hoping that it grow back
views get blown, dark overtones
an ocean of a world
cast off 
drop sail
hope I prevail
baby you're my harbor
sunset auburn
hoping that you know that

Sunset Auburn [prod. theswitch]

Lyrics: 
I can't really run from, what i've become so I'm just gonna crash and burn
drifted in lane too soon, haven't been you since June
I don't really care, I hope that you're aware 
don't leave me here in my ruin
baby left me too soon
flowers outside in bloom
~
I can't see how you say it
when every bone in my body is breaking
will you still confide me and stay right beside me
till my light goes dim
I love you forever
YOU FUCKINGWITHHIM?
~
Think how you press up to him
and it didn't even happen yet
I'm caught up in my mind and I'm dripping sweat
escalate my state of mind with medicine I think that I'm better than the rest, I'm still all neck up in my stress
tryna live my best life, hopein for the best right?
I said fuck that shit it's all bout action not the best night
hard to just commit myself, when I feel like a bitch for no apparent reason
hit the ceiling, I might quit your

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

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