i don't wanna be alive

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wonder when the day comes
produced by @jolst
mixed by nine to 5

lyrics:
I cant seem to get this right now
But I can say that I’ll try now

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

Don’t wanna be be saved i wanna climb the mountain
I don’t need no help
There's no one I can count on
Don’t wanna stay back
No I've been waiting too long
I'm not right but i know I'm not wrong

I'm making new chapters every page now
I'm just tryna live for day to day now
I don’t want nobody telling me how
But the voices in my head are speaking real loud

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

nine to 5 - wonder when the day comes (prod. jolst)

produced by: @prodneverforever

lyrics, mixing and mastering done by me 

and my eyes 
they burn white
where u been
all this time, i
i’m lonely
on white wine 
u won’t win
this time, i 
i won’t leave
and that’s fine 
and codeine leaks 
from my eyes, i
won’t breathe 
not this time, 
so get up
and don’t cry, boy
x2

burnwhite.

"cautious" off of deathbed volume 1
recorded & mixed by kcchalk, twilight blue, draven.fm

cautious [kcchalk x Twilight Blue x draven.fm] (prod. twilight blue)

"medicine" off of deathbed volume 1
recorded and mixed by drewisdead, twilight blue & ILYL aka draven.fm

medicine [drewisdead x Twilight Blue] (prod. ILYL)

no love for a loner p. jessie rose

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

no fixing wasn't right
all along
we were meant to fall apart
listen to my songs

getting ready now
for the road is all i want
i don't wanna lay here
anymore than i have to
sick of it, at this altitude

don't try and walk away
then try to make amends again
it never was the same
years and years on end, we wasted everything again

i don't wanna hear you  complain ever again
a train wreck in my head

watch, yeah just watch me walk away
the 30th of June, its super cloudy raining on me once again
give me a second and a hand
I'm falling down for you again

Christ, oh Christ, I'm crying out again
I'm gonna lay here missing on your gaze
hope one day, this pain will go away
strife and struggle, to make it through this maze!
LIFE IS FULL OF PAIN , I NEED TO RID OF YOUR FACE!
this is such a game
with nothing to gain
sorry if I'm lame

don't try and walk away
then try to make amends again
it never was the same
years and years on end, we wasted everything again

i don't wanna hear you  complain ever again
a train wreck in my head

watch, yeah just watch me walk away
the 30th of June, its super cloudy raining on me once again
give me a second and a hand
I'm falling down for you again

Christ, oh Christ, I'm crying out again

Curated Agony (prod. Dianasty)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/ugly

wanna tear u down 
wanna say ur ugly 
but baby you’re just so above me
i dropped the ball 
pick it up
don’t trust me 
hold my hand tell me that u love me
i get a call 
from my friends 
don’t bug me 
stay inside all day, baby girl don’t call me 
i dropped the ball 
pick it up 
don’t trust me 
when i fall pick me up
don’t drop me 

hop on the train when i see you most 
but i get stopped at the gates, they close
i’d run 30 miles just to see u pose 
hopped off the train fuck it jump on the coach 
the tears that u shed are catastrophic
if put me on a pedestal i’ll jump off it 
any style any colour baby girl u rock it 
curly ur hair and ur red lip gloss 
jusfucks up my head 
go to speak i choke,
thought she loved me what a fuckin joke !
if you ever call me now
i’ll just block it
put down your guns 
and go home with nothin 

wanna tear u down 
wanna say ur ugly 
but baby you’re just so above me
i dropped the ball 
pick it up
don’t trust me 
hold my hand tell me that u love me
i get a call 
from my friends 
don’t bug me 
stay inside all day, baby girl don’t call me 
i dropped the ball 
pick it up 
don’t trust me 
when i fall pick me up
don’t drop me

#ugly (xtasane)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

I sip 40's until the morning
Can't speak English
All my styles fire
Can't extinguish
Take the red pill or the blue
Can't distinguish
So I took them both and now I'm spinning

On the come down seeing shadow people
Swear I'm hearing voices
Know they're evil
Now my songs at the top
Like a steeple
She said I'm the shit, Boy I'm fecal

These drugs got a hand up on my neck
Watch me bleed out for a check
Hit the plug for the green enhanced effects
Live in a swamp like my name's Shrek
Not in control of mind
Feeling high from the weed I grind
Burn my soul so I'm fine
Endless scroll what did I find

I sip 40's until the morning
Can't speak English
All my styles fire
Can't extinguish
Take the red pill or the blue
Can't distinguish
So I took them both and now I'm spinning

Still this don't fill the hole in my empty chest
Working every night no I never rest
Too high, spoke to god he gave me a quest
Got to reach the top like it's Everest

I could sit here
And just act like I do not need help
Boy I'm fighting this is hell
From the outside couldn't tell
Eating until my stomach hurt
Drilling my head in the dirt
I could fix this
But I'm going to need my fix first

Red or Blue [abysshund]

prod @fleshgolem x @jolst
mix & mastr @fleshgolem

4th single on alb

lyrics

no name
looking in th mirror see the wrong face 
picking up the shards till i feel something
im a noone but im still something
so what th fuck am i doing here…oneway 

or another im find ima find a fucking 
something 
mayb already found it on this one way
but this line that i been takings a very closed space
im on my own pace

im running dropping seeds in forest
the crowd that ignores. wakes from their break
and they use all their force to take and just break
and i wait and i wait for the day 
they’re the same.

am i sane. am i sane
i grew up how i was supposed but im the one has to change
u make it obvious that im wrong coz u think i live for the pain 
do u not c i hold restrain 
its in the back of ur mind im sure 
but youll still look away

make me why i am then put me to the torch
first a threat but then the threat leads to a fucking war 
its the end of our time coz we form our source
i feel like an alien the way u react. am i speaking morse

contemplating on a fucking porch
look to the sky and u will stay on course
time moves slow when u dont want it to but thats just when find ur force

no name

no name (flesh x jolst)

where did you go
cus you’ve been runnin 
you’ve been runnin from me 
and you’ve been runnin 
you’ve been running from me 

i’m from the city of the foxes
i been tryna set trends 
but i won’t ever sell a soul 
not mine or any of my friends 
n i been stickin to the pavement 
don’t forget what you said
“everybody has their price” 
but mine just never made sense 

but now i’m finally paid
so i guess i’ll make do
with all the finer things 
but my hands are too cold
n i cant feel a thing, nah 
i didn’t hear a thing  
when the fire came but
we all got our payment 

so i guess i’m cooked 
n i’ve been down for too long
finally gettin up 
startin to feel like player 1
i grab my gun and look 
upon this battlefield i lost 
so baby wish me luck
my baby wish me

when this war is finally done 
yea ill come make u blush and baby wtf 
i’ve never been good with words
is gratitude enough? 
is gratitude enough?
but it never is 

so i’ll just sit here on my own and pour this medicine
i drop blue pills in sugar free i’m smokin kerosene 
i should’ve never been so dumb to fuckin let you in
sorry for my temperament 

i’m from the city of the foxes
i been tryna set trends 
but i won’t ever sell a soul 
not mine or any of my friends 
n i been stickin to the pavement 
don’t forget what you said
“everybody has their price” 
but mine just never made sense 

but now i’m finally paid
so i guess i’ll make do
with all the finer things 
but my hands are too cold
n i cant feel a thing, nah 
i didn’t hear a thing  
when the fire came but
we all got our payment

kerosene (sustain)

switch it up 
you always say same the shit
and it’s boring 

and i 
think it’s love 
or is it simply just this feelin i’m ignoring

pick me up
i’ve been down
on this floor
i’m probably better off here

and it’s enough 
a simple text from somebody 
i feel better off 

i see red, i see red 
i see cops here 
kicked out the party
i’m the only one that’s lost here
calling u again and again 
ur just toxic 
leave me on read
once again, sleep on concrete

and i’ve been down before
but this is just a whole another level and

i feel rough 
i’ll miss your dog
i guess i’ll see u on the stairway to heaven 

and i guess that’s how it goes (it goes)
when you’re 25 years old (years old) 
and i don’t mind sharing 
i feel dead it’s the weed n these drugs that i’m dependent on 
x2

switch it up 
you always say same the shit
and it’s boring 

and i 
think it’s love 
or is it simply just this feelin i’m ignoring

pick me up
i’ve been down
on this floor
i’m probably better off here

and it’s enough 
a simple text from somebody 
i feel better off

watching sam sulek wbu (branwen + nevrfall)

LAST KISS

proud of u son

prod. taylor


bad kids tearin up the night
barely breathin' for our lives
(don't you look at me turn the damn lights off)
off on and awkward our words off-color
hella scary dreams but we keep it undercover

i will not give up
i'll tear this whole bitch up
i swear to you that we'll be

we'll be just fine 
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
keep it in your heart and 
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
tear this bitch apart 
i won't leave you behind
won't leave you behind
don't leave my life
even when they say that 
the kids aren't alright 
the kids are alright
hell ya we're alright

(kids in america)
rejects and regrets
I don't have the heart to cry 
(hell naw I don't need it)
(kids in america)
rejects and regrets
I don't have the heart to cry 
(hell naw I don't need it)

Lookin' out a dirty old window
down below our friends always seem to go
backwards right out the endzone
zoned out to bed off the benzos

shit's mental
how you feel nothin in your skin in this hellhole
(buried alive)
up to your neck in anthills till your head rolls
(i don't wanna die)
my brain lies its tenfold as sinful
(hope you don't mind)
i will drive this foreign through a wall it's a rental
(hope you don't mind)
best friends to ex-friends I will try my best again
best friends to ex-friends I will try my best again

5-12-2007 Spring talent show Homestead High School

beautiful song by @emotegi
https://soundcloud.com/emotegi/talent-show
<3
guitar/piano/drum programming/mixing/mastering by mee

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

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