it happened _outro (wraithontheporch)

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

My perfect victory (prod. sorrowbringer)

swamp:

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself 

But if I go I’m taking you with me to hell 
It was always from your hand, every card I was delt 
So it just seems fitting that your end is with my help 
“What a let down” like shit that’s exactly how I felt 

So pull the trigger if you want I think I’m ready now 
To try and start avoiding your whole arsenal of let downs 
You’re always more prepared than I am it’s so typical 
But it’s chess not checkers baby all my plays are critical 
Ok so 

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself 

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide 
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of myself

cxltmoon:

Soaked in these memories
But all this kerosene is a product thats been sold to keep you away from me 

Watch where your walking
The floor is rigged to fall in
I know cause im falling and falling and falling again

I'm exhausted and sleep is for the weak
I'm exhausted cull me out while I sleep
I'm exhausted i'm bleeding to my feet
And ill wipe it all down and clean myself without a peep

The wounds afflicted by you are kinda bittersweet
The hole inside my heart hurts
But I hold you dearly
Hey, dont shoot the messenger
I only asked you first
So drop the hate and just take what's worth

swamp & cxltmoon:

Let’s soak up this moment before we collide
(before we collide)
And collect every thought that we’ve lost over time 
While I brace for the impact and you aim your sights 
(While I brace for the impact)
At the hideous creature I’m keeping inside of my-
Self
Before we collide
Brace for impact


The Hideous Creature [prod. cxrter & irby]

Vails x Mackk - not so special
Prod. By Mackk
Vocals from vails 
Lyrics below:

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

Yeah yeah I break down when the world gets loud
Yeah yeah Smile on my face but I’m not proud
Yeah yeah I’m just a ghost in a fragile shell
Yeah yeah Been through heaven, but I stayed in hell

I been runnin’ from the pain I feel inside,
Smile on my face but it’s all a disguise,
Bottle it up, yeah, I keep it in tight,
Pray for the day that I’ll finally feel right

You see hope where I see my flaws,
I see cracks where you see no walls,
I keep falling no hands to hold,
Heart too numb, it’s already cold

It’s already cold it’s already cold
And now I’m freezing, now you’re leaving
Now I’m grieving baby why you leaving me 

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

#rap #melodic #vails

Not so special

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

prod. oliver01

lyrics:
went from black and white to multicolor
look at the moon its doing something to me
to be honest half the time i barely even bothered
i let the art consume me
immortalize me
oh i've been trying
its like its clockwork
im on a different timing
steady grinding
still just tryna find me
i turn down every offer
and i swear that no one likes me
get the urge to go in hiding
but i'll miss the sun
i been inside for too long
i dont know why i do what i do 
every time i boot up
i trip over everything
i been trying not to
change me
dont you think i ought to
i couldnt do anything
didnt really want to
even on a different line
im never gonna let
the pain
the weight
get to me
im never gonna let
the pain
the weight
get to me
i'll be standing strong either way

moonman (oliver01)

you want me to stay imma stay for you
you want me together imma break
i think you should put the blunt out girl its getting late
and i dont talk about it and its something that you hate
and i hope that you listen to the songs i make when im off alcohol
i put you through so much how did you put up with an asshole
blunt been burning the back of my throat but i feel it in my soul
i cant let you go
i cant let you go

two pills before bed
blue pills in my head
dont remember what i said
its always like that
i forgot my heart girl ill be right back
right track
pick myself up and in that im alone
she said if you ever need me you can call my phone
girl i go to sleep so late and you so early
wouldnt want to waste your time on it its not worth it
wanna shed my mind
baby you can tell me bout your darkest times
never met another crow like you in my life
my life
tonight
can we just talk like we used to baby ill try
baby ill try to stay for you

you want me to stay imma stay for you
you want me together imma break
i think you should put the blunt out girl its getting late
and i dont talk about it and its something that you hate
and i hope that you listen to the songs i make when im off alcohol
i put you through so much how did you put up with an asshole
blunt been burning the back of my throat but i feel it in my soul
i cant let you go
i cant let you go

help me make in the meantime
a few signs in my chest help me make it out my head
down hill dont wanna sled
i dont wanna make it down there before you admit
one chance take my hand
i know that you wont regret
its not the principle its all thats coming with
im not invincible dont shoot me til im dead
i hate the ridicule feel invisible when i hit my bed
its always feel so horrible when im walking outside
maybe maybe i dont get no sunlight cuz i wanna -
i would rather wrap up in my sheets i wish ur here tho
maybe next year ill see clear and youll be here i hope
i hit a roundabout my maps say dont exist
i try hard to make it there in time but you dont know where i am
i wont make it this time ill say that im in my head
i been in in way too long im sorry everything i missed

its getting late (p. under the maple tree)

i love u deadwood

[wraith]
Friend
I’m seeing red
You took the words right out my head
And yet again
I make a mess of what is left
The way I tend
Take the punch out of my breath
My heart out of my chest

Darling you just wanna tempt me
Okay
Why’d we have to bet it all on today
I just wish that you would mean the words that you say
Praying that we let what’s meant to be fade

You
left me strangling on words
So I’m left coughing up the verses
What is it worth?
What is it worth?
What is it-

I guess you’re the enemy
I try to see what’s happening next
Y-y-you mangle intentions
With your hands on my neck
E-Easy prey to deception
And I’m caught in the trap
Yeah I keep falling like that

[vampy]
you said trust the pain it'll pass
but i've been counting ghosts in the glass
half empty bottles 
late night calls 
scrolling through my fucking downfall

and i hate how you still smile that way
when i told you that i might not stay 
know your ego is death
rip my heart out my chest
swear your love is a curse
vampy, blood on your neck

i tried
i lied
gave up
two times
saw you
go by
your eyes
like knives

soul numb
i died
can’t run
can’t hide
the truth
won’t slide
it cuts
inside

Friend, I see the fire in your eyes
Burning bridges while we live in lies
Every word you spit, it cuts like a knife
I’m just trying to hold on, survive the night

if you read this when i'm gone don't cry
really i'm just tired of being alive
deadwood forest gave up
kicked the chair and said goodbye

red w/ vampy (cxrter x ryan kelly)

living like this w merlot (lostcage)

💀🪵

im so tired

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