august

i hope ur doing well

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
mixed/mastered by me
quote from spice and wolf <3

Lyrics:

oh, i been feelin lately, the hole you left in my cardiac
i guess you could say it, but i really want the privilege
every conversation we're having always feels frivolous
oh yea you think her tongues sharp, just wait until the knife comes
i really hope he loves you, in the same way that i did
cause i gave half my life in pursuit of what you said
blood been pumpin faster, she a heart attacker
these chains around my ventricles shackle me to the chapel

don't wanna break it down but i got words for you baby
this sonnet i'm singing, oh it don't do it justice
oh, im so full of rage uhh, all i feel is hate now
every syllable from your mouth feels fuckin disgustin
i can't shed now, my tears have burned away
oh my passionate admiration for ya, has only turned to disdain

[bridge]

my heart's been disfigured by the shadow of a sinner
every time you text me oh my sanity runnin thinner
we were meant to be but baby we can never be
cause i see right through you and every lie ya said to me
you thought of yourself as knowledgeable and worldly
but honestly you're as immature as it gets
and with every nerve ending in my body
i wanna be loved in the same way i love another

clearly you dont see me
heart's green with bleeding envy
i see right through you chest untempered glass
even the holy blessed temple won't offer sanctuary to your ass
everything you wrought, was of your own accord
and honestly i think you left cause you were bored
and that might just be fine if i could get you out my mind
striving for that point where i don't love you anymore

cardiac_arrest (secre x heyrick)

i just wanted to know ft. spookybands (gaxillic)

lyrics

why u facing away like that
i cant tell how u feel when im looking at ur back
i been smoking on that pack
to numb the way i feel
nothing feels real
feel like henry cavil
the way i wish i had a heart of steel
got my feelings locked up
baby u can crack the seal
dont wanna pick the glock up
so instead i crack the seal
in these true religion jeans
praying jesus take the wheel

pulling up in true religion shorts
me and amo number one but pouring fours
youll never catch us shopping at a store
she said why u got a shirt with a sword?
shield on my heart gotta protect my dignity
if this dont work then well meet again like serendipity
im a rat but its only cuz im bout my cheese
took too many milligrams and then i started tweaking
i know im not a hero but im not a villian
i pray that i dont die before i make a living
but i stopped crying when i started sipping
im praying jesus take the wheel because im fucking drifting

why u facing away like that
i cant tell how u feel when im looking at ur back
i been smoking on that pack
to numb the way i feel
nothing feels real
feel like henry cavil
the way i wish i had a heart of steel
got my feelings locked up
baby u can crack the seal
dont wanna pick the glock up
so instead i crack the seal
in these true religion jeans
praying jesus take the wheel

kiddamo + notahero // true religion (prod. kenzee)

produced by rrarebear & lxst boy

-lyrics-
(Lxst Boy)
Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

And don't
Say you're not strong enough
Cause I know God is working on the both of us
And it shows
I can feel your voice vibrating my bones
When you sing while you dance in my coat
Oh, girl you look so beautiful
Perfect timing, almost like you were a miracle
I was made for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

(KID E$s)
Folding my papers, I made a crane
Look, ripped out pages
I'll sing the same hook
Over and over
Hate when I'm sober
Love when I'm high, but I hate when it's over
Love that you hate me, loved in a daydream
Fall in a spaceship, fall in a grave thing
Living life with my eyes, love-frozen
I'll be filling planes, last thrown up from

(Lxst Boy)
Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

Paper Planes w/ KID E$s

Say you'll be there for me
Promise you care for me

It all started with a kiss how'd it end up like this
Girl you grew on my heart like a cyst
Got me attached I can't love another bitch yeah
But when it really comes down to it
Are you gonna stick to my side
Baby are you really down for this
Cause I swear to you girl I will try
I got used to my past loves past friends
Left them in the past tense
They all threw my trust to the side
Back then I would swallow pills
Right along with my pride
Getting high don't pay the bills
With these lyrics I'll try
Nowadays I keep my circle tight and my focus right
Cause you know they want a piece of the pie
They asked what happened to the old you
That fucker has died
I buried him the moment I decided to try

If your intentions are parasitic I ain't your host
You can't lie to me
I can see right through your hoax
So now you know if you earned my trust you must hold it close
If you break it you've lost it then it is adios

It all started with a kiss how'd it end up like this
Girl you grew on my heart like a cyst
Got me attached I can't love another bitch yeah
But when it really comes down to it
Are you gonna stick to my side
Baby are you really down for this
Cause I swear to you girl I will try

I just been working to the penthouse from the ground floor
The way I kill each day you'd think I'm gearing up for war
Expecting less and doing more can open up some doors
So baby are you sticking around for it
Just tell me now if you think you're gonna forfeit
Cause I won't lie I've been played too many times I can't afford it
I found love in different eyes and the pain they left was metamorphic

if i gave u my heart [prod. drecyy]

(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

when will i learn

etc (prod jae) *throw away*

lyrics:
no one got your back, like
swear its just a fact, like
swear ill get the bag right

they aint never see the vision, now they asking who that
same ones that laughed at me now watching, group chat
broke boy dreams turned ghost, i had to move that
pain in my chest, but the hustle where my mood at

i just wanna roll it up
clouds in my lungs feeling out of touch
life move fast, i dont do too much
weight on my chest, tryna keep it up

no one got your back, like
swear its just a fact, like
swear ill get the bag right
i been in the trap like
tryna make it stack right
running out my past life
pray i never backslide

i been running from my old ways
i been counting up the long days
im hoping itll all pay
i been counting up the long days

they aint never see the vision, now they asking who that
same ones that laughed at me now watching, group chat
broke boy dreams turned ghost, i had to move that
pain in my chest, but the hustle where my mood at


when will i learn

wstdtime