mistake maker

HELL N BAK

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

@xam @lil_yung_pharaoh @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ug4VQPXCGxNfqMIxwh2xd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/bad-thoughts-feat-lil-yung-pharaoh-single/1464634124
YouTube: https://youtu.be/qjjQ49p3xmY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t  know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

[Verse 2: Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

BAD THOUGHTS (feat. Lil Yung Pharaoh) [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@qawikamri

LYRICS:-
QAWI KAMRI
start and drive the car
you've been on my mind
going to your house
you got my heart

can I have yours?
will not waste your time
life on the line
can I stay the night?

can I spend the night?
we gon' vibe all night
gon' treat you right
please dont leave my side

can I stay the night?
we gon' love all night
gon' treat you right
like it's your first time

she says "I don't bite" 
i said i dont mind
you can leave a mark
right here with a spark

there's good in my heart, 
you found it in the dark
you still stayed when its hard
you still stayed when its hard

this is how it starts
shoot it like a dart
loving is an art
you got it in your cards

i just wanna hold ya
i just wanna touch ya
show you that I love you
show you that I'm down for you

imma just pull you closer
carry the weight on your shoulder
treat you the same when im older
you can always come over

you can spend the night
we gon' vibe all night
gon' treat you right
i wont leave your side

you can stay the night
we gon' love all night
gon' treat you right
like it's your first time

Stay The Night

Chemically Imbalanced Feat. Safehold & Sleye (Prod. Dee B)

guccihighwaters - little things

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

Lyrics:

she said she wanna hear my voice, so I'm going a capella
we could rockout at the show, you could take me to Coachella
all this money coming in it dont mean nothin but its hella
every time i put in work it's like I need a new umbrella

-its boutta raindown, you could make a bet that we all eating
i dont play now, know i got ambitions past the ceiling
every day now, live outside my body say I'm dreaming
what you say now, pack up all your bags and say I'm leaving

I be chillin with your ghost like im legion
there ain't nothin change at all throughout the seasons
i could stay up late and kick it with my demons
i could fall asleep right now without a reason

I could get you on the bed, shawty you heard what I said
But you wont stay till the morning cause I'm busy getting bread
So I guess I'll stay alone I'm like a zombie half dead
I could float and I could sink and I could run you through my head

Run U Thru My Head

run u thru my head

hold somebody (feat. powfu & sarcastic sounds)

1/2 of @prsonprson

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