Messed up (prod. lostcage)

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LYRICS:
Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Same old road nothing for me to follow
left my bed im stepping on my shadow
hurts like hell, I guess I'll take some pills

A bit of joy from faces I will borrow
place it on a blade and cut away my sorrow
fool myself cause ignorance is bliss

A migraine, knocked on my door for some company
Am I insane, asked myself so i am probably
It's Sunday, so more time for me to waste inside
I've lost my way, but tonight again I'll let it slide

Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Broken glass form last month reminded me I must be dead
A little fly disturbs my sleep, I guess I could call it a friend
I put my dreams inside a bottle to pretend I never dreamt
I'd try to save myself but my body feels heavier than cement

Living in a place so cold
getting used to being alone
every minute checking on my phone
See no sun i see no sky
I've forgotten how to cry
6AM I'm craving for a smile

Spotify

Walls Tell The Best Stories (Prod. williguess)

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

@xam @lil_yung_pharaoh @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ug4VQPXCGxNfqMIxwh2xd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/bad-thoughts-feat-lil-yung-pharaoh-single/1464634124
YouTube: https://youtu.be/qjjQ49p3xmY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t  know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

[Verse 2: Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

BAD THOUGHTS (feat. Lil Yung Pharaoh) [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

lyrics:
so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

wake up in my bed
with the thoughts stuck in my head
my wrists are looking red
cuz of all the blood i shed
texting you at 2
baby you know what to do
call me up again
i wanna hear your precious voice
let me haunt your dreams
with the time that we were teens
hear my final song
while you hit your parents bong
i know that you don't care
i'm wishing i was there

so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

do it for the fans
never switching plans
heart in my own hands
throwing up a couple grams
you never even cared
talking shit like i'm not there
but i see you in his hair
like the weed that's in the air
baby i know you've been playing me
you got me torn in my heart
watching it all fall apart
watching it all fall apart

tell me that you miss me

SPOTIFY

tell me that u miss me

prod. @colethekingx

lyrics:

if you ain’t riding my wave
you can get out of my way
no i don’t fuck with you
and no i don’t hear what you say
we are not on the same frequency
i’m steady climbing
while you are facetiously 
looking at life in a box
how convenient 
when i’m living life in a way
inconceivably to you

bitch you don’t know me
so listen to me closely
i’m growing impatient with you always talking like you know my story 
when i killed the old me
resurrected i’m holy
but if you don’t know how to stop
bitch i can be unholy

you’re dead to me
regardless
get it through your head
before im heartless

i don't fuck with the fuck shit
no
that is not the way i function

fuck the drama
wont let you get the best of me
i’m cuttin off 
all this negative energy
i

i’m cuttin it off

fuck the drama
wont let you get the best of me
i’m cuttin off 
all this negative energy
i

i’m cuttin it off

bitch you don’t know me
so listen to me closely
i’m growing impatient with you always talking like you know my story 
like i killed the old me
resurrected i’m holy
but if you don’t know how to stop
bitch i can be unholy

you’re dead to me
regardless
get it through your head
before i'm heartless

you're dead to me
you're dead to me

dead to me (prod. cole the king)

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

prod. @oceanonthebeat

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior. i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

i think it might be best for me to let you go
but if you ever love me you should let me know
i know you really want him guess i'm fine with that
be careful with your heart cause i'm not good at that

picking up the pieces, 
does he hold you while you're sleepin?
heard he loves you does he mean it?
does he care about your dreams and
all your goals and how you'll meet em
does he call you ever evening
is he making sure you're eating
do you love him how he loves you is it even fucking even

i won't wait around for him to break your heart
i can't mend your soul i don't know where i'd start
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior, i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

jaded (prod. ocean)

Vocals: sadgods
Mix/Master: sadgods
Prod: sadgods

Stream this track on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/album/1t0CMMnsqgFf2sfECzDkzO?si=cuB2NObfRE2ok_Fod1dXiQ

I Don't Mind U

not worth saving

with @cloudhighcomeup
produced by @prodbybrody

lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-alive-lyrics

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alive (ft. cloudhighcomeup)

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

1/2 of @prsonprson

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