Yo XAM im a big fan i love your work .ur voice is sooo good i need to collab with u 

I love your music it's very chil ❤ keep doing it 

5/23/22

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

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heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

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guitar played by acey
rest prod by me

how can i not talk to you everytime i overthink
think of the words that you've been spewing
your right arm is covered in ink
found my charm and i let him in
i wanna know why you ruin it
found my heart and it might be pink
i wanna know why u pursuing him

i wanna know if you want me dear
raise our love but never our fears
i dont know if you want him here
recycle what you said to me ill make you go a floot
remember what you did to me i fucking hate you
do you hate me too, well hey i fucking hate you
i kissed a girl, i fucking love you

your eyes so nice i love them
im on ice when i talk to your best friend
she told me i suck i should leave you
back off i know my wrongs due
sunflower we're in orbit
you a lone wolf and i want it
and i want you babe he got you and i hate fate
slits in his brows your attracted to that
im here with a towel conflicted to scrap
i need out, resist all that cap
im bugging out i hate you for that
ill tough it out, ill make you look bad
if you loved me and if you want home

you touch on my neck and girl it felt like home
now im filled w stressed now and now im fueled w bones
you said you wouldent go, but now im all alone
you touch on my neck and girl it felt like home

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

prod me

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you don't think twice when i tell you i've grown all alone
was i the one that you wanted before it begun

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
destroy me leave me out, you annoy me your a cow
got some grass to feed, hear me out
you on the fully feed, on the ground?

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you hide everything you do i'm inside of everything i knew
wipe tears behind pine, get back beside my life
i love you how fuck me then tell me to be fine

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted

produced by @user-374890447 and @sinxi
lyrics
oh no it hasnt even been long
since you have been in my arms
hasnt even been long
nothing truly made sense till you came into my life
that was intense, when you kissed me for the last time
i never really understood what it meant to feel alive
i thankyou for fucking up my life
damn shes gone forever ill never get to know
if we'll last here beside my window
i said its now or never or ill dip bro
but your the one that left me, oh 

really hit me hard that i been needing you
wear a bandage but it be bleeding through
sent you a package cant you just see it through
can you open it can you just plead into
lot of oak in here maybe some trees in you
i've got an open ear that needs attending to
its very open here its very nice out of my room
its very lovely but i lose sight of you
can you not think its me losing my mind
i just wanna see you in my life
im imagining things you wouldent like
i just wanna give you a piece of my time
listen up im alone im alone all the time
got a few friends but they're online
need to go out better my life
its such a joke i stay online
IM SUCH A JOKE ALL THE TIME
EVERYONE KNOWS MY LIFE
I NEED YOU CLOSE YOUR MINE
OH PLEASE DONT YOU KNOW YOU'RE DIVINE
that way that your hair moves
freckles presented infront of me
i know that your special 
can you come home

home

mixed and mastered by @notmorgn

@supachefm 🎱✨🕸

always been violent 
never just learned to keep quiet 
ion like turning the page
struggle to pick up my eyelids
i keep on hiding in home
if u don't like me just go
i keep on trying to stay
but you don't want me all alone
time keeps on turning away 
why do you always need space?
i don't care about the times that you fucked up wit him 
you've been fucking wit me to my face
follow my vision
 and dick down these bitches 
idgaf what the people will say
its in my imprint 
theres something thats different 
the way that i sing and the way that i sway
you keep on trying to copy my plays
i cant see shit i am lost in a haze
all of my life ive been smoking away
tripping on chemicals deep in my brain

slide in that bitch and i tear up the sides
riding the wave you aint catching the vibes
i hit her up every time that I'm high
what if i told you i wanted to die?

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every time that im high (prod. notmorgn)

prod. @notmorgn
@guccihighwaters is my dad

rainy days are our favorite days

guccihighwaters - im so sick of this (tbb remix)

@qawikamri @cpt_sad @lonnellsuave

mixed and mastered by @qawikamri
beat by @lonnellsuave

LYRICS:
i don't feel safe in my own room.
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-i-dont-feel-safe-in-my-own-room-lyrics

i don't feel safe in my own room

I Don't Feel Safe in My Own Room (w Yesterday) (prod. Lonnell Suave)

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

all alone in my room
i'm feeling down again
i don't know what to say
it's getting bad again
all i know is i need to try my best
to get out of this hole i put myself in
she's my everything
she's all i've ever wanted
when i am with her
i feel like i'm important
i feel alive when i'm in her arms
she makes me want to live
how did we get this far
without me ruining it all
i'm scared that i'll ruin it all
but i swear i try my best
but i'm always such a mess
yea
i wish that i could love myself as much i love you
you're my everything
you're everything i need
and you're everything i want
when i'm down i tend to hide
but i'm tryna change
i wish i didnt hate myself
somedays i feel like i should just kill myself
but then i think of you and it all feels worth it
but right now i feel worthless
i feel so worthless
you make it worth it
just hold me
tell me that i'll be okay

it's getting bad again

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it's getting bad again (prod. lil biscuit)

@luvrrboi
ty mysticfox4 for the beautiful color work on my drawing<3

Lyrics:
singing SleepyHead but I’m still woke
head down on the kick like a pillow
face down on a brick, ayo
Yung Luv aka Lumo
catch me gliding on the breeze like a frisbee
she’s shaking at her knees when she with me
cuz I’m cool
but ill give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last   

at least love that i don’t expect to
cuz ive expected in the past and its been regretful
you know who you are, i still don’t forgive you 
i  can’t forget you

partly cuz you took my jacket and I know that you meant to
now i watch my closet close every time a new girl steps into my bedroom

It’s hard to share anything with anyone,
but I do
cuz I’m cool
and I’ll give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last

Heart Attack/Give Me Back My Jacket

HEARTATTACK/GIVEMEBACKMYJACKET

FoLlOW SoRroW HeRe: @sorrow_bringer

Follow two 22 here https://soundcloud.com/twotwntytwo

Art by twitter.com/endmypainnow

I been feeling like Chester 

And it’s making my Chest hurt

Came in the game with something to say 

Put some money away and let the rest burn 

Cause money won’t heal your soul, hell no, it just shows the fake friends you gotta let go 

Hope I never see you at one of my shows 

Trying to adjust to a life on hold 

(Two 22)
Everyday wake up the same
Sadness stuck inside my brain
driving fast and switching lane
nothing left to numb the pain

Wanted you forevermore
Now you’re gone and I’m so sore
Crushed me like tyrannosaur
Traveled, axon, gone in store

I lost my faith under surface
I’m gone, and baby I have no purpose
So numb, girl, I just cannot feel shit
Depression, through my skin, I can transmit

Where is the light when the night comes?
Crying inside of a chasm
falling away im in a dark glum
Feeling smaller than an atom

(Lil Xtra) 

But I’ve been having my best year 

Things are going just fine I hear 

So why is that that every time I open my eyes I’m barely holding back these tears?



Cause  this life ain’t copacetic 

Don’t need you to tell me I’m pathetic 

Stress been steady cranked to 11 and I’m way past trying to get into heaven so



..I been thinking bout Chester..

And how our success is measured 

Given so much on earth to treasure what’s really enough to keep your world together?



Cause there’s a lot of that In myself I see 

Sadness clinched inside my teeth 

I could have all I want and need 

AND IT COULD STILL COME BACK FOR ME



INHERENT SADNESS MY DISEASE 

IT NEVER PASSES CAN YOU PLEASE 

SEND SOME WEED OR SEND SOME HELP

CAUSE I CANT SAVE ME FROM  MYSELF 



I MIGHT SELF DESTRUCT TODAY

BUT IF I DIE THAN IT’S OKAY 

AT LEAST I GOT THIS CHANCE TO SAY 

 IT’S MY FAULT ANYWAY

L(Chester) I (Bennington) T (Was) A (Murdered) - Feat. Two 22 - Prod. Sorrow Bringer

This song means a lot to me, I really hope you all enjoy it <3
@retrohills
mix and master by: @itshuskai

Lyrics-

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

Ayy, yeah I was never yours
Don’t act like you love me if you aint gonna give more x3

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me

OTHER PLATFORMS

I Just Wanted Somebody To Hold Me (Prod. RetroHills)

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

I want to get better but I don't know what the fuck to do...

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @youngburial
art by: @digitalyams

Lyrics-
I’m standing on this road alone
it’s impossible to feel anything when you don’t know how to cope
No, I don’t want to let you in
If I let you peek inside I’m afraid I’ve let them win 
I’ll never let them win
I’ll never let them win
Oh now I’m wasting my time, wasting my time with you
I don’t know how to tell you but I, don’t wanna be friends with you 
I’m living a lie, I’m living my life in blue 
I want to get better but I, don’t know what the fuck to do
So I write down all my wrongs and I burn them
I’ve done people wrong, yeah I’ve hurt them
That’s why I can’t let you be my friend
I’m afraid that I’ll hurt you again
So I write down all my wrongs and I burn them
I’ve done people wrong, yeah I’ve hurt them
That’s why I can’t let you be my friend
I’m so scared that I’ll hurt you again
I’m embarrassed 
I’m ashamed
I’ll never heal if I never admit that I have this pain x4

how to cope

how to cope (Prod. Fats'e youngburial)

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

XAM

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