right person, wrong time.

i wish you the best even though i wanna die
i dont wanna live in this life if im a lie
im hitting random guys up online
just to maybe spite you and have what you have
but its not working
why is it not working?
they said "tryins' perfect"
but tryins' only hurtin
me more
im so bored
of trying so long for nothing

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

ive never been more ready, or maybe im not
cause ive learned life ignores you when youre blocked
just like your love did
and i know that it hurts, baby, you dont have to 
explain to me how bad it sucks
staying up, waiting, draining, fuck
and maybe this is compensation
but online is all that i have 
and ever will.. yeah ever will.

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

i tried to feel love for so long
everything i tried is soloft
im so gone

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully
all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

all i will ever have is me.
and all you will ever have is him.
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully..

so long for nothing. (heydium)

New single “ESCAPE” with Swiif

(Lyrics)
I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 

Tik tok on the clock 
Know you’ll call me on the dot
Tryna mess up all my thoughts again
Still tryna shoot your shot
Cause I never hit block
So I guess it’s my fault again 
Conversing with ghost 
For some conversation 
I could never wait 
I’m so impatient 
Seeing your silhouette 
Inside of my head
And I can’t forget that

I keep on tryna rush into love
To escape you
But no matter how I hard I try
I could never hate you 

I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 
Cause there’s no escape 
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
Since august 
There’s no escape
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
We need to stop it 

(Swiiif)
Tryna fill in the void
But you won’t come home 
I’ve been stuck in my ways
I’ve been all alone 
My head hurts I’ve been so sick
So nauseous when did it end up like this
Smoke and mirrors 
I just need to find some clarity 
Everything I do I keep the thought
Of you right next to me
I promise I can’t look back I won’t 
Everytime I look at you I choke
On the words you hurt me with 
I feel so hurt love sick 
Everything that I do
Reflects when I miss you 

I keep on tryna rush into love
To escape you
But no matter how I hard I try
I could never hate you 

I could never escape 
I could never run away 
Every time I try 
Know past is catching up with me 
I could never escape 
I could never run away
Every time you call
Know you’re just hurting me 
Cause there’s no escape 
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
Since august 
There’s no escape
From all this
We’ve been filling the void
We need to stop it

Stream on Spotify!

ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif) [prod. Immortal]

@xam @prsonprson

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ziotsoQJ9Sc1hnBodbesL?si=d731d90e037d49d7
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/is-there-anyone/1614267269?i=1614267270
YouTube: https://youtu.be/nUXYJ86kbGo

[Verse 1]
Lately I’ve been hating everything that I’ve been making
I’ve lost the motivation for the dreams that I’ve been chasing
I know this ain’t a race, no, but all I’ve done is racing
I’m noticing how everything I’ve built is slowly fading

I’m dedicating all my time to overthinking,
Drinking & the heavy medications I’ve been taking
I’m slowing down and breaking
I’m tripping out like I’m on a vacation

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

[Verse 2]
All I want is for someone to understand who I am
Someone to sit there in the silence by my side and hold my hand
But all I have is me, myself and I and my imaginary friends
And a broken hourglass that’s running out of sand

Life is tricky, time is ticking, life’s a ticking time bomb
I’m dying slowly like the battery on my phone
I’m alone, I don’t like to be lonely
But I’m pushing away everyone that say that they love me

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

IS THERE ANYONE? (feat. PERSONPERSON)

[i noticed the gentle breathing of the trees this morning]

sleeping...

see u soon..!

cover art by Kensy Ramey - https://twitter.com/kensyrose

produced by chxse bank

LYRICS:
take off your skin
and show me what is underneath 

held hostage in my own life who said it was nice
it’s alright you’re fine i know it’s hard just give it time 
don’t fuckin lie
toxic at my core i feel it’s sure that i am cold
my neck hanging from a rope
i find peace when on the road
mundane lines and speeds of gold
i’ve been over
the process time and time again
possession all my mortal sin
now the closure
keep your composure
this scripture’s over
i’ll show you broken 


dead ends
no amends
i killed all of my best friends
bodies lying in the depths of shattered memories
the entropy involved to get this deep is so unsettling  
how can i live with you if i cannot live with me
show your true morality
with curtains closed who can you be
show that true natural form embracing no calm it’s all storm
i chase amenities from before to fill a gap that lives in my soul 
i’m so young but feel i’m so old
cryptid centuries in this form

i’ve died in your arms a thousand times
your arms a thousand times
how am i still alive
i’ve died in your arms a thousand times
your arms a thousand times
now it’s your turn to die in mine

what the fuck i’m supposed to write about when i don’t really do shit
how am i supposed to sing these notes when i took my lungs abused them
how am i supposed to fight these walls when every hour they inching 
closer to compress my chest and suffocate self image 
take my vision
bastardize beyond comprehension
empower lies antagonize
naive once now thoughts are different
my power lies within my eyes
a window into honesty a fracturing frame 
every face looks the same
my shame exposed apparent pain
you hear the thunder now fuck this rain 

[i noticed the gentle breathing of the trees this morning 
it’s a curse to see these breaths
a curse to grow up with the innocent disregard for all breaths but your own and one day realize that the air you unappreciatively inhale does not belong to you
or anyone else for that matter
the illusion of safety is shattered and although the gift of free will has been bestowed upon you
you haven’t the faintest idea of what to do with it

and so you sit]

i am waiting on the day i feel alive
my soul loses will to survive 
exposition in a lullaby
softened notes to show my woes 
know it’s time to let me go
my growth imposed on those i love
i hope you’re proud of me

when i die in your arms wait until tomorrow to wake me up [prod. chxse bank]

produced by Lxst Boy and Scotty Splash
mixed by Lxst Boy & backyard beetle
mastered by Lxst Boy
@backyardbeetle
@scottysplash

-lyrics-
(Lxst Boy)
i wanna speak my mind but its too late so i cant now
you say i talk too much, you just mad i got the bread now
put you to the side so i can finally get some rest now
vent to this mic right before i break down
hindsights 20/20 if you ask me
and 9 times out of 10 im just lacking
price tag on my ransom it keep stacking
oh its not that bad, its bittersweet so take it back

taking it back to when you truly loved me
im not mad but you knew that you could trust me
bottles multiplying on my nightstand
getting mad throwing fits oh im fighting
oh i dont even know
take it from the top, i think i missed a note
cannot take a hint, at this game im not no pro
cannot take a chance, i just face it then i throw

i wanna speak my mind but its too late so i cant now
you say i talk too much, you just mad i got the bread now
put you to the side so i can finally get some rest now
vent to this mic right before i break down
hindsights 20/20 if you ask me
and 9 times out of 10 im just lacking
price tag on my ransom it keep stacking
oh its not that bad, its bittersweet so take it back

(backyard beetle)
yeah these monsters tryna tempt me i know
but for them, yeah i am too cold
every day trying my best but im too bold
yeah im really thinking they know
we crossed paths
we break time
i just feel that we're on the same side
i dont care
if i cry
i just wanna make it to the other side

(Lxst Boy)
i wanna speak my mind but its too late so i cant now
you say i talk too much, you just mad i got the bread now
put you to the side so i can finally get some rest now
vent to this mic right before i break down
hindsights 20/20 if you ask me
and 9 times out of 10 im just lacking
price tag on my ransom it keep stacking
oh its not that bad, its bittersweet so take it back

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talk2much (feat. backyard beetle) (lxst boy x scotty splash)

Don't Think

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Artists
@iamhypx
@krynoze
@thomasreidmusic

Lyrics
maybe i just need a friend
baby can we just pretend
that i’ll always stay in your heart

cause every time i close my eyes
we don’t seem so far behind
but when i wake up it’s all so dark

giving up
giving up
no, i’ll never be enough
guess i’ll never be enough for you

giving up
giving up
yeah, i gave you all my trust
guess you were someone i never knew

wish that i could let you go
avoiding picking up the phone
deleting all the pictures we had together

i know i’ll never get you back
but i’m still living in the past
remember when we thought we’d last forever?

giving up
giving up
no, i’ll never be enough
guess i’ll never be enough for you

giving up
giving up
yeah, i gave you all my trust
guess you were someone i never knew

Hypx, Krynoze - Giving Up (ft. Thomas Reid)

lyrics:

don't blame me
for my aching
shivers are racing all over my spine
i don't recognize that i'm out of my time
too busy losing myself in my vices
wanted to come but i wasn't invited
maybe i'm a different type of person
maybe i'm a little bit overwhelmed
maybe i feel like i deserve it
but frankly i'd rather be in hell
than where i am at the moment
i can't really focus
i'm losing my way
but no one seems like they notice

cut me up deep but you won't see blood
only long gone dreams and a long dead love
i'm sick of only ever being lost not found
imma change my name, imma scream out loud like
oh,

{kana}

I can not figure out
Life it just brings me down 
Girl if im not around
Am i the one you think about?
Pills i take dont help 
This
Pain i feel wont melt
It
Feels so never ending
Wish that i could end it

Girl i know im terrible
So nauseating im horrible 
bore you out 
Such an ugly person be around
Scars cover over everything
cut me open im almost broken
Shoulda never left my heart so open
Really left me feeling paralyzed
Swear to god why am i alive?
Sunlight beating on my eyes
Another day putting on a smile
Wish i didnt have to live this life
Every drug i take to medicate it
Live my life confused im so sedated
Numb to everything and god i hate it
Someone save me i feel like im breaking

Oh, w/ kana (neverforever)

Deozi x Blondi - jesteś wszystkim w moich snach

Deozi x Blondi - jesteś wszystkim w moich snatch

Artist : ILUVTRAGEDY
Songwriter : ILUVTRAGEDY
All links and social medias in bio

emotionless love story

@xam

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5saAvS95N56c9cwhvkmKrv?si=moK-kNzWT-GlliDUhZPMCg
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/wake-me-up-single/1551757320
YouTube: https://youtu.be/O3NhMg7B8zw

[Chorus]
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough

[Verse]
I spend a lot of time inside this mind of mine (yeah)
But I don’t even know (no) know the reason why
My world is worse than the world outside (yeah)
I should go outside and smile for a while before I die (yeah)
‘Cos I hate this place, this place is not a place I’d like to be in
If I could wake up I would open up my eyes and leave
It all behind me to be a normal human being

I’m feeling like I’m stuck in a world full of hate
This world is far from a wonderful place ‘cos
Everyday feels the same
I’m feeling like a lone wolf in a Zoo I just want to escape
This cage but I can't ‘cos I’ve lost the keys
And I’m hoping someone hears the screams
That I'm letting out and let's me out of here

[Chorus]
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough

WAKE ME UP

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM

IS THERE ANYONE? (feat. PERSONPERSON)

XAM

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