https://open.spotify.com/track/7HttolShbpfDrbJEPFSdAz?si=0f52c823cacb42b0

i’m so attached to it
the way that it makes me feel 
cut caffeine, no nicotine 
your body is quivering 
would you wake up now?

it keeps ringing, ringing 
my diaphragm’s wishing one day i’ll stop suffocating 

would you wake up 
would you wake up 
i’ve had enough of feeling so loved 
why does it ache
when i see your face 
if i upset you will this go away 
i promise my heart and everything else
one day i’ll choose what to do in this hell 
all of my options are broken 
i’m hopeful for shards not yet seen
my hands are scratching what’s beneath
i’m looking far for 
someone please please please 
make these decisions for me

C8H10N4O2

guitar by @spagdus prod & vox by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/6HrGuhMPwV1Ff9OlQI48r2?si=1fb97c51d0f443d0

no im not done yet
i got a thousand things to do
and only you know all of them
one minor setback
exstinguished every speck of hope
i had to know whats coming next

the trees are burning down
you never heard a sound from me
its time to put this plot to rest

you wouldnt know if you saw it
a dense array of every path
you know youve come to hold so dear
but everything begins right here
that sense of pride when u look back
at all the plans the dreams the friends
the loves the lives that fell apart
but you still have a beating heart

the trees are burning down
you never heard a sound from me
its time to put this plot to rest

its been two weeks since the last time i
wore out my finger tips on my
phone screen tryna get a word from you
only to fail
im restless i got no sleep but i
focus on the paiting hung on the
drywall tryna see a piece that was
not there before
the skyline embeds itself on my
eyelids sends blinking lights to my
retina contorts in ways that i
cant think to share
the ride home leaves me in fear of what
waits there its ticking down like a
time bomb just to see a thing that was
not there before

beating heart

i’m so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings
my breath isn’t as heavy 
when your grip seems to weaken 
around my body 
is this summer just another season 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

you’re so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings 
your heart isn’t as heavy 
when i’m not within it
do you still want me 
when i forget all my promises 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like

a million stars manor

endreceiver

another under core remix

bah humbug!

pistol

1 of 1 . produced by quedronol ~~~~ vocals+lyrics by quedro & @ntmusiclol

I'll stay awake and I'll listen to the sound of the alarm clock
then I'll start to feel bad, cause I'm lying too
maybe too much, but I just can't hold on to something that doesn't know who I am
I don't think that i even want to get up anymore
I'll tell it to stop

they're calling, they're calling
ignore them, you're too weak
I can't fall again, enough has passed
since autumn came, might be my last
and every time the leaves fell, I'd weep
cause it's wasted time
and I've wasted mine

you beat yourself up for nothing at all
you beat yourself up for nothing at all

you come to me when you want to get away from yourself
if this is punishment, I'll just hurt someone else
nobody knows, why I have to leave everything just cause I think I hurt someone
I don't think that I even want to get out anymore
letting go could be so easy
just tell it to stop

you talk to me when you want to get away from yourself
if this is punishment, then I'll just hurt someone else
(cause it's wasted time, and I've wasted mine)
and I'll tell it to stop

endreceiver

moony