i rly cant make anything right now.. so i make these kind of stuff :/ im having a lot of battles right now and i wish it could all end in a heartbeat

picture from NASA

heartbeat

prod etc by me :@

]]]]]]   i-i-i-illghosts 
my charm is back think i wanna write about u 
im so attached please dont leave here im still new -
- ill deny until i dont have feelings for u i can soak it up
 and say i never thought about u if u get sad ill write about but tbh i dont think that i will tell u
dont talk to me 🤨i like it better when we talk less🤨 but if its ok but in my head we re kinda more than friends
dont wanna see u if u confessed ill guess ur lyingcos i dont think im attractive and i slouch alot am i good enough
i need to get this out my headbut u look good w ur new hair 
]]]]]]

confessionsoftheindenial  this song as a whole is v out of character
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1s8sS-Ezegf1wc8cP7YpnwlUqPS3tusfb/view?usp=sharing


:-] s/o tendō forinspo on jap piano

Charm '~'

find it hard to say
cos words can’t quite explain it
how i feel these days
don’t know how to fake it
though i don’t show my face
believe me when i say 
i’m okay
i’m okay 
i’m okay 
i’m okay 
i’m okay

okay

#voice memo moment

i probably should've lied
i knew you saw the inner parts of me you wished were just a fallacy of yours
i lost my ambitions
i know you thought i was missing the pieces you collected, the image you presented
of me 

how do i forget all the things that you said about how i'd never be close to you
how do i forget all the times i thought you meant all the great things i could be, i can't be
i can't be

slowly learning more than you taught me 
i show you i show you i show you
i show you i show you i show you 

i probably should've lied
i probably should've lied

spite me

[did the world change or did i?]

nice to see you, heres the first track of 2022!
i hope you are prepared for what this year will bring, God knows i certainly am not

this is one of those songs you listen to in bed at night with the lights off. i hope you can understand what im trying to say

lyrics:

i dont know
where time goes
maybe you could tell me why?
i dont show
love or so
maybe you could take your time

.. been thinkin bout my ending as of late
you mean so much to me, i cant explain
i got caught up in some things in my brain
dont wanna lose you in uncertainty

promise i wont hurt you anymore
love, or anymore
hurt you anymore
love, or anymore
anymore
love, or anymore
hurt you anymore
love, or anymore

...
...
...

i dont know
what to do
i wish i could live inside your mind
and im not sure
if i should be ***
did the world change 
or did i?

i swear ive seen this dream before
we're in the cosmos; in the freezing cold
she brought me here, she told me where to go
love is the only thing ill never know

...anymore
love, or anymore
love, or anymore
love, or anymore
anymore
love, or anymore
love, or anymore
love, or anymore

.. falling asleep to your voice
laying alone in the void
i just wish i wasnt real
i just want to be destroyed
(by you)
falling asleep to your voice
laying alone in the void
i just wish i wasnt real
i just want to be destroyed
(by you)

777

ANYMORE: THE SONG OF ENDING

i’m showing you a new flaw
come grab me 
my arms shatter your law
i’m lying 
how does she know my name,
how do you use my name?

break me down another day 
you can come back 
please don’t do that   

meet the wives of my vices 
they know what my own price is

take me inside
and outside
and everywhere in between 
all your hopeless demises
there’s crisis underneath 

i am the only one to hurt (love?) you like this
over and over and over and over

you’ll sell me out, my love, 
my doubt
for my embrace you’d take this route

i never said you could say what i meant

my hands are empty and yours are calling me near 
i see a tempting distraction matching all my fears

should i worry, or should i hurry?

does the silence ever tell
how my heart is holding well
these words won't be enough
my hunger doesn't love
not for a touch

zero

endreceiver

Endless August



Die Stadt ist still, nur ich lieg wach
Zähl die Risse an der Decke viel zu lang
Dein Name hängt mir auf der Zunge
Wie ein Satz, den ich nicht sagen kann
Ich hab gelernt zu funktionieren

Ich bin schlaflos
Zwischen gestern und dem Jetzt
Deine Stimme in meinem Kopf
Sie lässt mich nicht mehr los
Ich bin schlaflos

Ich bin schlaflos
Zwischen gestern und dem Jetzt
Deine Stimme in meinem Kopf
Sie lässt mich nicht mehr los
Ich bin schlaflos

Der Himmel wird langsam hell
Und ich atme ein, ganz sacht
Vielleicht bringt mir dieser Morgen
Was mir die Nacht versagt
Ich bin schlaflos

Schlaflos [Mastered]

stream: https://moony.fanlink.to/hollow

lyrics:

it's falling right into place
all the things that i hate
my days are feeling the same
i watch as nothing changes for me

all the things that i see are slow motion
no movement 
i'm bored of this moment

all the times that i have been away from you i've been away from me too

i don't want to wait 
for when i have to say
that i take up space
it don't feel the same

it don't feel the same
i'm better off learning names
of people i'll never meet
(all the times that i have been away from you i've been away from me too)
ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ

thank u 4 cover art resize @caleblrt <3