prod. by S.J Beatz

mixing+mastering @koro4

(grace)
all the days that we wasted our time
steady thinkin bout whats on my mind
even when i know its not right
hand on the breaks can we take it slow
and i know that you want your control because thats all that you know
red lights look green i dont know what i see in this toxicity
how can i be set free
im tired of the screaming
your answers repeating
dont worry i was just leaving...
leaving you

the hardest thing i have to do is leaving you
when you see me on the street will you recognize me?
i dont know what to do
cause somewhere there is you
i just cant see through
cause i would recognize you

(koro)
full send, my ends
burning
time bends...
it all depends, do you really just wanna be friends
and all the lies just start to blend
lines were crossed lets not pretend
just leave me to the deep end... x2

all the days that we wasted our time
studying me, whats even on my mind?
we taking dark rides...
feet on the breaks, push it steady
you can tell me when your ready

you don't stop at red lights you don't read the signs
intoxicated driving, with some issues on my mind
are you tired of the screaming, are you tired of wasting time?

when you see me across the street, i hope that u say hi...🖤

the hardest thing i have to do is leaving you
when you see me on the street will you recognize me?
i dont know what to do
cause somewhere there is you
i just cant see through
cause i would recognize you

leaving you w/ koro (S.J Beatz)

i'm sorry sorry sorry sorry

https://open.spotify.com/track/5qWbsLol2TDVfNVFcf9025?si=dfe07ce64d784766

lover awaits 

promise i wont take another day 
i wonder oh i wonder 
are my lies so fulfilling 
they never need to see me

i promise oh i promise
my heart is living lawless
i cant tell why you sink in my words 

my heart still aches
for you it breaks

dare i talk about all the things i notice every time 
ill let you live in your bliss at my expense

lover awaits

https://open.spotify.com/track/7HttolShbpfDrbJEPFSdAz?si=0f52c823cacb42b0

i’m so attached to it
the way that it makes me feel 
cut caffeine, no nicotine 
your body is quivering 
would you wake up now?

it keeps ringing, ringing 
my diaphragm’s wishing one day i’ll stop suffocating 

would you wake up 
would you wake up 
i’ve had enough of feeling so loved 
why does it ache
when i see your face 
if i upset you will this go away 
i promise my heart and everything else
one day i’ll choose what to do in this hell 
all of my options are broken 
i’m hopeful for shards not yet seen
my hands are scratching what’s beneath
i’m looking far for 
someone please please please 
make these decisions for me

C8H10N4O2

prod by me

https://soundcloud.com/deadman

Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6GvIvgLWiViZggmS2VLvmr?si=AH-7sMQDR2m_KyfuqNry2A

lyrics:

yonklolz:
i didn't know she was dangerous
playing both sides will get you nowhere and ruin my trust
i think we play these games enough
sick of all the times you've given up
im tired of this love

ones and zeros
love is evil
what do we know
running from the spotlight, i dont wanna be known
(x2)

deadman:
you went and tore my heart to pieces
who would've known you're so conceited?
only care 'bout yourself and nobody else
it's tragic, the way you are
said you wanted love, should've known what was up
when i looked you in your eyes
threw away all my trust, just for "one little fuck"
why am i even surprised
that you did that shit?
guess it's all my fault that i fed into your lies
know i played my part
i should just act smart and move on with my life
im so disgusted
you went and threw me away like i was nothing
sick to my stomach
feels like im stuck on the edge and about to plummet

yonklolz:
ones and zeros
love is evil
what do we know
running from the spotlight, i dont wanna be known
(x2)

dangerous (ft. deadman 死人)

i’m so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings
my breath isn’t as heavy 
when your grip seems to weaken 
around my body 
is this summer just another season 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

you’re so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings 
your heart isn’t as heavy 
when i’m not within it
do you still want me 
when i forget all my promises 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like

a million stars manor

endreceiver

03.
stream on spotify!
https://open.spotify.com/track/3zNWY0ggPdq8rvq1P5PX6g?si=e76ac5dad39e48d6

produced by @johnnyfriend
additional vocals: @baccoboy
heavy inspo from bixby - endlessly

lyrics~

lately i’ve been feeling down
hearts been screaming out loud
i just want the pain away
can’t seem to catch a break
lately i’ve been in my feelings 
and now baby i cannot get u outta my head

baby i can’t decide
baby i can’t decide cuz i’m outta my mind
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to

fall, fall (yeah)
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to
fall, fall
baby ima catch u baby ima catch ur
fall, fall (yeah)
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to
fall, fall
baby ima catch u baby ima catch ur fall

on me i feel under weather 
baby i’m feeling cold think i need my sweater
baby you’ve been wearing it ever since december
to be fair it was cold since september

baby i can’t decide
baby i can’t decide cuz i’m outta my mind
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to

fall, fall (yeah)
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to
fall, fall
baby ima catch u baby ima catch ur
fall, fall (yeah)
baby can u pick me up cuz i'm scared to
fall, fall
baby ima catch u baby ima catch ur fall

HOME IS A PLACE I LOVE <3

FALLING

listen on spotify
https://open.spotify.com/album/7DXqKZcxgZPiaU7tJ411nk?si=AY4i_mKATDOt3_5wGeoghA

soon it’s december 1st
and we haven’t spoken in a month
i just can’t sleep no more
in the silence of losing your trust
running back and then forth
between hands i could clutch

(how pathetic of me
i'm sorry it had to be)

it doesn’t make sense
the foul emptiness
of remembering the laugh in your breath
oh, i wish it was a rash kind of feeling
one where i’m just clawing for the image of you

but i’m so done with sensibility
i need you more than god needs me
and i’ve started to miss all the times
where you didn’t understand me completely

yeah i know it's ironic
but atleast, yeah i'm honest

and i wasn't lying when i said i was on my own

in the end i’m left with two
and the only true one left now is just you

sensibility

shoutout single ppl

sex scene in a disney movie

22 feb 2022

it’s weird it’s weird
i jus don’t know how to say it
looked in my eyes i’m antisocial
i wish i could fake it
swaying one way or the other
this won’t work let’s just face it
why does everyone i’m into
have to be just as indecisive

and i yearn
for a better cause of concern
wish i could close the curtains
get to flirtin
but fuck it i’m too reserved
and these issues merge to one
that i’m just a laughing stock
all i ever do is run in circles
and never seem to ever fucking stop

reserved

[Hardstyle remix by trueaww] ri4h - never gonna let me go + reef (sai x poonda)

Welcome to a journey inward. My music is crafted as a gentle invitation to explore the depths of your inner world, fostering a profound sense of awakening, passion, and purpose. Featuring soft, melodic piano, soaring violin, and expressive flute, all woven over a subtle, comforting beat, these compositions are designed for moments of reflection, meditation, and quiet introspection.

Each piece is imbued with soul-provoking lyrics, carefully written to inspire self-discovery and guide you from a life of mere doing to one of true inner understanding. This is more than just easy listening; it's a soundscape for your soul, offering peace, clarity, and an uplifting sense of connection to your authentic self. Allow yourself to be immersed, and rediscover the vibrant excitement within.

Lyrics

I touch the glass and feel it warm,
A living pulse inside the form.
The world is not a silent screen,
It breathes with me, it moves unseen.

Every face that passes by
Holds a spark I recognize.
Not apart, not separate,
Just different doors to the same gate.

The mirror breathes when I let go,
It shows me what I already know.
Nothing here is cold or still,
Everything bends to living will.

What I give is what I see,
Awareness shaping reality.
The mirror breathes, the moment knows,
I am the way the seeing goes.

I used to think the glass was flat,
A world out there and me in that.
But every breath I now allow
Turns then and there to here and now.

If I soften, if I stay,
The world responds without delay.
No need to push, no need to try,
Life meets me at the same reply.

The mirror breathes, I feel it true,
The world inhales and so do I too.
No watcher here, no thing observed,
Just presence perfectly preserved.

I breathe the world, it breathes me in,
No start or end, no loss or win.
The mirror breathes, and now I see,
The world is looking back as me.


lover awaits

moony