Cold breath running down my neck
Life been constant stress
Know that I'm a mess
No more tears are left now
Thought we had a chance
Said its for the best
Still I know that you'll be coming back around, coming back around
Still faded, been playing myself for too long
Narcissistic prick only listen to my own songs
Always bullshittin' swear that you would never do me wrong
Always lies, know I really wish that you would prove me wrong

Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off
Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off

I don't trust your boy know he lying every word
If any girl come near me, there's no option but to curve
Always laying low, only talking to myself
I'm starting to realize that this ain't good for my health
Lonely, met a new one
Is it too soon to say that I'm in love?
Hold me, physical touch
Surprised I got you, guess it was luck

Don't show my face oh please don't record
Don't let him in, promise me you'll ignore
Drowning my voice, don't care if it distorts
I want your love I need more I need more
You need to quit
Alcoholic
She hauling two beers and that's not attractive
But your so pretty on the outside
Hurting inside
Stay with me if you wanna walk a straight line

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lostcause w/ heylog (31sentinel)

produced by xona

//ep

-lyrics-
and I’ll stay inside 
where I reside 
I’ll stay and watch the night
until i die

why do we fight?
mirror what we like?
take my holy life
I’m sorry to say it’s fine..

~

I got sick of everybody who speaks
to me you’re nothing, I can’t even get a week
to be alone with someone that I wanna see
and these crevices you placed cause you know I was weak
so push back.
and I’ve been personal
so let it go
I feel like..
you don’t even have to know me
that I don’t want you to hold me

~

~I’ll cry and end... 
my life.
stay and watch when I die~

I’ll quit 
to forget that I exist
but these spiders are my only friends
are my only 
friends…

spiders II

spotify

eos (ft. heylog)

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

produced by xona 

-lyrics-

𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺

you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

how am i not happy no more?
i'm so tired i can't walk out the door
i tell her why i'm feeling these things
but therapy was never part of me
i could end it all
but i hate thinking only of that
now the days feel long again
i write songs to forget all of this

so you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

fragile

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
cause ur not receiving 
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
or maybe i should let it fall

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
i'm looking at the pane and see a kid i don't recognize at all
you think i'm in a crisis but this is my life inside a ball
but i am not the one to be crying over some bullsh-
i'm trying to be a man for a girl who is the purist
and i believe that's only achieved through work and purpose
but at the very end of the day it'll be worth it
so what'd you say you come tag along to a journey
i'll be your protector, you won't have to worry
will you believe in me if i focus and try
i'll do what it takes to give you a better life

i assume your brain still has developing to do
no one cares about my feelings and neither do you
only difference i don't post them, you fiend off replies
absorbing it like energy to mentally survive
you're fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
because you're not receiving
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me
the letters i would write
could form into a book
when turning every page
seem to be overlooked
so when you read the words
imagine you are me
tearing paper
and grinding your teeth

oh i was always there
too bad i ain't here
go cry, well life ain't fair
it's not like i don't care
but oh my, i'm bad at saying no
but i don't wanna be a problem if i'm holding on
oh my, now you wanna complain
baby i'm not gonna put up with that for very long
for long

teeth II

big thanks to @sinxi for jumping on the song with me 
Prod me

grasior - 
who would you lie for when every single day just feels like a chore
nothing ever goes the way you want it too
so you bring it too war 

maybe lifes better alone
all this peace n quiet never hurt your soul
does the past always bring you home

i know deep inside your scared
the abyss never felt this eerie
its so dark i can barely stare
why it all so become dreary 

just behind feeling perfect
friends dont think your worth it
telling you to stay the same

makin you think that your crazy
sitting feeling lazy
laying in the inbetween

though i dont want to take you out
everything you do just drowns it out
do you feel it all again or
is it better with a way home
you never see a way
just for what ive done too
oh i dont wanna see you go away
when you take me out away

sinxi -
uv given your attention
mustang in your driveway waiting for ya
don’t wanna be pretentious 
but the way that your moving got me oh yeah 

i’ve been gone for hours 
and your friends text your phone like we’re outta here 
but i don’t wanna leave yet 
so i’ll stay here fixated on the same shit 

that you told me a month ago 
i can’t let it 
go yet u said that ur comfortable 
with being here and i don’t wanna lie 

i don’t understand your parables 
your a demon in plain disguise 
so i’ll tell u here in some syllables 
i don’t care right now if we just die 

you know that we’ll be fine 
my heart just straight declined
let me just close my eyes 
take me to the other side
i know you hate me 
but just let me back inside
don’t be so heartless 
let’s just give it another try
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flower petals ✾

again w/sinxi

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

produced by xona

@chalyre
@hiraethsry

-lyrics-
don’t wait
I don’t mean to worry you so I get carried away
yeah, I never thought I was liked so I’m sorry if I hesitate 
I hope I don’t take the wrong side
promise to try unlike last time
I know how it goes on my mind
so don’t expect much on my fight

~

you just hate to see me fine
restricted by your feeble life
cant look (x2)

back ill detach everything
in tact you wreak havoc insane
im trash ill relapse on your name
dont panic dont panic again
was this the end i feared
now it seems so clear
cant run from this 
so stay my dear
im near
you’re all i fear

~

i can’t say that I’m not impressed
put a full clip through him right between his neck
and ur still laying there in bed
tryna pull the cases out of his chest
switched on my phone at like terrible timing 
4% left and I really don’t mind it 
just enough charge to see who really likes him
no one replies so I’m closing his eyelids

glow

glow w/ chalyre & hiraeth

this picture is a close up of Day'Von... The only person i can say is genuinely facially challenged his sisters pretty hot though. scotty too hotty head ass nigga!