https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

(casperrr)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

(heylog)
she just burn right thru the past
like we were never a thing
baby how could u do that
and throw me against the wave
i just need someone to talk to
and have a soul to stay
i wonder if ppl are leaving me
and parting their own ways
morning always passes by
when i see u it's never right
right right right
when i see you it's always night
our insides exchange heat
when ur body lies w me
i don't want u to leave now
how bout we both just shut down

(casperrr + heylog)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

casperrr x heylog - when ur body lies next to mine (nevrfrvr)

produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

we're all trapped in hell
cant contain it no more
im up in decibals
explaining alot, shut up u act like fool
i hate you i really i do
i go up in decibals
oh wait heres a pause i know
study my flaws you whore
i guess im sad bitch
that doesent mean im emo
i fell in love with you
thats not a thing anymore
you catch me chilling
i go up in decibels

GUESS IM PUTTING ALL INTO MY SONGS SO U LISTEN
TANKING BULLET HOLES EVERYDAY INSIDE MY PRISON
WHEN SHE LEFT SHE SAID AM I GONNA KMS 
THINK THAT I MIGHT END IT

baby dont go
happy at home
she thinks im happy she dont know
i would kill you gladly she turn ghost
i fucking need you badly you dont know
berry in my medly with bloodflow
try your best forget me i wont go
im someone who you envy, i switch flows
im fresher than some dead, ill grab a rose
im sitting in the backseat, when she awoke

I DONT WANNA USE YOU JUST DO IT YOURSELF
YOU CAN DRAG ME DOWN TOO BUT ILL FIND MY WAY OUT
i pump inside her mouth
travels down her throat
BABY DONT MAKE A SOUND
bitch she like grope
i bend her snap her spine
ill put you in a choke
ILL FUCK YOU IN THE PINE

everystep i take
doesent seem to stop my aches
twist it round and pull her face
do it now remove all grace
turn it down your ears might break
IVE GONE UP IN DECIBELS

decibel

produced by xona

short song <3

-lyrics-
ill walk it back home and leave your love roam
your bitter tongue holds to find another one

home
(make it)
home

im not here for you no-uh cause im just tired of what you've done
you could call up all on my fuss but i'd ignore all of your calls
uh, yeah and im a side for you and you know that too
home is where i knew where im safe from the truth

ill walk it back home and leave your love roam
your bitter tongue holds to find another one

home
(make it)
home

spotify

home.

rain w/ xona [p. jolst x 88STRAIT x xona]

produced by xona 

-lyrics-

𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺

you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

how am i not happy no more?
i'm so tired i can't walk out the door
i tell her why i'm feeling these things
but therapy was never part of me
i could end it all
but i hate thinking only of that
now the days feel long again
i write songs to forget all of this

so you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

fragile

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

anima

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

original song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Rc33SgCTs


lyrics:

we were lookin at the sky
i hope u know u been in my mind
i wanna tell u but it dont feel right
im sorry but atleast i try

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the hole inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

ive told you a thousand times that Im sorry
its cause my head been hurt and damaged lately
its just another cycle
i dont know where my mind goes
its just another cycle
everyday i feel my mind go

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
my brain is feeling good and my fingers keep on shakin
ringing in my ears and the voices always haunt me
dirt between my teeth from the face plant happened last week

the freckles on her face match the heart inside her chest
no hope for a repair with my love and all the rest

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the holes inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

i dont wanna leave but i got to
before i hit the road she say i love you
its just another cycle
im just another pyscho

walking to your door
i catch myself staring at ur face
i need ur love
can u set the pace
u called me im mean
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster

i tuck
my neck
its cut
you did this

just breathe
but i cant
youll be okay
grab my hands
dont fall off
dont want u slipping
u need to calm down
what are u doing

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
she said u always haunt me
how do u keep coming back to me
ur so frighting

heylog - hope ur doin good

produced by xona

@seenyona

-lyrics-
the only path that I run is getting worse than I’d want
got to you without a fuss and you didnt even care enough
to ask if I’m good or better than way before
hoping it’s a get back and less of hearts being torn 
I got too much hatred overtaking my entire heart
even on the side ive been looking for the way-

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

cant let down, someone youve never had
im pushing past all the static man
your words cut past my flesh, and im 
sure if they heard the vile words
they'd leave just like i did before causin quivering lips
who the fuck you think you are, constantly giving me lip? 
no matter how many times u post your body
it wont ever give the same attention that i give

cause the way that I hide
makes it ever harder to come by
I can’t decide
whether I should cut the rope that ties
no, don’t I wanna live with myself
but I’d rather die then ask for your help
so how can you act on guilt
when you caused this to wilt

locket

locket w/ yona

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?