here

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

guitar+prod xona

-lyrics-
all the words that roll off your tongue
why did it have to be his name?
feeling like no one, im feeling so dumb 

but I bet you didn’t mind that
fuck my life, I just deal without a doubt I-
and maybe I could’ve just listened 
day by day, regret what im missin...
and maybe I can never feel safe 
yet I feel and know that it’s way too late
too late, it’s so lame

and I was wrong 
to trust us too

~it’s just things that I’ve been meaning to tell you, for a long time umm... 
I’m in love with you~

but I bet you didn’t mind that
fuck my life, I just deal without a doubt I 
and maybe I could’ve just listened 
day by day regret what im missin...
and maybe I can never feel safe 
yet I feel and know that it’s way too late
too late, it’s so lame

lameee

mistake +lazydoll

produced by xona

//ep

-lyrics-
and I’ll stay inside 
where I reside 
I’ll stay and watch the night
until i die

why do we fight?
mirror what we like?
take my holy life
I’m sorry to say it’s fine..

~

I got sick of everybody who speaks
to me you’re nothing, I can’t even get a week
to be alone with someone that I wanna see
and these crevices you placed cause you know I was weak
so push back.
and I’ve been personal
so let it go
I feel like..
you don’t even have to know me
that I don’t want you to hold me

~

~I’ll cry and end... 
my life.
stay and watch when I die~

I’ll quit 
to forget that I exist
but these spiders are my only friends
are my only 
friends…

spiders II

produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

forever w/ casperrr

unprivated cos someone dm'd me on soundcloud lol
https://soundcloud.com/e-veryday/misa

drag my name in the dust
its all they want
made a deal wit the devil
now they calling me faust
just run my mouth
give a fuck about u
goes around comes around
man i always keep a tool
on me
on me
they all tryna see
who dis
blowin up
they see me on fleek
on me
on me
they all tryna see
who dis
blowin up
they see me on fleek

supernova

Cyaa

you started to make a lot more sense when you lost your role in the movie
i came to your house and you plainly said that i still looked so woozy 
im running in circles but making a square
if you really knew me, you'd know to be there
im backing u up on all that u say
you take it/you’re taken for granted everyday
youre crawling away, youre crawling away

@audiachain put lossy

Rowan

goodbye movie

Goodbye movie

prod by me^-^
Enjoy :D

Slowly turns to waste, time flies by the day
Constantly bruising up every time u say my name
Evil forms in ur eyes, it’s time to say goodbye
I hope u listens to my songs and experience all the pain and lies

Was it worth it? cuz ur gone now
I feel worthless, it’s been awhile now
So what do i do now? do i stand here?
Or do i make a move, and complete my life 

Getting cuts and bruises, i swear i’m bout to lose it
They all laugh and stare when i say “i make some music”
They expected me to rap, they expected me to quit 
Leave me alone and stop being a dick
I’m doing me so stop throwing a fit

(omg stezzy)

Was it worth it? cuz ur gone now
I feel worthless, it’s been awhile now
So what do i do now? do i stand here?
Or do i make a move, and complete my life 
Was it worth it? cuz ur gone now
I feel worthless, it’s been awhile now
So what do i do now? do i stand here?
Or do i make a move, and complete my life

life

produced by xona

[war, imperfection]

-lyrics-
my walls cave in and you might be
the one to change the worst of me
I walk with the scent of ash and the dirt between my hands
it’s a waste that I stand, I’m on my way I need plan for you

I’m meant to live my own life
but I’m stuck within ruts with you
bitter hatred made it show
colors moving like they were before
am I really not worth?
I’m just like you and everyone else 
filament to what I hold
yet, I felt the guilt of your help

wonder why I stare? I said I wouldn’t even care
if I die, I think it’s fair 
if i don’t talk then they’re right there 

~

you think I’ll dive right back but I don’t live like that
I'm on a voyage that last, way more than the past

relinquir

produced by grayskies

@xona

-lyrics-
who do you mind?
talking every minute of life? life
I don’t want to feel a sign that can’t stand my eyes 
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it 

nothing but a trail but I follow like it’s my fault
where it sits so frail, where I stuck it with a nail
everything I do is for you
why do I have to choose?
everything new we do?

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

hang a life I might try to end
signs ahead that trick a mind 

(ONE STEP
MIGHT END)

so take ONE MORE STEP

you didn’t even know him
but I can’t sit and rest
when I just watched it

blister

blister (grayskies)

produced by grayskies

@xona
@grasior

-lyrics-
the world turned black and white
hold control be ready to fight
paranoia taking over your brain
are you scared to die this way
life wont be the same
lost all hope to die in vain
wrong or right i cant go back
its life or death in this no mans land

but im scared
of who ive become
im scared
that I might be like you

who decides where we go down in this road
pile up, the rest of what we’ve honed
nobody could save me
it’s awfully, all on me 
but the gas on your hands
a creation of a man 
to atomize the land
build it from the sand
on your hands
on my hands…

but I’m scared
of what I’ve become
I’m scared
that I’m like you

you got me on the low 
and I can’t find a way
to leave a broken plane
you caused in disarray 

they’ll all fall
for the ones near
me, to bring calm...

dollar flu w/ grasior ✩ (grayskies)

Produced by: grasior

Lyrics:
lost all hope
thinking id be ok
falling apart for you
just make it new

you're so cold,
and after everything your something to behold
I left you out
so I see my goals
you're breaking ground
damn your so profound
we should've never gone out

with it over
I feel closure
can't let you rot away my brain

i see the silhouettes drawn on my walls
it got me going of the withdrawals

you make me nervous
please don’t resurface
everything but us had a purpose

oh i wonder how you got this way
you watched me slowly burn away in decay

you're so cold,
and after everything your something to behold
I left you out
so I see my goals
you're breaking ground
damn your so profound
we should've never gone out
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

produced by @prodgrayskies
cover art by @xona <33

- lyrics  -
why do you think its all on me
oh a fantasy you cant unsee
what a world in your head
wonder if you want me dead tonight
yet I just cant let you go

but I, lost it all falling for you
oh I, cant go no where with you

in till this pain that you threw me through
a walking nightmare with no one new
is this hell is it death
is it all inside my head
oh what has life become
oh what has life become

I hear a whisper walk away
couldn't grasp another fadeaway
oh am I talking to the dead
I hear them knocking through the grave

I don't wanna hear no more
oh, another part time undead

in till this pain that you threw me through
a walking nightmare with no one new
is this hell is it death
is it all inside my head
oh what has life become
oh what has life become
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

rancor

Keep On Running (lofi beats / study beats)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bW4qunWtEiQ&feature=youtu.be 
  (Visualizer)
https://www.instagram.com/heavnlyheavn/
https://twitter.com/haloboyyy


the pills the drugs 
the sex the drinks
the talks you really made me think
the choice we had to make a scene
you want it good come dance with me uh-uuhh

take me back i know that you wont
i take back everything i wrote
i know i really do enough
you really really make it tough
you said that you would be ok
you said that it would be great 
so great 
i know that everything will always go my way

ooh ooh uh uh uh
ooh ooh uh uh uh
ooh ooh uh uh uh
ooh ooh uh uh uh

im bored stop talking to me 
your words arent magical 
you wanna blame it on me 
you think that its my fault

take me back i know that you wont
i take back everything i wrote
i know i really do enough
you really really make it tough
you said that you would be ok
you said that it would be great 
so great 
i know that everything will always go my way

lameee

xona

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