all xsrvnge songs

Fxxk

i have no knowledge but all i do is dream. there's nothing i can do, but i struggle in vain like an idiot.

i have no strength, but i want it all

xsrvnge

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

lyrics:

Huh Im pouring out this bottle till I feeling myself
Bruises on my chest from the last night out
Cuts on my thighs from my own damn self
The hardest part of it all is admitting that u need help
They see me on live
They feel me on live
But I was so drunk
But I was so high
This 55 inch emulate the coast line
While I record pain yea I expose mine

Though its not easy its not that easy but it works
U could tell im fighting shit and honestly it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go berserk
Just know the doom I make u feel I felt it first
Oh Amanda I was broken before I knew u and u helped me
The hardest is tryna prove to loved ones that u healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Ur voice sounds nice but I dont listen to what u tell me

Hear my words and find peace in our anger
Its funny how after all of this time im now a stranger
The second I lost u I feel life grew so much bleaker
Now the way ur so appalled by my smile I feel like a creature to u 
If I do not awaken
Lay me down gently
Please do not protect me
The ghouls that dissect me
And I know I hide my emotions
But its in the benefit of enjoying the moment ya
I dont get along with no one this easy
So Tell me ur motive before I fall in love

Though its not easy its not that easy but it works
U could tell im fighting shit and honestly it hurts
I throw my heart outside my window and go berserk
Just know the doom I make u feel I felt it first
Oh Amanda I was broken before I knew u and u helped me
The hardest is tryna prove to loved ones that u healthy
With snot pouring out my nose and half my liver virtually melting
Ur voice sounds nice but I dont listen to what u tell me

BERSERKER (ERIC GODLOW)

Lyrics: 

(hero)

she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

(ekeon)

I don't wanna tell em what you did then
You think its funny when you splurge my name
You dissin
You call me addict 
Call me fake 
Call me villain
But I know it 
When you all alone
You listen

If you leave me what am I now
I could find my way but really 
I don't know how
I could love you more but really that's a false vow
Is that how you really feel 
I don't know now

It's getting hard to stay focused 
You know that I'm trying you're my antidote its
Something that I can notice
These words to the lost
Are all from a lotus

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart

(hero)

(BUT IM LYING)

huh
she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart
but I'm lying

Chicken Gordita

Chicken Gordita w/ Hero (uforia)

{HOOK}
i have a pain in my stomach 
that I could not satisfy 
it’s eating at me and I don’t why
you left me with no one and nowhere to go and it’s cold its like 20 below outside
I march through the rain in spring and the snow in the winter to make sure that you’re alright    


{VERSE}
a knight with no armor 
a sword with no shield 
but I would be stronger right by your side 
 when I look to the sky I see nothing but darkness
but that was until I looked in your eyes 
my stomach is turning and killing me 
ripping the wings off a butterfly 
my life’s like balatro I’m  playing the cards that I’m dealt and hoping they multiply  
 can’t leave my house without stressin bout death I honestly feel like I’m terrified 
like a horror movie
because I stick to my guns like its call of duty
try to rip through my flesh when the muscles chewy  
and I don’t wanna hear what your saying to me
cus i feel like a mess when it’s late im stressed and the thing that love looks like satan to me

{HOOK} x2


Mixed by @ericgodlow
Prod. by @dercept + @jolst

99knights - satisfy

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lyrics:

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

i don’t wanna make u feel bad
but it hurts that u never looked back
u kissed me like i was fragile glass
and dropped me like i never had cracks

i still remember the curve of your spine
when u told me “baby, you’re not mine”
i still feel it deep in my chest
how easy it was for you to forget

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

maybe i was just a pause in your story
a soft interlude, a girl u called sorry
but i stayed awake to hear u breathe
and now i can’t sleep without ur grief

they say i should move on and be free
but u haunt my dreams like a melody
u were my prayer, my ache, my plea
u were the one who abandoned me

i won’t take up any more of your time
but if u see this, just know i tried
i gave u pieces i didn’t have to spare
and all i wanted was for u to care

do u remember the things u said?
do u remember the texts i left unread?
do u feel me in your silence too?
do u remember me like i do you?

do u still remember? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

hold my breath
watch the tide take what’s left
what if peace comes after death?
trace my veins, find out myself

cut my ties, float away
salt water hides my face
wish i knew why i stay
when i dream of the grave

waves crash like my thoughts do
quiet screams, nothing new
all the nights i drowned in you
fool me twice, blame me too

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

(cut my ties, float away)
(salt water hides my face)
(what if peace comes after death?)
trace my veins, find out myself

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

where’d you go this time?
what if i lose my mind?
what if i make you cry?
what if i end my fucking life?

what if i end my life? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
you said you’d love me clean
but you loved me high
tryna kiss my veins
while i’m sayin’ goodbye

bathroom tiles, cold and white
staring up at neon lights
you hold me tight
but you’re not my life

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

you trace my scars
like love letters you wrote
whisper “you’re my star”
but i’m starting to float

movie scenes of blood and glass
someone’s screaming, it fades fast
we were perfect, then we cracked
now i’m lost and you’re my past

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

i see us in a movie frame
two ghosts screaming each other’s names
drugs and love feel just the same
fading out like burning flames

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from everything i’ve become

ur love feels empty (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Took two more, now my eyes low (low)
Hit my line, I’m in psycho mode (psycho mode)
Said you’d stay but you might go (might go)
Now my heart’s on ice, cold snow (cold snow)

Hotel room with the curtains drawn
Mirror cracked ‘cause I hit my jaw
Text my phone, “Are you coming home?”
But I’m scared to love ‘cause I lost it all

Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Roll my sleeves, show my scars, let ‘em bleed (let ‘em bleed)
Mix my drink, red with white, strawberry lean (strawberry lean)
You in my head like a movie scene (movie scene)
And you look so good but you’re bad for me (bad for me)

Fast car, black seats, drive me through the rain
Tat my face with your name so you stay
Pray to God but he don’t hear a thing
So I pop these pills and just fade away

Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Xannies in my pocket (yeah)
Xannies in my pocket (yeah)
Baby, you the topic (yeah)
But I’m still so toxic (yeah)

psychomode (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
white walls keep whispering
names i swore i’d forget
mirror shows a ghost of me
stained eyes, silhouette

i leave my letters in the drawer
like secrets sewn into my skin
wonder if you’d even mourn
the girl you couldn’t let in

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

silence tastes like blood and pills
numbness cuts so sweet and still
found dead humming songs of you
found dead thinking of—

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

don’t look for me in crowded rooms
i’m somewhere lost between my wounds
white noise sings my lullaby
i’ll kiss the world a soft goodbye

kurt cobain (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
They told me to live my life (My life)
But I been dyin’ every night
Two pills on the floor by the light
I took both and kissed the sky

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (My brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (The name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (Pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, fuck it, I’m done with emotions
All this trauma turned me into someone broken
Gold tooth still gleamin’ while my mind corroded
And I ain’t get a cake since I turned like, what, eleven?
That’s why every birthday I been plannin' heaven
Mixin' meds with coke, yeah, that shit unhealthy
But I don’t care no more, I’m so self-destructive
Every night I try to die, but the pills don't love me

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (Through my brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (Know the name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (In pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, I know I lost my way
Can’t remember yesterday
Might not see another day
But I still say I’m okay
Yeah, they think I’m just insane
But they never felt this way
All this sadness turned to rage
And now I’m stuck inside my brain

fuck emotions (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
I’ve been feelin’ low and I don’t know the reason why
It’s like my soul been sinkin’ slow beneath a purple sky
I thought maybe it was you, maybe it was you
When I look back, all I see is shades of blue

Hey girl, you know, I just wanna die
Right next to you, under neon lights
I been tryin’ hard but I still can’t lie
You stuck in my head, can’t get you out my mind

Faded again in a night that never ends
Lookin’ in the mirror, wonder where the pain begins
Thought about jumpin’ from the roof, I don’t pretend
Shorty love designer, but she never could repent

Thought twice, but my mind went blank
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space

I been quiet, movin’ slow, like I’m numb again
Bury me in sorrow, I ain’t ever had a friend
Got me thinkin’ death look pretty with a pink sunset
Still wear your hoodie like it’s part of my skin

Cigarettes and codeine tears
If I vanish, would they care?
If I vanish, would you care?
If I vanish, would you care?

I don’t know why I still hold on
Every love just feels so wrong
I don’t even write no songs
I just bleed on every chord

Faded again in a night that never ends
Lookin’ in the mirror, wonder where the pain begins
Thought about jumpin’ from the roof, I don’t pretend
Shorty love designer, but she never could repent

Thought twice, but my mind went blank
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space

Maybe it was you, maybe it was you
I been tryna heal, but I always lose
Maybe it was you, maybe it was you
Wanna die with you, underneath the moon

wanna die with u (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Ayy, yeah
Ayy, yeah
It’s 5AM again
Still wide awake, still lost again

Throwin’ up my pain in a bathroom sink
She said she love me, but she never think
I was cryin' in a Uber in an old black mink
Had a blade in my bag and a hole in my drink

I don’t text back, I just ghost quick
Shawty sniffin' lines in my old whip
And I been numb for a whole year
Still hear your voice when the smoke clear

No one ever see me when I’m down bad
They just see the hoodie and the fake laugh
You don’t gotta lie, I can read that
Wrote your name in the ash on the ski mask

I just wanna die in peace, no lights
Poppin' pills on a school night, fuck life
You can keep the fame and the headlights
I just want a grave where the moonlight shines
I just wanna die in peace, no fight
Sayin' that you love me, but it don't feel right
Next year, maybe I’ll be fine
But I swear, every summer, I be losin’ my mind

She left blood on my white tee
Now she cryin' in my backseat
Sayin’ I’m the one, yeah, likely
But I seen her kiss him on the IG

Now I'm bleedin' on my own terms
Dead roses in the blunt when it all burns
Don’t ask what I’m feelin’
Shawty, I been dealin’
With a past full of scars and a heart that ain't healin’

They all fake love, that's a fact now
Told me I should smile, but I cracked out
Yeah, I’m cold like a shadow
Ridin’ 'round town with a cross in the Lambo

I just wanna die in peace, no lights
Poppin' pills on a school night, fuck life
You can keep the fame and the headlights
I just want a grave where the moonlight shines
I just wanna die in peace, no fight
Sayin' that you love me, but it don't feel right
Next year, maybe I’ll be fine
But I swear, every summer, I be losin’ my mind

Ayy, 5AM and I’m still not sleepin’
Dark thoughts got my heart barely beatin’
If I leave, will you cry for a weekend?
Or just scroll past like you ain't see shit

moonlight (prod. yxngxs)

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Lyrics:

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

Codeine with the ice, that’s dinner (splash)
Bad lil’ bitch, she a sinner (slut)
LV print all on my denim (drip)
I’ma slide right now if it’s tension (slide)
Pop two pills, can’t feel my face (nope)
Four Giottos, I’ma win that race (skrrt)
Big .40, I’ma keep it on waist (brrt)
And the opps better stay in they place (yeah)

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

Trap phone jump, no sleep (ring)
I don’t ever trust no freak (nah)
My city too cold, I keep heat (brrt)
Your bitch in my DMs, she creep (slut)
I’ma hop in the Wraith and I ghost (skrrt)
I’ma pour till my body get froze (yeah)
Balmain jeans, white gold on the froze (ice)
And I don’t ever bend, don’t fold (never)

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

no love freestyle (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

(Yeah, yeah, talking ‘bout, what… what… huh, huh)
Yo, yo, blick, blick…
(Yuh, yuh, perc, perc, lean, lean)

Yeah, she broken just like me (Like me)
Walk in with scars on me (Scars)
She geeked-geeked just like me (Like me)
Damn girl, you barely can see
Cause you cried all night this week (This week)
Slide through life with no peace (Peace)
Hop out, pain on my sleeve (Sleeve)
This .40 can’t heal me (Nah)
My gang won’t ride for free (Free)
Bad days, everything feel bleak (Bleak)
Sad bitch dressed CC (CC)
Put her heart in some Number (N)ine
2-door coupe, we sliding (Skrrt)
Come here, where you going? (Where you going?)
.556 in my head, keep blowing (Boom)
I can’t run from the voices (Voices)

Rain fall heavy in the morning (Morning)
I wake up numb, keep pouring (Pouring)
Told my momma I’m sorry (Sorry)
I live fast, might not see forty (Forty)
Back to back, pills keep storming (Storming)
Life get dark, no warning (Warning)
Tell all my demons they important (Important)
They the only ones I can’t ignore (Can’t ignore it)
She love me, but I can’t afford her (Nope)
I gave my soul, then I tore it (Tore it)
Dead friends, yeah I still adore them (Damn)
Graveyard rides, roller coaster (Roller coaster)
Lean hit fast, I’m floating (Floating)
Gun in my lap, I’m hopeless (Hopeless)
If I crash out, keep it loaded (Loaded)
Tears in the rain, I’m soaking (Soaking)

Yeah, she broken just like me (Like me)
Walk in with scars on me (Scars)
She geeked-geeked just like me (Like me)
Damn girl, you barely can see
Cause you cried all night this week (This week)
Slide through life with no peace (Peace)
Hop out, pain on my sleeve (Sleeve)
This .40 can’t heal me (Nah)
My gang won’t ride for free (Free)
Bad days, everything feel bleak (Bleak)
Sad bitch dressed CC (CC)
Put her heart in some Number (N)ine
2-door coupe, we sliding (Skrrt)
Come here, where you going? (Where you going?)
.556 in my head, keep blowing (Boom)
I can’t run from the voices (Voices)

hellgirl* (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah, yeah
Double cup, I can’t feel my face
Whole lotta love, but it fade away
Got scars on my wrist, can’t erase my pain
Pour it up slow, watch the world decay

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite
Tryna forget, every bad night
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Heart froze up, can’t thaw that shit
Fake love all around, can’t call that shit
Tattoo tears on my skin, I admit
I’ve been prayin’ to the sky, never got no wish

Balenci shades on, still can’t see
All the pain in the world keep breakin’ me
Got a blade in my hand when I fall asleep
If I don’t wake up, don’t wait for me

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Four Giottos, but I’m still not fine
Diamonds on my wrist can’t freeze my mind
Every flight I take just a way to hide
But the past too close, always by my side

Roll my problems up, light another one 
If you cross me, better run, better run
Gun on my waist, but my heart weigh a ton
I can’t fold, not once, not once

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

demons in sight (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
i been feelin so sad
feelin so upset
feelin like my life doesn't matter anymore 
nothing really helps
been thinking of suicide
i'm too afraid to die 
i don't really wanna go outside
fuck everybody, ima fuckin hide
i'm all alone
don't have anyone 
i'm so fucking numb
i cry but nobody cares
tried to call but there's nobody there
losing my mind
i'm in despair
don't wanna go
out bad
out sad
hope you remember me
will i even last here?
need another pill
i'm not even 23
i'll die before i can see
hope you remember this
ima be gone like a dream
this is my last note so u can read

what if i end my life? (prod. yxngxs)

𝘹𝘴𝘳𝘷𝘯𝘨𝘦*