this it what it sounds like when you arrive at the pearly gates

w/ @v4nity

@anti-light
all i ever wanted was to feel your light shine
all i ever wanted was to see you in a smile
lonely as i live, i see freedom in your heart
i know it’s all your lies, your heart is cold as ice
there’s never guilt in your tears, nah nah
almost seem too broken to even cry
now i’ve seen your deceiver-eyes (the worst kind)
why can’t i see you when you’re still right here by my side?

@v4nity
ah, i just wanted you to be alright
but i know that there’s just nothin i can do
i look at you and girl you’re lookin so divine
but i been running outta time
so i need your help
i don’t want you to go
and i just want you know
that i’ve been lookin for you
and i keep searching for you
i just want you to know
that you’ve got something special
but i’ve been lookin for you 
i’ve been searching for you
girl you know that i’ve been on my own too long
and i’ve been lookin for someone like you
and i know you hear me calling
screaming how i want you
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
but i hope that you miss me still
and i hate that you feel like that
i don’t know if you can tell
how i been doin
and i hope that you want me still
and i hope that you need me still
because i’ve been on my own for too long

@anti-light
all i ever wanted was to feel your light shine
all i ever wanted was to see you in a smile
lonely as i live i see freedom in your heart
i know it’s all your lies your heart is cold as ice
there’s never guilt in your tears nah nah
almost seem too broken to even cry
now i’ve seen your deceiver-eyes (the worst kind)
why can’t i see you when you’re still right here by my side?

Spotify

Divine w/ v4nity (prod. me)

feat @0arid n @angelicxmei
prod @neohnq & @012207
mastered by @chriad
ty 4 1.5k im not stopping anytime soon :D #gogogo

lyrics :
@whyhaze
i’ve been off the pills n they got me losing focus
tell me is it real is it your hand that im holding
all these scars on my body i didn’t want u to notice 
girl u leave me hopeless 
toying with my feelings & you know it

almost had it right there
don’t know why im trying 
look me in my eyes i got a feeling that ur lying
i thought it was right but ig it’s bad timing 
so long.. it felt so wrong
but i had to say goodbye

ik u dont want it either i can see it in ur face
counting big bankk
but i still can’t replicate 
i was thinking ab buying u a diamond ring
i can feel my dreams dying 
i hope it’s not getting tiring

@0arid
all the words on ur fingertips
i just wanna make a final wish
to be as one
i know its harder wen ur gone
u ask me if i like that i dont even know
i dont wanna be here wanna stay home
but i dont wanna be alone
i guess ill do it on my own

@angelicxmei
i cant never get it right
i guess theres no one by my side...
i took pills like twice
what is going on idkkk
put a bullet to my heart
make it hollow
getting closer to the end
and i thought you would follow
does it all really make sense
i be going backwards
i cant never progress
never again
i think ive lost my way...

SPOTIFY

so wrong w/ arid & angelicxmei (neohn & baz)

prod.
@decago
@prod_pk
@ripwarheart

notes:
ily pt2.
we back w/ @29cengi
luv u all

//

[shiro]
yeah i wnt u by side
forget the times we had our fights,
ill take u to a place tonight
where we forget our worries
yeah ik its been tough
lifes caught on and u had enough
u js wna scream n shout
but nothing seems to come out

nothing feels the same w/o u
need ur touch or give me a clue
where ur hold up
i js wnt ya
wnt u to realize hm ily
ive been fallin apart
feels like it happened, since the very start
i filled my cup w/ all ur love
hope i dont spoil all of it 

this distance that tears us apart
seems so close and yet so far
let me hold u close, so we cant part
but in the end i have to let u go

[cengi]
i had nothing when i let u go
i wake up in the morning, tears on my eyes
i know it wasnt suffice
and i have to let u know
even though we're far apart
i'm gonna keep you updated
wonder where i've been?
i know, it's been complicated
don't worry bout me baby
i can handle myself
you should care for yourself
call me when you need some help
no distance can't stop my love for you

[hook]

//

ily2 + cengi『decago/pk/warheart』

mastered by me :3
we mixed our own vocals
hope yall enjoy this song with my twin @ri4h <3
produced by @kuriyai443
[hook]
you been taking shots at my mental
i thought love was suppose to be gentle
now i just feel stuck in the middle
your words do more then just tickle

i hate to move on
there must be something i must improve on
i always had to check what you approved on
you always at my neck like you're a noose ugh
just please just move on
[ri4h]
i can’t do it no more
what do you want from me?
you’re leaving me sore
i can’t help it
i can’t take it
my heart is breaking
our love is fading away
i got nothing to say
when you run her way
but I need you to stay
but I know things won’t change
unless I find a way
to you to you
oh what do I do?
when I can’t have you?
when I can’t have you?
[hook]
you been taking shots at my mental
i thought love was suppose to be gentle
now i just feel stuck in the middle
your words do more then just tickle

i hate to move on
there must be something i must improve on
i always had to check what you approved on
you always at my neck like you're a noose ugh
just please just move on

stuck in the middle

on spotify >.<

stuck in the middle + ri4h (kuriyai)

big cypher with some of my frIends ^_^ (tysm for the support recently)
thank you guys for being apart of this ily <3
@rewind214 @222bino @valberrie @law16lie @29cengi @1kidsora @lifegiverr @lukebike @breakupbreakdown @mis4ortune @sawlvy @ilyexotic @nvrfallen @noahsuri @bloodl3ak @alrunaxo @xternalz @sshiro @user-241106459 @i6neiru @gloomed
mastered by me ofc c;
s/o @gaugemountedthisone for mixing lukes vocals <3
s/o @tzunahmie for helping out aswell <3
s/o @yureiclub + @souls0ciety <3
prod @metisxx + @ton_bo0 <3
timestamps:
0:17 - 0:51 (me)
0:52 - 1:08 (rewind)
1:09 - 1:25 (vin0)
1:26 - 1:43 (valberrie)
1:43 - 2:00 (lawlie)
2:01 - 2:17 (cengi)
2:18 - 2:34 (kid sora)
2:35 - 2:52 (etterna/life)
2:53 - 3:09 (lukebike)
3:10 - 3:26 (breakupbreakdown)
3:26 - 3:43 (mis4ortune)
3:44 - 4:00 (sawlvy)
4:01 - 4:18 (eczotic)
4:19 - 4:35 (nvrfallen)
4:36 - 4:50 (noahsuri)
4:51 - 5:26 (bloodl3ak)
5:26 - 5:43 (alruna)
5:44 - 6:01 (xternalz)
6:01 - 6:18 (shiro)
6:18 - 6:35 (mika)
6:36 - 6:52 (i6neiru)
6:53 - 7:09 (gloomed)
7:10 - 7:44 (me again)
lyrics will be on genius or sum too much text smh

talk about it cypher

talk about it cypher + rewind, vin0, valberrie, lawlie, cengi, kid sora & more (metis x tonari)

love u guys

ah imma do it when u see me
iced over cracks on the tv
ill play ur favorite songs off a cd
never said u wanted more till u missed me

i got drinks inna cup do u see me
i been seeing who you are do u feel me
i been screaming through my eyes am i dreaming
but i couldnt get it out its a feeling

i been doing way too much for way too long
and tell me if i changed would it be so wrong
theres a reason why i left but it felt so hard
hear the words you said yea it left me scarred x2

ah i didnt mean it all
bouta see a second favor i dont need at all

ah i swear i need it all
u shouldnt feen to say wsp and then go cheat it off

and theyve been staring forever
i swear that me in you go hand in hand like rain does w weather

fessed up and ive never been better
tryna see what you into i swear im missing endeavor

i been doing way too much for way too long
and tell me if i changed would it be so wrong
theres a reason why i left but it felt so hard
hear the words you said yea it left me scarred x2

leave me scarred (kirian + kyoa)

prod: @loveismisery
mixed: @andremoire & @1vacy 

Lyrics

@andremoire
Yeah I'm done with all the lies
You have zero fucking dignity
Stop acting like youre shy
You say it's so damn hard to put up dealing with a guy
That's funny coming from a bitch who said she wished I died
Glock on my left yeah you know I stay strapped
Dont fuck with me or that breath gon be your last yeah
Eyes on me cause they know that Im crazy
I think I miss you bad yeah as of lately

@1vacy 
i just hate tha fact tht u where lying
baby i was trying
i just hate tht feeling i was sitting all in silence
i just feel like crying 
but i just sit and bare it because 
atleast i aint dying

embarrassed

vacy & arrivals - embarrassed (kyoa)

IM BACK ty to @k4rson, @pw4prez, @skrena

lyrics:
im alone
i still hear you call
i guess i wont
ever know what you want
im alone
yea u left me in pieces
now im broke
and u were what i needed
what i needed
heart bleedin
yea i cared
thats the truth but u cant see it
what i needed
my hearts bleedin
my tears are falling down wonder if you
hear me
fallin down can u please js help me
cus of u girl u make my heart bleed
cus of u girl i swear i cant see
i cant see

@k4rson

(me)
im alone
i still hear you call
i guess i wont
ever know what you want
im alone
yea u left me in pieces
now im broke
and u were what i needed
what i needed
heart bleedin
yea i cared
thats the truth but u cant see it
what i needed
my hearts bleedin
my tears are falling down wonder if you
hear me
fallin down can u please js help me
cus of u girl u make my heart bleed
cus of u girl i swear i cant see
i cant see

heart bleeds +karson (sochi, skrena)

song abt a rlly bad time in my life
prod @hrtshpdbd and @resolve1k
TYSM FOR LISTENING i spent a long time on this one
//
lyrics:

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

and i, i dont know
if we'll even make it out
i dont want to lose you in this doubt

i dont know
what to do with myself
feels like
we're tied in our health
when i fall apart i dont want to take you with me
crush my heart i dont want to make you hate me
tied by fate
i cant take this weight now
made you wait
should have known you wouldnt take that
you only saw it one way
you just wanted to throw me away

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

i dont know whats going on anymore
we were doing okay when you closed the door
talk to me, just talk to me
when we're falling apart
i want you here with me

please stay with me
please just stay with me
i cant even breathe when you're not by my side
cant do this no matter how hard ive tried

stay

stay (heartshapedbed + inno)

@scrufff
@brknglss
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next drop 5/31
discord: xternalzog
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alt: @staywithmenow <--beats/instrumentals and stuff
@souls0ciety
@seraphimcollective
@kess0kuband

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