@makemeapromise @oiwassupp

Yeah it feels so wrong,
Where did all the love go? Yeah, it's gone (yeah it's gone),
I'm so done,
If i make another mistake I'll be gone,

Yeah, I'll be far away,
In a world where I can't see your face (I don't wanna see it),
Don't forgive me next time I make a mistake,
I feel like I'm slowly digging my own grave,

Fall into pieces,
Don't pick up my pieces,
I just need a break, I need recess (i just need a break),
Don't know if I want you anymore, I need to re-assess,
I'm not even numb I just feel less,

So I still feel the pain,
Say what you want but I'll never feel the same (never feel the same),
It don't even help when I do these drugs,
But for a minute I'll be up in disarray,

She still the only one I text,
Fuck, I guess that it's just not about the sex (she just different),
Still think of her in my bed,
I don't even know what's coming up next at this point.

(x2)

far gone (surgeon, oiwa)

0:00 Solo
0:34 w/ @sqwensy
1:09 w/ @1alx
1:42 w/ @nightigerxo
2:19 w/ @nightigerxo
2:54 w/ @m2monroe
3:32 w/ @prod_permafrost
4:04 w/ @cosmik
4:37 w/ @1vacy
5:13 w/ @kyoakyo
5:48 solo ( @lovecrysis )
6:22 w/ @mercycoreradio
7:02 w/ @prodheavensent
7:36 w/ @prodheavensent
8:08 w/ @xtasane
8:49 solo

may 2023

Hi, 
I am so sorry. I... I left so many friends apart without saying nothing like an egoist. So sorry for that... 
Let's say the fact 
I prolly never comeback. 
Life been changing a lot recently, music has kinda left my life, I dont really know why... 
Guys, 
To, everyone who listened to my music, who collaborated with me or just talked to me, just know that I will never forget you. nver. You all shaped a part of me through these 3 years. I just wanted to say it.
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.
.
Coexistence means here the co-living of 2 sides of me, like always. It's like I never know and never knew who I am, always fluctuating between 2 mindsets, 2 sides... 
I just want to feel things different now... I need someone, someone that I can give love to & protect, someone to hold on to & someone that understand me.
Feel kinda crushed ngl.
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Hope you'll enjoy that little music composition, was quite refreshing to make 
I am invitating you to transalte the titles (the ones in french) to make yout own interpretation of each track <3

Tracklist
0.00 Life's too short to be hopeless

1:46 @lainetowers

2:58 A flower petal floating in the fresh air of countryside during spring season

4:27 œil perçant

5:25 Bootleg of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMR3o19IlKw 

7:27 Is suffering necessary to happiness ? 

8:33 Falling in a deep blue ocean close to 9pm

10:20 Je veux juste juste partagés des moments avec toi, rire avec toi, te serrer dans mes bras et croiser mes yeux dans les tiens <3

12:17 Colombe virevoltante 

14:38 Suis-je déjà trop vieux ? Ai-je déjà tout waste de ma jeunesse ? 

15:55 seaside wind 

17:18 aimons nous
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Love you all, fr </33333

ib @y4ndere @lilac @winter @ev333 @kyoakyo @tekea @jugglyfe @chrxmey

Coexistence ep + *✧･ﾟ:* laine *✧･ﾟ:*

i tried something different 
mastered by me <3
we mixed our own vocals
featuring one of the ogs @noahsuri <3
produced by @whereisnomu ^_^
[hook]
yeah, you always complained i was never enough.
you turned me down everytime i tried showing you love.
you never pulled me through you would always shove.
what will you do when i decide to give up?

i swear everytime you call my phone i get anxiety.
leave me alone, writing thoughts in my diary.
it's too dark can someone shine their light on me?
i bet you never once even thought of me.
[noahsuri]
i think you never once even thought of me
quit playing baby what you want from me
pick up the phone yeah im falling to me knees
when im reminded of you i feel so weak

i really hate seeing old memories 
cuz everytime i do my mind cant compete
yeah all i wanna do is get back on my feet
but its so hard if you push away from me

i really like u but u push away, u dont feel the same at all
you were the part of me i wish that never left
you were the part of me that i never had

and thats why its so hard to let go of you
but i know the right thing for me to do
i feel weak without you
i dont wanna be without you
[hook]
yeah, you always complained i was never enough.
you turned me down everytime i tried showing you love.
you never pulled me through you would always shove.
what will you do when i decide to give up?

i swear everytime you call my phone i get anxiety.
leave me alone, writing thoughts in my diary.
it's too dark can someone shine their light on me?
i bet you never once even thought of me.

the wounds you left

on spotify  >.<

the wounds you left + noahsuri (nomu)

mastered by me & we mixed our vocals :)
featuring one of da ogs @jichuuu
happy early birthday gift for jichu <3
produced by @recyclexbin & @lewisgoing
[jichu]
swear wid all dis emotions
I could keep on going
I feel nervous, when u smile
i just bout 2 show it
n I b sweatin ur so fine
got me overflowing
just thinking bout da both of us
make me think Im floating
yeah, wish I could talk 2 u normally
yeah, wish I could show u the best of me
yeah, wish I could tell u that I like u
den u gon ask me why
its cuz ur just u
[akayai]
theres so much love in my heart
but its overflowing
i feel nervous when u smile
it has me floating
theres heart on my eyes
but u just don't know it
i get jealous cause of u
but i just don't show it
yeah, your love and affection it gets me going
yeah, the way your hair moves when the wind is blowing
can't stop staring at your eyes i need to focus
me and jichu really care but we just ain't show it
[jichu]
swear wid all dis emotions
I could keep on going
I feel nervous, when u smile
i just bout 2 show it
n I b sweatin ur so fine
got me overflowing
just thinking bout da both of us
make me think Im floating
wish I could talk 2 u normally
wish I could show u the best of me
wish I could tell u that I like u
den u gon ask me why
its cuz ur just u

overflowing

overflowing + jichu (recyclebin x lewisgoing)

IM BACK ty to @k4rson, @pw4prez, @skrena

lyrics:
im alone
i still hear you call
i guess i wont
ever know what you want
im alone
yea u left me in pieces
now im broke
and u were what i needed
what i needed
heart bleedin
yea i cared
thats the truth but u cant see it
what i needed
my hearts bleedin
my tears are falling down wonder if you
hear me
fallin down can u please js help me
cus of u girl u make my heart bleed
cus of u girl i swear i cant see
i cant see

@k4rson

(me)
im alone
i still hear you call
i guess i wont
ever know what you want
im alone
yea u left me in pieces
now im broke
and u were what i needed
what i needed
heart bleedin
yea i cared
thats the truth but u cant see it
what i needed
my hearts bleedin
my tears are falling down wonder if you
hear me
fallin down can u please js help me
cus of u girl u make my heart bleed
cus of u girl i swear i cant see
i cant see

heart bleeds +karson (sochi, skrena)

thx for all the plays recently im rlly humbled by the support :>
prod @prod_dxvi
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

i think ill lose myself
and i know i cant fix my health
all these pills that i take
they cant ever make me feel the same way
not as i did back then

i cant make this end
wish i could but i cant pretend
ill lose my mind when you look at me again
(look at me again, look at me again)

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

lost

lost (dxvi)

hi guys im in college now thx for the support on the recent songs :>
//
lyrics:

looking in your eyes all i see is the same thing
i dont want to try, i got nothing to bring
i see you looking now, i wish i could
i never understood whats behind your eyes
i look around, all i feel is doubt
dont know where to go, i dont even know
every day i feel the same
i know theres something wrong but i dont know what to blame

i ran away
ur in my head
i dont know when
i cut the thread
left you on read
was so confused
i felt so used
i just needed some time

you took all i said as a lie
you wouldnt ever just tell me why
you wouldnt talk so i did the same
everything before we did was in vain

i cant look behind
theres nothing left to find
its not helping me
everything i see
you were scaring me
it was wearing me
it was wearing me down

looking in your eyes all i see is the same thing
i dont want to try, i got nothing to bring
i see you looking now, i wish i could
i never understood whats behind your eyes
i look around, all i feel is doubt
dont know where to go, i dont even know
every day i feel the same
i know theres something wrong but i dont know what to blame

your eyes

your eyes (shatter3d)

Yes the cover art was made in paint
@negativecreeper @erdo
Lyrics -
Don't wanna see you so I'm ducking
You gon cut me out, you know I do better, no discussion
it's not even realistic you can't do this shit without me
Got too many fuckin problems, now you trying to surround me
with your bullshit
I don't wanna do it
I would do it later, but my time spent on my toolkit
acting like a kid
you're hypocrite, and you just won't admit it
Got so many other things you could be doing
but you're missing me

I'm just so burnt out
I'm just so stressed out
I can't handle my jobs
I can't handle my doubt
I'm just so burnt out
I just get turned down
It just don't make sense
Why I get counted out

But I can't say I care at all
I'm alone all the time, it's a blessing and a curse
Maybe I could learn to love myself
But every time I make progress, it turns for the worst
I'm in pain all the time, I just don't talk about it
I lack the talent to create, it's driving me insane
Needed something, so I went inside my head and found it
I can't help but wonder if that was a mistake
Cause I know
I'll always fall alone
There's no way around that
But I don't know if
it's something I can take

And I was never one to talk down on a person
But I'm done with your bullshit
got double standards and more shit to go around
cause just so incapable of what you're meant to be
I don't want
To do this
But you leave me
With a bullet
And your name
etched to it
and your face
you tried to fool it

(repeat chorus)

Curse (Negative.Creeper + Erdo)

forever valentine (neohn)

prod: @xtasane
mixed: @remiliaxd & @hartfxlt2k

@remiliaxd : 

oh
take another shot, then i fall
put a hole in the wall
i might lose it all
carry all my sorrows
think i'd lose it all
yeah i think i'd lose it all

this time, i won't wait for the fall
you're fine, ima tear down the wall
9 lives 9 hearts and you tear down them all
oh well that's fine
but i don't think that it's worth it

i don't deserve this
you put the words from my heart in the trash now it's worthless
like what's the purpose?
i knew your heart from the start, now you put it on the surface

@hartfxlt2k

now I know
Its not worth the risk no
its all just for show
I know that u throw me down
if it means youre getting what you wanted
what did I expect have I forgotten? no
inside rotten with a pretty surface
Im still driving to your addy havent learned shit
and still your words in my head "you deserved this"
but the truth will come out to the surface

surface

remilia & hartfxlt - surface (xtasane)

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your eyes (shatter3d)

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