still

im done

Onna Soda

i'll try my hardest.
______
stab me in the back, i ain't talking acupuncture
really hate this headache imma punch me in my frontal lobe
i don't know why i was scared of you we grew up from the same roots and
i guess it's just been a long time

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

i don't know why i run away from you
i guess i'm scared of you getting critical
everyday i really try to improve myself, but it doesn't help
no, i keep falling back
and i'm fighting battles that don't need to be fought
but they distract me from thoughts
that only appear in the silence
they remind me of who i am
everyday i really try to improve myself 
but it doesn't help

i guess it's just been a long time!!

how long i gotta wait for you to realize the time ain't nigh?
do it now or you won't survive!

I stare at the knife
bear the ridges down on flesh
catharsis through the red
drown the voices of my dread

I've been waking up late again
It's pathetic, I've regretted how I've waited for months
to act on this hunch, hell, might be years if i overthought it this much
the singes on my skin, they worsen up the longer i stay pissing me off
i will not learn unless something is off
i'm getting tired of hating my phone, i'm getting tired of going on ghost
what if resigning and hanging my coat
could be the thing that stops the boat from tipping
all the times I've broken hearts
sometimes i think i'm just playing my part
sometimes i think i just gotta give it-

(time)
(everything i give...)
(everything i give is time)
(i guess it's just been a long time, since I've seen you)

(thanks @ilysh1ne for the vocal samples :)

stay the same

floheart