w/ @i9bonsai
prod @mkne + @kiryano + @1opgloryboyz

why r u always so harsh? words cut thru just like a knife
trying 2 tell me what is, but u do not know what its like
2 be alone, all by urself
all on ur own, without no help
the challenges that i must face
all the time, evryday
i do not know what i do but i do everything that i can
i dont know what i should do cuz u could never understand
just how it feels 2 live my life
im never well, nevermind
it dont matter, dont waste ur time
leave me alone, ill waste my life
i thought u were real, it turns out ur not
u are so fake, yeah emotional fraud
you tied me up, like i was a knot
got pain like its racks, and i got a lot
runnin ur mouth yeah u need 2 stop
got something to say then say it 2 god
dnt care what u tell me ya im turnin off
u robbed my heart now i need a lock

you freezin up like a blue screen
actin like u fukkin knew me
u are so odd, u are so wack
get out my life bitch ya u need 2 pack
CCTV, bitch watch how you act
not an ATM, don't take none of that

[i9bonsai]:
(???), is that a question?
plz dont talk (???) mentions
oh no, what's this essence?
i can see, u havnt learned ur lesson
ive felt awful all the time
(???)

[chorus]

nevrmind w/i9bonsai [prod. maknae + kiryano + 1opgloryboyz]

Big bucks imma spend it when its made
Good looks now they wanna know my name
Oh god 
I cant run away
Is it safe for me?
This world wasnt made with me in mind
I need therapy
x2

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
Nothin really set
Fuck the name i was born with
X's on my heart
Fall in love
But i burn quick
I get sentimental 
When i drink
I just love you
Talkin all the time
Like what you think?
I just feel you
I dont wanna die
I got so many things that hold me
But i dont wanna live
If this life gets too boring

But you dont make it boring

And i dont wanna go outside
When its raining and pouring
Im getting older i know it
But i dont really feel it

And i dont really look it
I can thank the estrogen
For all the people lookin
God i feel alive
Like i just started living
Like i dont wanna die
Who the fuck was i kidding?
x2

Big bucks imma spend it when its made
Good looks now they wanna know my name
Oh god 
I cant run away
Is it safe for me?
This world wasnt made with me in mind
I need therapy
x3

its not all bad

“Digital Ashes”

different from the crowd (iyaaz

everything you have

everything u have (maknae x kaiser)

prod. @sanriorose

drawing by 9ball
https://twitter.com/ok9ballgogo

don’t know why I just feel this way 
hide my face I know I can’t change
blow my brains cuz you think I’m strange
run away, I don’t wanna change 

disconnect me from my pain now  
but I don’t know how 
I just wanna lay low 
don’t wanna see you gotta stay down 

taught myself I don’t need you 
all ur lies are so see thru 
taught myself I don’t need you 
all ur lies are so see thru

I don't wanna change「prod. dolly」

produced by @opal707
featuring @d1vwv
mix/master/cover-art by me

ok lets do this
i never knew shit
always getting treated like the new kid
i swear im just human
theres nothing to it
i wake up eat my breakfast and get to it

everything been diffrent for a while
it changed for the better
ever since i met her
id hate to be the one that waste ur time
ngl find it hard to maintain a smile

i hate when it happends, tragic on tragic
i love it when i get to be with you i feel fantastic
touch feel like magic, better then imagined
remember how it felt to be alone i  cant go back there

i cant do it again
(i dont think this shit is fun i wont do it again)
ill do better this time

im just trynna sleep away the days babe
wanted u to stay so i made place
calling out names like i was never there
i cant seem to cope i disappear
one last try can i just love myself thats all i need
will i hide all of the things we kept underneath
idk what to call it im lost for words
the way that i forget it thats all its worth

maintain + d1v (opal)

prod.  garden ave! @bloodworth99  @taylor @4evrgone @asittingduck

why dont u like me 
is it because im different
is it because im different
is it because im different

feel it too, feel it too
tell me if u feel it too
she just wanna walk into my garden and take all the fruit
dont kno which direction i should go dont kno what avenue
lots of pain up in my chst that make me feel expendable
hold ur tounge when i am in the room
sink ur teeth into my heart just like an animal
hold ur tounge when i am in the room
stop and stare n try to figure out a different clue

why dont u like me 
why dont they listen
got me feeling like a victim
got me feeling so distant 
why dont u like me 
is it because im different
i cant fix it 
i cant fix it 

differnet so differnt 
feels like im stuck in oblivion
my mind just runs im losing it 
stuck in the ice im slipping in 
fuc my life im done with it 
fuc my brain im numbing it 
cant hear the words that u sayin man
i try to swim but im drowning 

why dont u like me 
is it because im different
is it because im different
is it because im different

why dont u like me  ‎‏‏‎ ‎(bloodworth + 4evr + taylor morgan + sittingduck)

@ reserrvv

sensation
on my finger tips
it reminds me i’m in love with this
in love with this
passive and plastic i can’t resist

resist
the temptations
that you present
all of my diary entries pertain to how you exist
watch you repulse when i try and kiss

the sparrow calls in the wind
but i don’t even know where to begin
the story is ever changing
to my every little whim

it surrounds me
you let me know i’m disposable
reach out toward me
both of ur eyes leave my body froze

Passive and Plastic

im smokig a cigarette the fumes go 2 my head
feel smart now but im dumb 
left u alone
whos in ur bed
im stuck
harsh inbetween
words i cnt speak
thoughts i cnt think
our love
carved in a tree
rottig away
healthy disease

we had a chat n we got lost
said id nevr b this way again
but it was fast so i forgot
told u i was bad at beig frriends

if u ever wan feel somthig come my way
ijus pop anothr pill same mistake
i jus wan kill sumn brand new day
iion wana stop but i thnk i need a break

cigarette

ya im free now 
frm demons tht i keep out
u need help baby reach out
and ill b there to meet u

n do u mean it
when u describe the feeling
i feel like i am dreaming
im trying to believe it

im playin on my xbox
they play me on their ipod
u play me grl like nonstop
ill let u win again

time stops
when u looked up our eyes locked
the sun has set but i watch
the stars beneath ur skin

had a look outside the window at the sky n it was red
maybe its a sign i wonder wat is coming next
i dnt come around but i might come down again
learning how to say whats in my head

planted in the dark where the seeds dont grow
i know tht its hard baby please dont go
always wna tlk to me abt where my problems at 
please dont ask

free now

yeah, okay

 #seraphim   bliss pop

producer n rapper

(she/her)

its not all bad

yeah0k!