@strivemusicau
@soulfadexo
@northshoremusic
@emptychest

(TNS)
When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(strivesad)
catch me out the back i think i'm feeling numb
never smoke away the pain but i'm still pretty drunk
caught me lacking once again cause i don't feel enough
played the game than got erased so i will soldier on
i ain't switching side this time but now i have to ask why
why am i not progressing in this life
caught me lacking once again cause i don't feel enough
played the game than got erased so i will soldier on

(TNS)
When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(soulfade)
Omnipresent
Catch me lying in the dirt
Everybody wanna talk
But they leave me in the hurt
Rather be alive
To tell you i was never sorry
Buried to the bone
I’m okay with the mindset
Don’t feel sad
It was written in the books
Don’t feel bad
You had it all coming
But that’s okay
Never loved you anyways
Fuck you bitch
Imma go my own way now

(TNS)
Can’t catch a fucking break I’m in my head again
Tripping over people that tried to hold me back again

Push the bad thoughts out my head I can’t control the past

Bitch I’ll break through
Fuck around the rules cuz I ain’t in school

Recharge living in the past I needa restart
“getting tired of living life just like a retard?” - grandma 💀

Hide away the pain inside my brain I needa recharge

When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(emptychest)
everything inside my head was built upon
some death
some death
some death!!!
been like 4 years but im still here
took a trip and i felt no fear
yeah i felt no fear
i felt no fear,
cause it was all i wanted

Numb w/ strivesad, soulfade, The North Shore & emptychest [+ loverboybeatz]

new acoustic single featuring the talented sophia milone!  

my new album 'for better or worse' releases THIS MONTH! March 24th!! Can't wait to share :)

Lyrics:
I've been searching through these blank pages 
story written in hidden language
follow the signs, to a different life 
I've been looking for
open up the door
I've been waiting for this to break 
all this hurting to turn into gain
darling tell me am I really falling 
cuz looking at you is like looking at scarlet 

(hook)
savior of my youth 
come here show me why I've been missing you 
searching for truth 
but then you opened up the door 
and I'm just staring through the framing into you

(soph)
deep impressions 
where I've been laying for what feels like months 
got up cold and tired 
routine habits push and shove 
tie up my grievance with a grimace 
and a cup of tea 
it seems romantic in your eyes 
but I wasn't being me 
I was looking but not for you 
a fountain hidden away just out of view 
a voice calls my name
did I hear that right 
follow it anyway
and walk right through the open door

(bridge)
for where this heading 
I thought there was nothing 
I looked at the timing 
that I put my trust in 
am I even ready 
is this even right 
but it all doesn't matter with how I feel tonight 
can we go on? 
if we don't where to start 
take me as I am 
if you can 
and ill keep you as the

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

graveyard love

~ fate

prod me

lyrics:

i can't say how long i've searched for you
but know that i'm entombed in you again
fresh blood stains cover up my shoes
i'm left without a clue where to begin

tear me down to pieces darling
it's only flesh
i only want the best for us but never can impress
what is it that i am fighting for?
across the shore, i think they want us dead
guess there's no making amends

i'm scared to die
the blade has been pointed
they're aiming to cut off our heads
there will be no rejoicing
not even a noise no
not even a change in the wind
i'm mortified, the mortars cry
i'm deafened by constant barrage
the only survivor
the rage of the fires
that he wished that he had forgot

a change in the wind

prod me :)

lyrics:

i keep a photograph of you in my wallet
just so i can feel that you will always be there
it's gotten heavy, burned a hole in my pocket
but i can't let it go, it doesn't feel fair
and i've been sheltering a burden and feelings of uncertainty
every time i say that i love her it starts hurting me
aching in my chest, must feel guilty from the perjury
but i can't take it back, so i laugh and let it murder me

it's her world, i just live in it
i'm really trying not to give in
don't have the time to decide
should i wait? should i hide?
think i died when she kissed him
it's her song, i'm just singing it
pretty words unreceived and
i think it's meaningless to try
so i tell myself a lie
that it's fine, we're just distant

beneath the surface
i'm slowly turning into
what i said that i would never be
you closed the curtains
i'm left deserted and i'm
broke to know that's how we end our scene

Beneath The Surface

truth's
finally stepping out
i can see it now
you were never down

to be mine, again
and my heart it aches
sit and stare
at my own blank face

ill never forget the times that we shared together
i made it through hell and back
with you by my side, it all felt fine
again

it turns out that you were a liar
this friend, was never a friend, all i ever did, was hold you back
from you
really wanted instead!

ill miss ur family and miss your friends
ill miss the nights we spent together again
then again, then again, then again, it all went!

back to my mind set of being an a hole
i know i didnt treat you right you said that its my fault
ill find someone whos willing just to take bits of blame
cause clearly you thought you were perfect, not an ounce of shame in ur blood

and yeah it was fun
oh yeah it was fun
those 2 years were fun.

Life Is Tough Without You Pt.2 (prod. idly blare)

don't worry, it's not your fault

the conclusion to moss man

very special shoutout to the boys @horoshavibes and @swainesworld for helping make this happen

LYRICS:

(HOROSHA)
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?
How would you like to lose your mind tonight?

I guess I'm feeling it again,
it's like an energy borne from anxiety
and I can't shake it
information age, restless
paralyzed by potential endings

there's a million different ways to face oblivion
wait, it's too much, I'd better change apps
before I'm nauseated by the cognitive dissonance
of our own algorithms manufacturing distance
we're not okay

(MELMIGE)
slipping through the cracks again
mental chemistry off balance ensuring that i can’t relax a friend
is sayin something goes unnoticed
paying price for old components
seizing up i’m not as young as i once was
decades pass in a single month
relegated comfort cause i don’t stress enough
sometimes i try to listen but the instant some transmission
message sent i spread the distance
know that it’s not intention
i just can’t focus show a moment of my clarity
remember what i spoke on the comedy
how connections overwhelms and burdens younger minds
now mine is hurting all the voices gather into static find
it’s harder now to see the nuance
comprehension skills are put off
for instant gratification
no time given for creation
now i’m forgetting what i’m doing why i’m here or my relation
to the world around me
hoped by now i would’ve found me

stimuli inspires me to be complacent
now i’m tired nothing else about me
switching focus of my vision no precision
in my irises just finding nicer views for timelessness
and obstinance a pinch on tendons couldn’t wake me up
feel romero monster living numb and willful ignorance
reset tensions every time i’m swiping up
preset thoughts can’t miss the posts i want
attention fucked so i can’t help but be blunt

(SWAINE)
back on my 1 track shit
wait a minute
collecting myself like the damn deck just finished
was back in my cell
just a shell, mad diminished
feeding into self-help took me out of the grander vision
and the massive picture that im
paintin when i stay rappin with it
i cant believe it
i had to leave it
im way too down low to even speak it to existence

i know im misfit
i know that im different
i know that im mixed in with all these others who cant grab me without gloves like a pigskin
i know i dont fit in
i know i aint sticky like glue before they mix it
when i stick on em i aint ever lettin go
cuz this shit aint a fuckin hobby
think that i already told you so
i think you already know

put the blame on me here i go
if i was anybody else, i'd blow
if i made a song just a little emo
if i wasnt wrong would i really be close?
close to the edge
close to the ledge
if i jumped off, I'd be a legend i guess
you know im a dog, ima do what i said
and i still got it all left in me, fuck yes

romero (feat horosha and swaine) [prod alanfor]

produced by me

wish i never gave you my whole
wish you never fucked with my heart
now that im here we're rotting in hell
while you move on, yeah, help me understand
all the pain, we're the same
bro what is going on
now im all alone

i do what the fuk i can
say you love me leave me then
make me mad hang with my friends
deal with shit like that again
loving you was a mistake
see what u did my heart breaks
and i wont ever be the same
same (be the same)
same

i do what the fuk i can
say you love me leave me then
make me mad hang with my friends
deal with shit like that again
loving you was a mistake
see what u did my heart breaks
(my heart breaks)
(my heart breaks)

again

Left Behind

FDD1365 – Streetlights Remember

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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a change in the wind

Yokai Dreams